Testimony Share

I back slid! STUPID! I opened the door for the enemy to hurt me through my unfaithful action & sin. I knew better but didnt choose better. But thank God for His grace!

I contracted a major std. The kind that “doesnt” go away! But, the devil IS a liar!

I quickly RAN back to God. Repented and turned from my evil ways. At first I wept than felt sorry for myself but God pushed me through scripture reading, prayer, regular church attendance to stand on His Word, RISE UP and be the man that He called me and created me to be!

I DID!

By the end of the first month the vital signs begin to decrease. The second month, the vital signs were quite faint. AND by the third month there were NO vital signs of the disease AT ALL! HALLELUJAH! I was and STILL am healed to this day. King Jesus pushed me to dig in to His Word all the while He was giving me more of His power to get results in every arena of my life. I was and still am on fire!

Brothers and sisters continue to stand for our Lord and savior. If you stumble, KNOW that God IS a God of mercy, favor, grace AND love. He IS faithful to watch over His Word to perform and NEVER buy into the lies of condemnation. Remember, be a blessing BECAUSE we are blessed, in Jesus name. Love, Delton.

I have known God since I was a 11 years old. I have always been a strong minded person who always knew that God would do something with me one day but little did I know the kind of prayer that I was praying all those years ago.

I am a graduate and always knew that I was special. I have never been ashamed about loving God so much. And sometimes that is the key to some basic doors opening for you. I had the privelage of getting a visa from UK to USA to start working. All this while I always had God in my life because you dont get what you have by yourself. If God says he want to bless you he will. So I was making my money, living the single life and having fun but still worshipping God. Then I came home to Africa to visit my parents. That was it. The devil had something planned for me that I had no clue about.

It was in January 2004 when I met someone who wanted to marry me. I knew that I was getting older but I was very smart about men and their tricks. But for some reason this guy seemed real and loved me dearly. I was impressed by how quickly he learned from me. I never intended to marry someone who was not on the same educational backgound as myself. I was more advanced than him in everything, even speaking english. I believed in what some of the old aunties in my house would say that you make a man what you want. You polish them up. At the time I thought it was a silly saying, but before I knew it I was helping this boy become a man.

Time went by, I did everything  for this man, from send him money while in America, send him travelling, help his family, even have  a baby for him. What I did not know was that when I was praying  God use me did I know what he was going to do ? I left America and gave up my apartment, my two cars, my job to come to Africa and live here. Then God said it was time.

When I got here, that man called “husband” was not quite the person that I thought. He used me, he had children I never knew about, he was abusive, he used all my money and made me live like a poorper. It was such a shock that I nearly had a nervous breakdown and a mental breakdown. I went from having money to having nothing.  And to add icing to the cake he was a womaniser. And I never saw anything. And more to the cake was that he was not a believer at all. So all the secrets came out and I was shocked.

What is my testimony, its too big for words and only God knows the testimony of what I went through. But I want to encourage anyone who says to God use me, that keep praying that prayer. But be ready to go through something. I know what I went through and I know that I can council anyone with all kinds of situtions and I am so grateful to God.

God laid it on heart to start an NGO which will allow me to minister to all kinds of people on a global level. But I am in a bad sitaution. I am still in Africa even what to eat is a problem. I have lost all my money and I dont even have any money to register it and start the NGO. My life is totally horrible, but I know that God will see me through and he has promised that he will make away in the wilderness.

I hope that I have touched somone with this testimony. God Bless you and keep hope and faith alive.

Miss P

I will like to share this testimony to the Glory of God. i lost my father when i was about 4 years old. and sadly enough we were so poor that one my sisters was broughtup by mother’s elder sister while the remaining six of us returned with a truely heart broken mother to the dirtiest ppart of Nigeria at that time. harmed with no formal education she worked so hard to make ends meet. for the most my memory would carry me, i knew she had one clothe thenshe would wash it at night time, dry and wear againn the next morning and some times if she is not lucky she wears them wet the next morning. but mama was the best mother one would ask for. she brought us up in the ways of the Lord,most times we slept on the floor with no food but we were honorable and contented. i remember going to school was not fun because we couldn’t afford transport to school,trekking to and fro the school which is nothing less than 30km from my house, we get flogged for not being able to pay extra moral classes, provisions of little things requested by the school from time to time. i remember one time in primary 4 my mother had to weep to school to beg the teacher to exempt me as she can’t afford to pay.for all we lacked materially God compensated us with intelligence. mama was indeed married to all the sufficient God. she used to sing in our dialect that God will train all her Children. our home was leaking through the roof, floor whenever it rains.

Gradually God restored our hope, we completed school and got her a house off the slump, bought her,a duplex of six beedrooms in a decent area. my eldest sister is married now with 2 children. the eldest son is married and doing great. two of my sister are waiting God’s will in marriage. myself am married with a beautiful daughter. my elder brother is in finland working and happily married, with a son and a baby girl on the way while our last born is studying in Cyprus.

Indeed, ours is a testimony of God’s divine protection, providence and above all love. who would have thought we would survive let alone being something or somebody. indeed God be praised.

This is My Testimony

My Name is Niranjan Kanna . Born in Hyderabad.
Andhra Pradesh State, India. I was raised in a Christian Family
My mother was Born again Believer in Jesus Christ.
But my Father is a Social Worker. He did’nt Known Jesus with His Heart.
Jesus is Only In His Mind.

So when we were Living in Nizambad district of AP.
we Lived a Life with no relatives We r in the Hands of JESUS
He saved us from all kinds of circumstances. Because
My Mother was Born again and Lives for Him.
Then i went to school. i Have One Brother One sister.
SO everday My Mother and we all Pray with Fear of God.
Singing Hymns and Praising God. my age was 7 years may be at that time.
i was lead byGod. But when i joined school. My Mind was Coruppted with evil thoughts.
I used my self will to do the things of flesh.

No One is there to advice or to stop me from those ugly things.
Playing and doing all kinds of Ugly things was my life at that Time.
That was my school life. Then after completion of 4th Grade we shifted to Hyderabad city.
Then i was lead by my flesh and its lusts doing all kinds of sins.
Slowy watching movies and learning sins commited by them in TV.
started doing those sins but i had no peace.

But my Mother takes me to Hebron Church Golconda Chowrasa, Hyderabad.
There They Strictly take me to Sunday School. I used to cry in Sunday school
because i was separated from my mother. So i had fear to Go to church because they separate me from my mother.

In those days also i used to do all kinds of ugly things of lust of flesh.
and in the 10 th Class and i was introduced to smoking by friends and then
slowly alcohol.(But the way of the wicked is like total darkness.

They have no idea what they are stumbling over(Proverbs 4:19).
I have failed in 10 th class and later in second attempt i passed with average marks.
so i had no interest in study. i had set my mind to fullfil all fleshly lusts.
slowly i started robbery from friends pockets and mother and fathers money to use them for alcohol to buy ciggeretes to enjoy with friends.

I became a small thief for my self. Then i Had Friends who r Rowdy sheeters
They are Involved in all kinds of sins and one of my neighbour took me to internet cafe
with Him He showed me porn sites then i was addcited to them and chatting with others.
i use to follow them i dont wanted to be Honest and i wanted to be Like the mind of Goliath.
So i set my mind i building body. so i started eating food with much Chicken
and mutton, so after one year i became fat. Then i was also failed in intermediate.
But my Mother never stopped Praying for Me. My Brother was Not like me. He is sincere.
after some days after becoming fat i experinced Hell in my Life.

Because of the sins which i commited there is No Peace No Joy No Satisfaction.
i have tried to do work for little salary but i had no peace i was Like that I lost all my Life.
(Proverbs 5:11 In the end you will groan in anguish when disease consumes your body.
12 You will say, “How I hated discipline!
If only I had not ignored all the warnings!
13 Oh, why didn’t I listen to my teachers?
Why didn’t I pay attention to my instructors?
14 I have come to the brink of utter ruin, and now I must face public disgrace.”) This was My Life.

I cried daily on my bed to be saved from that Hell which i was experiencing in my life.
So my Life was Like that going for some years so i was hated by my brtoher.
because i was lazy. One day One Pastor came to our House and arranged a meeting he
came to our many times but i was in darkness. Then He told me to read Bible from first to last
He gave me One Testimony of small sister How she reads Bible How she Completed Bible
So i decided to read Bible so i started reading Bible secretly in my Home and Loved it.
before reading From Beggining (i.e. Genesis) i had some knowledge of Psalms read Bible sometimes in past like pslams 91 and 23 psalms.

But i never read whole Bible in my life. SO i started reading Bible. Then Bible Showed me my sinful nature slowly i feared God. so i thought that God GIves Me Knowledge. in proverbs it says “fear of the God is the beggining of the Knowledge” so i feared God for Knowledge. SO God gave me some knowldge He showed How fool was i doing sins and lost Good Health. My Heart was Mourning in the presence of God.

Then I loved Word of GOD very Much. and read all the old testament and Law but i had no knowldge of law then i read proverbs and Bible showed me my sins and I was Begging for Gods Mercy.
Then i little by little completed Old Testament. But I Loved and eager to Read New Testament which i never Read.

Now my Heart is thirst for Gods word. but i had no salavation. and i dont know anything abt salavtion. i used to chat with friends on internet discussing abt God and debating with them that Jesus is GOD. But for Myself it was not revealed to me.

Then i started searching the Truth and Typed in Internet “Google” website and saw many websites quoting the Gods words.

Then it Showed me Jesus Words I read some words from it ” Jesus didnt spoke any word by Himself But whatever God gave Him He spoke” These Words Comforted me Very Much.
SO i started Believing in Jesus Slowly i became a Lover of Bible. daily meditaitng on Gods Words i Tried to be like righteous person. because of the fear of GOD and HELL.

Because i Know that i definetly Go to Hell because i commited many bad sins.
One evening i was at Hotel One Brother invited me to come to church then i went with HIm Hebron Church which was Near to my House

AT Golconda Chowrasta. slowly i learned about Gods grace and How he Forgives our sins.
So i started Going to Church Regularly showing my family that i became a Good man.
Then suddenly i stopped alcohol some Bad qualities are disappeared My Freinds are drunkards.
it was difficult for me to stop it. It was Miracel in my Life. But by Gods Mercy i stopped it. then slowly smoking and all vulgar things.

Then it was continued for many days and I’ve accepted Jesus in Church and filled the Decision Card and gave them.

Then on September month in 2008 one day i was reading the Book which i was
written by Brother Bakth Singh about Fullness of GOD. Then Suddenly i felt like some thing came forcefully from my back and Touched and Entered into
me. i trembled with Fear it was Gods Presence. Holy Spirit Touched me cleansed me my sins and circumcised my Heart.

Then i experinced much Peace then God took me to church on other day with trembling i went to church and i had an enthusiasm to share my experience with others. in my Home we had a Dsicussion abt GOD in my Home By Brother was talking abt Gods Law and He said we r Not Under Law We r Under Grace. i didnt know abt that Because i was reading Gospels inthose days. Then days Gone it was revealed to me that My sins are Forgiven God spoke to me by Pastor of Hebron church.

Then i Had the Assurence of Forgiveness i was Thirsty to hear Gods Words in Both Church and TV. Now my New Life Begins. but didnt overcomed all sins many evil thoughts disturbed me daily in my dreams and in day. i prayed to God with fear but inevitebly i cant stop evil thoughts and desires. i thanked God for delivering me from sins. All alcohol and drinking and porn. Then i read Bible and Acts chapter Gave me Much Peace. Gods Miracles i have read n Acts Chapter And Imitated Peter. This Words are in my heart daily “JESUS is the Way the Truth and the LIFE”

Days are Gone Like that i falled many times in sins commited with my eyes and with mouth speaking ugly words. But God’s fear was with in me. I was Very Happy that God was Living in me. So i meditated to be HUmble like Jesus Sermon on Mount became my Lovely Words. Now Iam BORN AGAIN that what i learned form Church . I am Born of the Spirit as God said in Acts 2:17

I will pour out My Spirit up on all flesh”… God was with me warning in church of my sins i learned many Things from Church and Obeyed God in Prayer and reading Bible. days Gone Like that i was happy that i was saved. But the Lusts of Flesh remained like same. Motions of Body. I fully not obeyed GOD.

Then in 2009 One Pastor named devdas from Hebron church Spoke about Tabernacle. He explained difference Between Born again children and other who have Gone Forward Spiritually Grown Persons who had heard Voice of GOD. Jesus is My Saviour thats all i know i dont know to carry the Cross and Follow Him. I took Baptism on 23 May 2009. I didnt meditated on it. But i tried to follow Bible
Jesus said ” “Take up your cross and follow Me” I know this verse but i never applied in my life. Then after some days I was speaking to one person on the Internet He said dont u know Jesus said Not all Who says Lord Lord will enter Kingdom of GOD but those who do the will of GOd will Enter Heaven
These words Touched my Heart because i was not doing the will of God. Then He redirected to one preacher who is a preacher on Internet He was a Jew. Messianic Jew. He Follows Jesus and Obey Him. He speaks in Videos inYoutube website.

Then i started watching his videos. He Told me the Importance of carrying the
Cross. To die to self will and do God will. I asked Him By What does it mean by carrying the cross He said “Death to Self” and Following JESUS.

Then i Obeyed GOD With a Faith that He will Fill me With Holy Ghost. Because many prachers said that every born again child God gives talents.

Then i thought i had no talents Given By God because of not obeying HIm Fully. Then i prepared my Heart to Obey HIm fully. Then i thought its Internet. WHy do Jesus Force Me. Then i Went next day to Church There also they preached about Impotance of Carrying the Cross and Obeying HIm fully. GOD Hates sin.

From that Day God Spoke to me to follow Him and Stop doing sin. The Now it is Present day Iam Obeying GOD to Grow Spiritually and to do Gods Will. Thanks To GOD. HE NEVER Leaved me Nor Forsaked me. He was laways with me from my Childhood teachng me Good things to follow but i refused in those days But Now i prepared myself to follow Him with Love and Fear. JESUS DIED FOR SINS. AND ROSE FROM DEATH. This is My SONG Forever.

Please Pray For me. Thanks to GOD.

My name is Kathy I am 38 years old.  Between July and Oct of 2005, I overdosed three times. I had a life and death experience, heaven and hell. It was as if God had taken His hand off me and allowed me to experience full force the consequences of living seperate from Him. I was tortured over and over, beyond imagination, I could smell and taste hell. I knew it was hell, all along the thought continued to play in my head, You create your own hell.

It was dark and cold, but there was a dim light in the background which caused me to know I did not have to remain there forever. It was as if I had fallen in a pit, I was one step behind and could not get out. I tried to jump, I screamed I fought, but I could not get out. Just when I thought I would stop existing and it would end, it would all start over again.

It was like my life were on  a video tape and it was destroyed, the tape was torn into millions of pieces with no way to repair it. And at one point it was as if my body was in an explosion and it went tinto a million trillion pieces, the more I scrambled to pick up the pieces and put them together the more they scattered.

I remember screaming as loud as I could, Help God, please can you fix this please, Help me!!! Then I saw the brightest, purest, whitest light, and I felt the most sweet, soft warm presence upon me as I heard a soft sweet, as a matter of fact voice say, “Of course I can I’m God” Oh how sweet and gentle the greatest love ever experienced, I love to talk about Him He is so beautiful.

Anyway, I would like to say that was it and it was all good from there but apparently I have a tremendous stuborness or perhaps God just wasnt done showin me stuff yet, not quite sure guess if I need to know, God will tell me.  But I remember being takceled and handcuffed, put in an ambulance and being concious in and out.

I remember the harder I struggled the worse it got, the pain would intensify and the chains would become tighter. I could fell words, bad words they hurt, they burned, each and every one of them.

I recall, at one point it was as if the drs and nurses and police , everyone was playing a game, and really didn’t know what they were doing,  like whatever they were doing, really made no sense at all, and God was just allowing them to think they were doing it, when He was really the one working on me and keeping me alive.

So many things happend to me, and the more I share the more it begins to make sense to me. I know Jesus Chirst is the reason I am alive, it was His life in me that kept me from being destroyed forever, and the scripture which says not even the gates of hell can prevail, no evil shall befall thee, and no weapon formed against thee shall prevail, they are very real to me!!

The word of God, the Bible is alive, and it is full of truth and life, it was written by men empowerd by the holy Spirit, adn it is awesome, so awesome. There is so much more to share that happend but I don’t want to make it too long, so I will end now with praise and worship adoration for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, and Father God.

Jesus Christ is the Son of God, He came in the flesh and He was crucified to pay for our sins. He took our place and He defeated sin and death, and then rose on the third day, He is alive. I died with Him and it is no longer I that live but Christ that lives in me.

He also said to wake His children up because He is coming back, going ahead saying, “prepare ye the way of the Lord” For He has annointed me to preach good news to the poor, to proclaim freedom for the captives, to heal the brokenhearted, to say be strong do not fear your God will come, He will come and save you.

Halelujah, Praise be to God forever and ever, He is worthy

Hi, I am wondering if any of you can help me understand this. Maybe God, will prompt someone with what this means.

I had a dream about someone I was in a relationship with. It did not end well, and the person was turning to satanism, porno web sites and so forth. I had started doing warfare prayers at night before going to bed. Even while I was with the person I rarely had dreams about anything related to us.
In the dream I was in a house, what they call Dutch Colonial here. It was not terribly run down, nor elaborately furnished. There was an enclosed porch attached to the house. Also part of the architecture that is common here. It was winter so the front door leading to the porch was closed. I was wandering around the house. I met a woman who was in the house. She seemed quiet, but sneaky, I was “sweet” to her, and complimented her. She simply smiled with her eyes downcast. Before all of this happened, somehow after I was in the house, don’t recall myself walking in actually, a number of beautiful, but vicious wolves attacked the door. They could not get in and attack me, and even though I was alarmed, I started wondering around the house. It was when I came across the woman, who was in what appeared to be the kitchen. I knew she was involved with my ex, and I also felt leary of her. I was afraid, and knew my ex would show up. He did, I did not actually see him walk in the door, but suddenly he was there, and looking at me with extreme hatred and contempt.

A Christian friend said the dream was probably warning me to stay away from him. I have no contact with him. I sensed a lot of witchcraft, and occult, demonic spiritual warfare when I was with him. Specifically aimed at breaking us up. People around him hated us being together. He was not honest either. I sense that what I got from the dream was related to continuing warfare, and spiritual attacks being aimed at me, and the demons where mad because I was praying at night before going to bed. Any insight anyone has would be appreciated. God bless. Asia

Hi my name is Nicola and I am faced with a difficulty in my life. i have recomitted my lfe to God after I have gotton my little baby. After I got him i started feeling very ill and every doctor that I went to telling me that im going to be fine and there isnt anything wrong with me but I no to Myself that there is something wrong with me because there will be time when i will just feel like im sinking. I mean literally sinking. and there will be times when I will not be able to breathe properly. Some doctors told me that i have a bacteria in my body and if i dont get it cure effectively by the end of the year i would die. I promise God when he heals me will do so much for him so please pray for me.

I was raised in church from the time I was 5. My Mom had gotten remarried when I was 2 and we had all decided it was time to go. I got saved when I was six, in my Daisy class in Missionettes at my Assembly of God church in Corpus Christi, Texas! My Dad was in the military, so we moved often, and when I was 9 we moved to Memphis, Tennessee. While the military tried to find us housing, we lived in these horrid apartments with cockroaches everywhere…..we were definitely in the ghetto. I had to go to a predominately black school, where I was the minority…….but this didn’t bother me, in fact, I don’t even think I ever noticed! I only had to go the last half of my 4th grade year there. I had problems there from day one, but I just ignored the girls that teased me. When I ignored them, they would try to fight me. My brother and I walked to and from school with some other kids from the apartment building, and we had strict instructions to always stay with the group. One day, some girls tried to fight me, pushing my stuff out of my hands and pacing around me. I shoved my stuff into my backpack and ran through the school with them on my heels screaming at me…I didn’t stop for a while, I passed the spot to meet everyone and I didn’t stop even after I got out of the school. As I ran the tears fell hot and fast and my side hurt so bad from running that it was hurting to breathe, so I stopped by the high schools track and their storage buildings to catch my breath. I slipped my backpack off and leaned forward, putting my hands on my knees and head close to my knees, when 2 male high school students grabbed me, slammed me up against the side of the storage building and they both raped me. I never told anyone, not even my parents……in fact, I just told them a month ago. I figured I could deal with it…..but I quickly learned I couldn’t, not at the age of 9. But, because I didn’t tell anyone, I was still forced to play the part of the little church girl.

So, for years I went on, going to church, memorizing all the scriptures, I was an Honor Star, top in the state in JBQ (Junior Bible Quiz), I taught Children’s Church….you name it, I did it. All this time I knew God was still there, I knew He hadn’t left me, but I didn’t trust people, definitely not men, and I certainly didn’t trust myself. Now, I also didn’t blame God, but I wasn’t going to ask for His help. So, then in 1994, 5 years later, we moved to Alaska, and that’s kinda when all hell broke loose for me. I started to hurt myself. I figured if I could just hurt myself enough maybe all this pain inside would just go away. I hit myself with anything I thought could hurt me enough that I would be in pain, but other people wouldn’t notice. Then that wasn’t enough, so I would randomly hurt myself enough that I got attention for it…….I had to be in an arm sling because I had shoulder injuries from being a swimmer anyway.

Then I discovered cutting……..now, I was a swimmer, so I had to be smart about it, so I would cut myself on my arms just a little bit and my inner thighs, but mostly on my stomach. When you are self destructive, its never enough…..so, then I started not eating. It wasn’t because I thought I was fat, but it got me attention. After having to be hooked up to an IV thanks to my parents, I started eating again. But that pain was still there……

One night, while everyone was asleep, I went downstairs and swallowed an entire bottle of pills. The intent was not to kill myself, just hurt myself……….and it worked……I’m not even sure what I swallowed, but I threw up for days. My Mom just thought I had a bug……

My Mom was a teacher and she had a meeting that was going to run late, and since my Dad was in the Coast Guard, he was often away. So, she just had me throw in a pizza for my brother and I. When I grabbed the knife, this HUGE butcher knife, to cut the pizza, I stood in front of my kitchen window and plunged it into my stomach. If you’ve never hurt yourself, then you don’t know what something like this feels like, but in just seconds, this wonderful feeling of accomplishment came over me…….then I heard this noise. I looked up and low and behold, here comes my Mom’s car down our long driveway. So I quickly washed the knife off and ran to the bathroom. It wasn’t a very deep cut at all, wouldn’t have required stitches, so I took care of it myself. You can still see the scar if you look on my stomach…..thanks to the sun you have to really look, but it’s there. My Mom never knew anything happened.

A few weeks later we discovered we had orders to Oklahoma……yee-haw! But I was not happy…..I wanted to graduate with my friends, not move. Two weeks before we left I went to a retreat and the guy was preaching and I was being the good little church girl still, so I was taking notes, only to look up and see him standing in front of me. With mic still on, he says, “I need you to stand up please. Tell me that you are beautiful.” Haha, I’m not beautiful, I knew I wasn’t, on the inside or out…….I felt so dirty, used, unloved and all kinds of things by what had happened to me when I was younger and the things I was doing to myself. So I said, “I can’t”.

Preacher: “I was preaching when I felt God tell me to speak to you……..tell me you are beautiful.”
I just began to cry. Mind you, he’s doing this in front of like 2000 students.

Preacher: “I can see the weight of the burdens you carry, but you don’t have to carry them……..you can lay them down. Now tell me you are beautiful.”

Me: “I’m not beautiful….don’t you see?! If you can see the burdens I bear, can you not see my pain, can you see what I went through? Exactly…..so don’t command me to say I’m beautiful.”

Preacher: “I want you to tell me you are beautiful, and I will stand here all night waiting to hear it.”

Me: I started crying so hard and I fell to my knees…..you could’ve heard a pin drop the room was so quiet. I said, “I can’t! I can’t do it! I’m not beautiful…..I’m ugly, horribly ugly, I am covered in sin and shame. I am dirty and useless, I’ve been used and there is nothing beautiful about me.”

He got down on the ground with me and said, “Oh, but you are, you are a beautiful creation in Christ……all you have to do is lay your burdens at His feet and let Him carry you.”

I cried for hours, I never told him I was beautiful, and I don’t even remember his name. But 2 weeks later, I moved to Oklahoma, started going to a new church, told someone I trusted I was raped when I was 9, I didn’t tell anyone, and I let Satan get ahold of me and I didn’t want that anymore. So, in Sept. of 1997, I rededicated my life to Christ. He said, “You’re a writer, so you need to burn all of your journals about this. The only memory you need is the one in your head”…..so together we burned my eleven journals. I still have some trust issues, I don’t think that will ever go away, especially with guys…….but I harbor not hate towards the people that did this. There are very few guys in my life, its always been like that. I became a youth sponsor because I want girls to know they are beautiful…….if what I went through helps even one person, than it was totally worth it.

And so, even though I don’t think I am pretty or gorgeous, I am a beautiful creation in Christ, and that’s enough for me!

I was raised up as a child of a christian mother and a father who was an adherent of the word of faith. I think I had a typical childhood till the age of 6 years. At the age of 6 years I had my first Rape, I had largely replaced this happening till the age of 12 cuz it had happened again. I know it sounds strange but the second rape had helped me to get my memory back of my first one. My mother was both times not in shape to handle the situation and had declared the second happening as my own fault. I was shocked and deep fallen and afterwards I would say it had me more traumatized than the happening. It was the reason for my escape in a world where Soap Operas became very important and one love couple became my family. There were magic around them and they had a song called A little bit of heaven which became 17 years later my song or to be precise the song which had led me back to the Lord. I think I was 16 years where one part of the couple had left the soap and with her leaving my family were abrupt destroyed. It was hard for me to accept cuz my father had left my family in real life several weeks later and so I have decided to make a declaration of war to God. For me he was guilty for everything, for sickness, poverty, crime,Death and specially for my life.It was his fault that all the bad things had happened in my life, it was his fault that my father had left my family when I was 16, it was his fault that we were always in need for money and it was his fault that I had felt unloved.You see, for every bad moment in my life, I had accused him and I had felt good with that. On top of my Rebellion against him, I had decided to marry a guy who I didn´t love for 3 years but I had top it with a relationship to a woman for almost 5 years only in search for love which I hadn´t got from my family.So after the break up between me and that woman, I was deep fallen, because I had thought my world would be ended like couple of years before where the actrees had left the soap.These self-destructive Stations in my life had led me to my personal cross roads in September 2007. I had realized that something had to change but I didn´t know how and so I had chosen the only way which I had never taken before, since my childhood, I had started to pray?. I had told him that my life was till this point a disaster and that something has to happen, before something will happen to me. I really didn´t know what I had expected but definitely not what I had got, because after all that years of fights, declarations of Hate against him, he had answered me, not trough the bible or through another person, no through a song which had led me to someone who had given up everything only to serve God. Her story had encouraged me not to give up and to have a little Faith. Her story had led me also further to Lake Forest Church. At that moment, where I had found this church, I had known the lord had brought me home and I had recognized who he really could be in my life and what I could have, if I just make a few changes, and I had started to change my life and to accept Jesus as my personal Lord and saviour. I had cried in that night like I had never done before and I had apologized in front of God for my lavished and dishonest past. What has happened in my first year with God??.. After my turn I was so exited what God would do with me, which plans he would have. Afterwards I have to admit to myself that the time from September 2007 to January 2008 were a time of learning of Patience and Trust to him cuz he had made me so many promises which were unrealizable in my thinking. For example one promise I would visit Lake Forest next year(till that moment I had no contact with Lake forest) Since I had given up my controll over my life and had put him in the center, my life had totally changed. I came in contact with Lake Forest through dispensation, I became baptized of my church which I have found here in cologne through someone of Lake Forest and I was in Lake Forest on Novermber the 2 nd. God had kept his promise which he had given me on September the 28 th 2007, he had brought me home? Finally I have to say that my life is an amazing adventure at the moment full of discovery and Learninng and I am so exited what will happen 2009. Jesus became my best friend and there is no moment on earth that I could imagine to live without him anymore? One last wish I hope my testimony or story can also encourage someone outhere, some one like you?

About a month ago i suffred sensorial hearing loss which is hearing loss in the high freqencies.its usually noise induced.i also had a high pitched noise in my ear which is tinnitus and it was loud.it disturbed my sleep and made hearing difficult.it robbed me of my enegry i was depressed and thought that i would be like that for the rest of my life.i was scared couldnt eat,think properly and couldnt wait for death as it would be my comforter.i asked God why me? why now? i was just about to start university and it was an exciting time for me untill my hearing loss and tinnitus showed up.i questioned the value of my life.i actually got the hearing loss from a nite out clubbing and exposure to loud music over time,yes it was my fault and i was foolish to think i would never lose my hearing or damage them.

I felt guilty and was ashamed at my self thinking i was invincble.well i got my worst nitemare it was really ugly.i didnt know what to do. my dad was encouraging and told me to be positive minded always.he too had his share of suffering in life like all christians, i trusted his taughts but doubted if God would even give me a second chance. i prayed for forgiveness for all my past sins and immoral taughts of fornication.i taught my prayers would be answerd many years later guess what? God had better plans.

i started going on the internet for miracle tinnitus cures u name it… ginkgo biloba, herbs, medicines which would be hard to find. i even searched for internet articles on how people lived with tinnitus and hearing loss feeling sorry for myself i did that just to comfort myself and i was not alone. my tinnitus got so bad i actually broke down and cried to the lord with the most painful prayer i had ever prayed.i poured my heart to Christ.The good Lord lead me to Matthew 6:24-34.. No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day’s own trouble be sufficient for the day.

after i read that verse i felt a certain calmness and warmth that assured my life is in the right hands i trusted the lord with all my heart and soul and gave him my troubles. still i was depressed and felt that God will not heal me i continued browsing the net for stories of people who had been healed by God.untill i came across a story of a woman who got healed of facial pains by reading the Word of God and fasting. The lord lead her to fast for 3 days and she won her battle.she was healed even though doctors said there was no cure for her condition but God healed her that comforted me. i thought maybe i should fast i prayed to God and i said i shall fast for 3 days without food but only water i would drink.

My fast was not as easy on the second day i was hungry and weak and thought about how Jesus suffered for my sins.i continued praying for my condition untill my dad noticed that i havent eaten for 2 days.i obyed him when he said he i should eat as the bible tells us honour your parents. maybe thats what God wanted me to do because i was fond of scoffing his wisdom most of the times.which i regretted when i lost my hearing as he always used to warn me about the dangers of losing my hearing. as time went by i started hearing more and my tinnitus was flactuating going and coming. i tuned to TBN to see if God had a message for me,WHICH to my suprise he DID.i dont know the pastor’s name but he started praying for people who needed healing and i prayed with him for God to heal me and deliver me. A MIRACLE HAPPENED i started hearing as time went by i finally got my FULL hearing restored no need for hearing aids. I WAS HEALED HALLEJUAH PRAISE BE TO GOD!! my tinnitus it doesnt bother me anymore its so faint i dont notice it untill i listen out for it. in town,during a conversion i cant hear it i even forget that i had such a ringing that torments people. I WAS BLESSED AND I STILL AM. i pray that people who are suffering with tinnitus and reading this testimony dont get discouraged God still heals and is waiting to heal u. Today im still thankful to God for what he has done. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD GLORY BE TO GOD.AMEN!!!