December 3rd, 2013
I have a life changing experience i would like to share. It involves what i learned to be demonic oppression. This is a first hand lesson on how God puts us where we are needed when the time is right. I’m not going into details as i have it all written in detail if anyone would like to read it i will leave a contact email. I was not the one being oppressed but i was a witness to it and actually talked to the demon(s). Quite terrifying is really an understatement. I am confident that i was placed in this persons life to help rid her of this, she has had with her for a long time.
After the two Major encounters i experienced with this demon i did not know what to do, I thought about it all day at work after the weekend of which it occurred. I knew time was a factor, so i called someone who kept popping in my head. He was a friend and a brother in an organization i was in, but not a close friend, he lived in another town. Why him? I don’t know, but i am convinced that’s who God wanted me to contact. I called him and explained to him the situation, which was quite a handful to swallow for most people, but he could here the sincerity and desperation in my voice. He put his family and life on hold for an entire evening to try to find me someone to help. He was on the phone for over 5 hours and after rejection after rejection from priests, preachers and such, he was getting quite baffled himself. the number one thing that was told him by all these preachers was have her go get a mental evaluation. I had to stop him and say I know for a fact, without question that this is spiritual. The reason is because supernatural events had happened of which we both witnessed(doors slamming in between us, …etc). Had it not been for things i seen with my own eyes, a mental eval would have been an option. After my confirmation that is was without a shadow of a doubt this is spiritual he continued on the next day. I had talked with a guy i worked with about it also even before i called my friend, but i went back to him, and he told me to find a Pentecostal Preacher, Pentecostals believe in the exorcising of demons, the guy i worked with had been to 2 excorcisms in the past. So i called him back and told him who to find. A few hours past by and he called, he said “you can now take a deep breathe, i have found someone to help you.” I immediately busted out in tears, i thought no one was gonna help me, being denied after preacher after preacher after preacher, someone was willing to help, A pentecostal preacher that lived about 5 minutes from my friend helping me. He spent all that time reaching across the state and beyond trying to find someone and it ended up being someone who lived right down the road from him. As all this was going on with him helping me, I had to tell my girlfriend, the one being oppressed, what was going on because i learned that she has to consent for it to be removed from her. All the events I witnessed, she was completely blacked out and didn’t know about any of it. When i told her, the demon knows what she knows, so it started making some physical harm toward her , now she knew it could what it wanted at anytime of the day or state of the mind. I had it set up for us to go talk to the preacher and about mid day, she decides she is all better, no need to talk to them. This is how much influence demonic or dark spirits can have. While they can’t force her, they can strongly suggest. After hours of trying to convince i talk to my friend who helped me from the beginning, he said have her call me and let me talk to her. She didn’t even want to do that, but somehow, someway he convinced her to go, she was very on edge but we went. We talked to the pasture, his wife and the associate pasture for a couple of hours all together. I told him the whole story and he listened, they asked if she was a born again Christian, of which she was, but not living exactly right, but he said a born again Christian could not be possessed but could be oppressed and that was what was happening. They were prepared to remove any demons if she was possessed, but The Preacher found that she had been harboring strong hate all this time, relating to her traumatic, violent experience as a teen. So, a lesson her and I both learned this day, if you can forgive, it takes away the demons right to be there. Forgiveness is a very important factor in life. He explained to us that forgiving is not saying it is ok whatever wrongs have been done, but it releases you and puts them in the hands of God to deal with them. I had never thought about it like that and neither had she. She put her hate away and forgiveness she gave to the people that had done her wrong. The preacher looked at her right in her eyes and said “In the name of Jesus Christ, I command you to leave” She told me later than when he said that to her, she blacked out for a few seconds and it felt like a breathe came out of her. She has not had any issues since. 3 Months and counting. We have since been truly saved and Baptised. Demons cannot refuse the name of Jesus Christ. This is to me, and I hope to anyone that reads this can realize the people i came in contact with were put in my path to help me along the way. I am more than certain about that. Jesus Christ sets the pace for the things that need to happen when it is time for them to happen. I hope this may help someone in a similar circumstance. I sit back and wonder how many people have been in a situation like this not to get the help they needed. Demons do make it seem like things are hopeless, they focus on negativity, they lie, they corrupt the mind. There is hope.
Anyone who wants to know the details of what happened, just email me at: after42 at live dot com
I’m not a minister, nor do i have any schooling or official credentials to be giving advice, but i believe i have what God needs me to have to help others..to guide them. I have without any doubt The Holy Spirit protecting me, guiding me, to fill the void of the victims who have not answers, who are made to feel helpless, as i did for a brief time.
December 2nd, 2013
In the fall of 2011, my grandfather who had been terminally ill with cancer was called home to be with God. This shattered my world. I had never lost someone so close to me and I was grief stricken. I did however have peace of mind that he was with Jesus, as he was a devoted Christian during his lifetime and truly based his actions according to the phrase “What would Jesus do?”
After my Grandpa’s funeral, our family went back to his apartment in order to sort out where all of his things were going to go etc. Since our family is pretty big we decided that we would all go around and find something we would like to have as sort of a memento. I was still so upset, and didn’t know what I wanted to take, but I knew I wanted to take something significant; something that my Grandpa would have been happy for me to have. In consideration of all of this I decided to pray to God and asked him what I should take. Immediately after my prayer, the idea of taking my Grandpa’s most recent bible popped into my head. I battled with the idea a little mainly because I felt awkward asking for his bible. I wasn’t really following God at the time and didn’t want anyone questioning me on my beliefs. Following that, my non-Christian boyfriend at the time spoke up and was like “Wasn’t church and God his most prized possession? Doesn’t someone want his bible?” It was at that moment I knew I needed to take it. I knew it was God speaking to me, and making himself very clear on his answer to my prayer, so I took the bible and am so glad that I did.
After the funeral and everything was settled I really felt God begin to pull on me. I don’t know how to describe it any other way because he was literally pulling on my soul trying to bring me closer to him. I became really curious about what happens when you die, and where you go. I found comfort in reading my Grandpa’s bible, in which he had left bookmarks, underlines and highlights. I started praying more frequently and I don’t mean traditional head bowed eyes closed prayer; I literally started talking to him throughout my day. I talked to him about my grief, my stress with school and other little things about my day. I also felt this intense longing to be closer and closer to him; I wanted more so I continued to tell him that I wanted to be closer, and I wanted to feel his presence more. He answered this prayer and took our relationship to another level.
He spoke to me in a dream one night. I dreamt that I was walking down a long road on a foggy dreary day. I had someone who I’m very close with who was walking beside me, although I still can’t figure out who that person was all I know is that we were really close. As we were walking down the long grey road we were filled with anxiety and fear. We came to a gathering of people on the side of the road and Jesus was in the crowd talking amongst them. We walked over to him and he greeted us with the biggest hug ever. It was amazing! I was immediately filled with peace and love and I felt so safe. It was a similar feeling to the feeling you get when you’re young and scared of something and your parents hug you to make you feel better; just pure unconditional love. I could have stayed there forever. He then uttered these words and only these words in a soft but powerful voice “Why were you so afraid to come to me?” And that was the end of the dream. When I awoke in the morning I immediately remembered this dream and only this dream, and to this day I can still recall it as if it just happened.
A month or two after my dream God spoke to me through what I can only explain as a vision. It was the most surreal but yet amazing experience I have ever had. Because of the nature of it, words really can’t do it justice, however I’m going to attempt to share it with you. It was such an eye opening experience and showed me just how real Jesus is and how merciful God is.
So one afternoon, after I had written my exams, I was lying in my bed and attempting to have a nap. My eyes were closed and I was just sort of lying there trying to sleep. I had just listened to the song “Hallelujah” so I was sort of singing it in my head all the while talking to God and thanking him for helping me with all of my stress and grief that I had been experiencing. All of a sudden I could see golden swirls forming in front of my eyes, it was as if my eyes had lit up. This literally caused my heart to skip a beat. You could compare it to being in the dark and a light is turned on and all of a sudden you’re able to see something that was always there but just couldn’t be seen. From my field of vision I was looking down at the ground mesmerized by these amazing pink flowers, which looked kind of like lilies. There was a warm golden glow in the center sort of hovering over the lilies. My vision began to move and I felt as though I was flying or gliding over the lilies, which turned out to be a field of lilies that extended pretty far. When I came to a certain place everything became stationary again and the lilies along with golden glow remained the only prominent thing in my vision. All of a sudden water began to flow from the left and covered the lilies completely. The water was crystal clear and sparkling and I could still see the flowers underneath. The golden glow remained at the center now hovering over the water and lilies and there was a warmth radiating from it which caused my face to become warm. Suddenly I noticed water droplets, dropping into the crystal clear water that I was staring into, and the water rippled with each drop. This continued for a period of time until I realized that the water droplets were coming from me, from my eyes. This kind of shocked me because I assumed they were tears although I didn’t feel sad. I noticed my hair softly blowing in the wind beside me, however I couldn’t feel the wind. It’s hard to explain but I felt as though I was partially in another body, however not fully because I couldn’t experience all of the senses nor could I move this body, not that I tried because the entire time I was mesmerized by what I was seeing. I actually opened my eyes out of shock of what I was seeing and as I looked around my room the picture disappeared. I began to think about how beautiful and surreal everything I had just seen seemed. I felt like it was an experience from God but I couldn’t make sense of it’s significance. The something in my mind told me to keep watching so I closed my eyes again, and the water reappeared again. This time I saw a reflection of trees in the water all the while still looking at the golden glow and pink lilies underneath. My field of vision shifted slightly and I was now looking across the water to my right. Suddenly to the right a figure appeared in the distance, wearing a white robe. He walked down a path toward me and toward the water until he stood just at the edge where the water met the ground. I instantly knew that this was Jesus. I can’t explain how I knew I just knew. The sun was shining and he knelt down and scooped up some of the water in the palm of his right hand. He then extended his hand and the water out to me. It was at this moment that everything clicked in my mind and I realized that this was living water. It was the most amazing feeling of pure unconditional love that cannot be described in words. His extended hand surrounded by the golden glow became the only prominent thing in my field of vision and it lasted for a minute or two. The message was complete. He was showing me that he wanted to give living water to everyone so that everyone can share in his love and live with him forever. A message that I had heard before but I now understand a bit more of its significance.
After this experience I immediately searched for any bible verses that related to living water, and here are the ones that I found to be the most significant for this experience:
“But whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” John 4:14
“Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’” John 7:38
“And he shewed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb.” Revelation 22:1
What is amazing is that prior to this experience I wasn’t entirely aware of what the bible said about living water, other than the general metaphorical interpretation that it symbolizes everlasting life. Following my experience and after reading these verses I was brought to tears because it just made everything that much more real. There is no way that my mind could have made it up on it’s own. The message was crafted and relayed too perfectly.
Ever since I had these experiences I have felt compelled to share them. I know this message was meant not only for me but also for everyone. I hope that anyone who reads this is able to feel Jesus’ love the way I did because it is the best feeling. I honestly feel so blessed and humbled to have had this experience. Jesus is amazing and so full of love and peace and I truly believe that if you want to be really close with him all that you have to do is ask and have faith; faith that he will bring you closer and that when you are close with him anything is possible, literally anything.
November 17th, 2013
I was down and out, quite a bad mood,
No fault of mine..now what to do..
Every thought was building up high,
all my efforts and Satan’s lies
I sat in a huddle, drowning in gloom,
called on the Lord as I sat in my room
In a flash He replied, in His small still voice,
My child, dont think..just rejoice!
The world, the flesh, your every concern too,
Not all these are sufficient for you.
Cast aside each grief; its yours, this choice…
will you weep for the flesh or in ME rejoice?
Doesnt matter what your concern,
Nor your needs nor what you earn.
When you rejoice in ME, the Lord said
Your every earthly concern will be dead.
As you retreat…retreat into me..
My spirit of Joy will reside in thee..
So REJOICE! You are mine and all lies under me
Truly believe, my grace IS sufficeint for thee.
Praise the Lord for His amazing love
Praise Jehovah for His provision from above.
Doesnt matter what we see or dont see…
Believe! …we live in Him for eternity!
Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice. Philippians 4:4
This is the day the LORD has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
November 8th, 2013
So warning, this is going to be quite long so I hope you have patience and time. =) so first of all I want to just thank god for bringing me through all the trials and tribulations that I went through. They all ended up being for my good and made me become this strong believer that I am today. Last year I met this guy in august and we began talking and hanging out, I found myself at his dorm every night. So you know what we were doing EVERY night that I was over there. We hit it off really quick and things seemed so great because for a long time I was in and out of relations with different guys and never got serious with anyone. So when this guy came around and I saw how we hit It off so quickly and everything seemed perfect I wanted to hold on to him and do anything to keep him around. So as time went on, ive always had a Christian background and loved going to church and if I didn’t make it to church I would try and catch joel osteen or Charles Stanley. And this guy wasn’t into church to much, I mean he believed in god but it wasn’t enough belief to dedicate a sunday and watch church or attend church. so I should have known then they we are unequally yoked its not going to work. but me being in a feeling of feeling loved and wanted by someone I brushed it to the side. So some weeks later, with me still being over there every night I came home one day and didn’t feel good. I ended up getting a bad cold and I was like what in the world? where did this cold come from! About a week later I had a dream about fish, and when I normally dream about fish someone is pregnant that’s close to me. So something told me to get out of bed and take a pregnancy test, I took the test it came back positive. LORRRD HAVE MERCY I was tore up! Crying and crying, keep in mind this guy has a child already. So he finally calls me like any other day and I answer and he is like hey what you doing” and I’m like still crying and such, he asks what’s wrong and I tell him that I’m pregnant. He’s in shock and tells me he is going to call me back. He calls me back a few moments later and says
“Everything is going to be okay. We will figure this thing out etc.”
So that made me feel some what better. As days go on.. the baby is growing inside of me and so on, Me and his relationship Is falling off. To make a long story short he had just broken up with his ex girlfriend when me and him had got together and that was a big mistake. I was a “rebound” to help him get over her. So anyways i’m about 6 weeks and we come to the conclusion that i’m going to have an abortion because he is in school and can barely take care of the kid that he has now. So it was Halloween night and we went out and so on and the next day I go to get the abortion (nov 1). He couldn’t go because he said “he had class.” So I ended up going with his sister because you have to have a driver afterwards, I go in to get the procedure done surgically and as I am on the table I’m praying for god’s forgiveness and that he forgives me and so on. It didn’t hurt and it was done pretty quickly. So after that I ended up dropping his sister off because I was tired but I could still get around, so I get a phone call from one of my best friends and she tells me that one of her friends called her and told her that she saw my guy with his ex talking and hanging today. The day of the abortion when I needed him the most to be there with me. So I’m furious, I’m heated and hot ready to go off on him when I seen him. So when I saw him and asked him about it he got all upset and told me not to believe what I hear. So I just kept it moving. As days went on we fell off and kept getting into arguments over stupid stuff and finally one day we just called it quits… he broke up with me. I thought the world was over. I was so hurt, heartbroken, it would only take GOD to heal the brokenness that this guy caused me. Right after getting rid of the baby. So after some healing and time went by… a few weeks, my ex hits me up (this was a test from god to see if I learned my lesson). So he hits me up and ask could he see me. keep in mind my ex and the other ex that just hit me up are on the same football team. So to make a long story short he calls and I run to see him. You know what we did that night. And a few other nights as well. So one day I was In my home again and just wondering like “hmmmm my period should have been on by now” so something told me again “girl take a pregnancy test” I take a pregnancy test and it says POSITIVE. At this moment i’m in aw. Like this is not really happening!!! Wow! So I tell the guy and he is like
“wow are you serious…that’s crazy blah blah”
Then as days went by he started telling me to get an abortion and I told him NO. I just had one a few weeks ago!! and he was just rude and mean,
“I’m not going to take care of it! I’m not giving you a dime! How do I know this is even my baby”
Just pure meanness that he gave me about the situation. About that time I had came to the conclusion like
“Lord obviously you are having me be pregnant to slow my tail down, so I’ma have this baby, I don’t care what this boy talking about.”
So I made an appointment to go to the doctor to see how far along I was and to just have a regular first check up when you become pregnant. The nurse took my blood and weight and all that good stuff. then she asked if my best friend and I wanted to see the tiny little seed that the baby would look like in my womb. We said sure! why not. So she turns the lights off and puts the gel on my stomach and uses the machine to see the baby with. All of a sudden the nurse gets real quiet and says
“How long ago was your last missed period?”
I said well I have had one since the previous abortion a few weeks back. She shows me the ultra sound and there is a BIG baby bouncing around and waving and just heart beat going crazy so glad to be noticed! I was almost 13 weeks pregnant! The abortion didn’t work, it wasn’t completed. My best friend and I start balling crying because we had knew this wasn’t going to be good . Keep in mind my ex (the baby’s father) is now back with his ex girlfriend, we had a terrible break up, he found out that I was back talking to his teammate from before so it was ALLL Messed up. So the devil was like “don’t tell XYZ that this is so and so’s baby, let him just keep thinking that its his.” I couldn’t do that. I immediately called XYZ and told him that I’m still pregnant from so and so. The abortion wasn’t complete and I have almost a 4 month old baby inside me.
He was relieved but still apologized by the way he treated me and acted. So I had to call so and so (baby’s father). Keep in mind we haven’t talked for weeks, he has moved on with his life, with his ex and they just having a good ol’ time.
So I call him, I tell him that I’m still pregnant and he flips out on me “B&^%% YOU A LIAR, YOU CRAZY how you gone call me and lie! That’s XYZ baby! you better call him you crazy B&^&**(and he hangs up. So I of course cry some more and more and I never called him again after that just because I couldn’t deal with the way he talked).
So each day the baby was growing, I had to make a decision. I could keep the baby, and the father not be apart of his life, or I could go back to abortion clinic and do the abortion over. I’m about 12-13 weeks at this time so the time limit is cutting close for them to even to an abortion. I finally make my mind up that I’m going to do the abortion again and start a new life.
I prayed and prayed for forgiveness and for god to be with me since I’m far along into the pregnancy for anything could happen. So as I’m on the operating table the doctor comes in and has all his equipment and is ready to do what he has to do to remove the baby from me. When I tell you I felt every inch of tools, I seen blood slashing, I felt tears running down my face, pain pain pain, all I could do is cry and pray..
I looked at the nurses faces around me and they looked in shock like “this is bad” abortion gone wrong type of deal. so once the doctor was done, he tells me to get up and wait in this other room for some time to calm down and take some pills to prevent pain and infection. So about that time as soon as I got up I seen blood all over the floors, it looked like a crime scene. I get up and sit down they told me to wear a pad for the next couple days and even maybe up to two weeks. So I went to bathroom to change out of the gown and I noticed that the pad I had on kept becoming full of blood, and I kept having to change it, I told the nurse and she said well you shouldn’t’ be filling up the pad like that, so I went through almost 6-7 pads In some minutes. They finally called the doctor in and he says that my blood pressure was about 200/150 and I was on the verge of going into a stroke, losing so much blood they needed to monitor me or I would be going to the ER to perform another surgery to stop the bleeding.
So after about an hour, the bleeding calms down. I’ve lost soooo much blood at this point and I’m really weak, I can barely walk to my car. I’m steady praying and praying, I’m driving home and I stopped at a target to pick up some maxi pads, I got out the car and I felt the biggest clump of blood fall out of me and it ended up being all on the back of my sweat suit. I start to head home and I’m like I could bleed to death, I need to go to ER.
I ended up going home, talking to my mom and just praying and praying, I was so scared I didn’t think I was going to make it through the night BUT the power of prayer that my mom and myself had I slept with the bible and with her that night I woke up thanking god for getting me through the night. God gave me another chance at life! I should and could have died that day! He has me to here to minister my testimony and to share!!! Every since that day on the beginning of the year was approaching and I changed my life around! God restored me! He brought me through all of that! it was a healing process physically and mentally that I had to go through!!! I had to change my life around because I said I would never wish that on anyone! So every since I’ve really dedicated my life to god, he has blessed me with strength, joy, love and just the PEACE that money can’t buy! There’s more little details but I’ve written a lot! I continue to pray for the readers and I hope that god blesses each and everyone of you! Share what god has done for you!
November 6th, 2013
In the year 2007 I lost custody of my only son this was heartbreaking. I was living with my grandmother at the time and wasn’t at all stable mentally, emotionally or physically. But at this particular time I felt it was so unfair.
Three days before the police came knocking at my grandmother’s door with a written of attachment to pick my son up my son told me “mom the police are going to pick me up” I didn’t know what he was talking about but he said I’ll be back. Well it came to pass that they picked him up and took him away from me.
Oh my I was torn into pieces I was a young mother but I loved him so much and didn’t want this to take place. So after he left instead of turning to God I turned to pills, weed, sex, alcohol for comfort. I didn’t want to deal with life or bear the pain I was feeling I didn’t have a strong support system at the time I was lost and this made it worst.
Well I was at work one day and a woman I didn’t know came up to me and said that all God wants me to do is surrender and he will give me my hearts desire I listened but not really but it gave me hope. I went to church but wasn’t saved a the time and the pastor gave me a prophetic word that I would basically get him back so that gave me even more hope. So in 2009 after living a crazy destructive life I was truly at the end of my spiritual rope. I was heavy very miserable and unhappy. I didn’t have enough sense to really go to God but one day I was writing to God at church.
So after church I got in my vehicle and started weeping crying out for deliverance crying out for change it was my soul then I was then I felt the presence of God and gave my heart to him. He later started dealing with me I repented. He exposed the darkness in my life and I turned to him and he changed my life.
Now at the time I still didn’t have my son. As a matter of fact I prayed to God about it and hurt so deeply about the holidays and birthdays were depressing but every time I would break down God would come and console me comfort me strengthen me and give me a peace. I knew it was going to work out he would bring my little boy back to me.
In those times being apart from my son I feared that he would hate me but God restored our relationship. I was without my son in my custody for 6 years its 2013 and God did it. He fixed it where I didn’t have to have a lawyer even though I started off with one. It was all God. He was my lawyer He brought my son home to me this year and no one can take him now!!!!!! Glory to God. God said he would do it and in his perfect timing he did it. I can say I am thankful it happened because I wouldn’t be the mother I am today. God allowed it to happen and what the devil meant for our bad God turned it around and is using it for His Glory… In the midst of it all I learned how to wait on God depend on him and trust Him. If God said it believe it in His timing.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
November 5th, 2013
I pray that God uses this to help, heal, set someone free in Jesus name.
God just recently helped me get out of a marriage that was toxic and not a good situation for me or my son. I was married to an unsaved man for about 3 1/2 years. When we married I wasn’t saved and he wasn’t. But God saved me in the beginning of the marriage. We had a war in our house we were on two different pages. I sought God about the marriage and felt like God was telling me to just stand so I prayed for strength I prayed that God would save him and fix me to love him.
When we first married I didn’t love him at all I had lots of unforgiveness toward him because of what we had experience in bad times in the past. But I grew to love him when I drew closer to God. He caused me lots of pain, from cheating and mental abuse and emotional abuse. But in my mind I was hoping and believing he would change. so I asked God to give, me strength.
Well he was doing illegal things and God had recently brought my son back to me. He started not talking to me for no reason at all it was hurtful because I was trying everything I knew he started being very disrespectful so I went to God. I was broken hurt and miserable and just wanted him to love me but he was doing the opposite he was rejecting me many times I would want to hug him and love him he rejected me. So I went to God again I told God I was so tired and I was. God told me to let it go I didn’t understand it. I didn’t want to because in my mind I thought God would save him but when he left I cried deep groans I hurt for two weeks couldn’t eat or drink but the whole time God was talking to me encouraging me and gave me peace.
I will never fully understand why God allowed me to stay and endure as long as he did. But honestly I feel like even in a bad situation God was making me I learned how to forgive, how to love, submit, lean on God. I asked God was it over forever he let me know it was. But you know God gave me strength and grace to come out of it. God knows what is best for us and he wants us to grow in Him sometimes what we think we need is the opposite so now I know my worth as His child.
November 4th, 2013
God will tell you to let go of some things that you think you need to hold on to. Mine were relationships with some people, me staying in a area, etc.
So when I finally let go of that relationship and moved out of that area, god was able to work!!!
We could be holding on to things and people that god is trying to break about! And those things/people that we are holding on to are blocking our blessings.
For people that are waiting for Mr right or Mrs. right, we can’t get to them because we entertaining Tom, Sally, And John. So soon as we let go of some people or things, it may seem crazy or like “why would I need to leave this person alone” just try and and see if someone else doesn’t walk back or into your life.
I’m a living proof. I met his young man, and we hit it off pretty well just recently, but I knew in my head this isn’t probably who you are going to marry, but I entertained him because he was so convientent and lived literally across the street from me! So we had great times together, I was helping him with trying to become closer to go and get god into his life. Then all of a sudden god tells me “you need to leave (the guy) alone.” So I ignored god for some weeks and kept talking to the guy. Then it finally hit me to leave him alone. One day I just blocked him number, and tried to avoid seeing him when I went outside…I did that for a few days and god worked the exact same day!
The Rent-A-Center guy that was coming to help move some furniture out came and he ended up staying at my house for about 3 hours just talking about god and how he has been praying for his wife to come and so on and all the goodness god has done for each of our lives. So that was god showing me how quick he can work!!! But just obeying that task of letting go of the guy I really liked, or at least thought I liked that showed faith and trust that I trusted god even when it didn’t make sense!!
Then I got so much CLARITY as far as what my next move needed to be.. and so on! Then I few days later, the love of my life messaged me on facebook. (the guy god told me I was going to marry) messaged me on facebook, wanting to talk. This guy I talked to previously and he was taken away from me because of certain reasons why god would take your blessing away.. so me obeying god and removing things/people that blocked my blessing made way for god to bring him back into my life!
Trust god and do what he asks! You will know when you feel it in your spirit when he speaks to you.
November 4th, 2013
I’m Taylor. And this is my story of being healed of depression.
I have been a christian all of my life, and thought i would never experience anything like depression. Had no problems. But then it happened. It first started when I was 12 years old when my uncle had died, and I was devastated. It happened so suddenly and the whole family was shocked, it was really a tough time for everyone. I managed to get past the funeral and burial without any tears, but I was hurting on the inside and didn’t show it because I felt unworthy of mourning for him, because we were never that close. Then my grandfather got put in a nursing home because he had Alzheimer’s. That crushed me. His Alzheimer’s got worse as soon as he was placed there. Forgot who I was. Forgot who his children were. And forgot who his wife was. It once again was a tough burden on everyone.
I began to feel depressed after all of these tragic events happening, thought about running away from home. Committing suicide. Cried myself to sleep at least 4 nights a week. Was self conscious about my body, was thinking of becoming anorexic. I had loved church all my life, and enjoyed going. But that passion to go was missing. I was going through the motions. I knew God had a plan for my life and I really think that’s what kept me alive. I never told my parents what I was going through, I felt like this was something that they never had to go through, my parents were already stressed, and I didn’t think they would even get it. Just get mad at me. It started getting worse. I was mad at people for no reason, was stressed over school, and just wanted to die. Never took any anti-depressants, so I was feeling miserable. I honestly know that it was God who kept me alive. I was really down, even on my birthday.I just wanted to sleep all day. I isolated myself from everyone, when I should have told someone. I put on a face out in public that everything was great, when really, I was dying inside. Thought about texting my best friend, when I didn’t and she was going through the same thing.
Then we had a movie night at our church, “Finger of God” by Darren Wilson. After we had a time of prayer, and I asked God, “If it’s your will, tell someone to pray for depression over me.” It was. The pastor had asked how I was doing, and I broke down crying. I couldn’t hide it anymore. I was done. And he had prayed for spirit of depression to be broken off of me. I then was healed by the power of the Holy Spirit, and set free. I was back to my normal self again. God is doing wonderful things, and if you are struggling with depression, talk to someone. A pastor, a parent, a best friend. Because they will pray for you and help you through this.
November 4th, 2013
I have been struggling with impure and lustful thoughts for a long time. It all started with my sexual sin. Although I was able to contain myself physically, I could not stop myself from having those desires or imaginations. After having supernatural encounters with God, I still carried this secret sin with me. It wasn’t until that I confessed I needed Jesus Christ to forgive me and heal me of my sin that I got deliverance. After singing simple songs of praise to Him, getting in the word, and confessing out loud my weaknesses. I finally got delivered! It’s amazing to see how Christ works miracles today! Praise the Lord!
October 31st, 2013
I just wanted to share my story. Recently, I moved because I went to a university. Before that I was always thinking about how death would feel but it wasn’t really interfering with my life. The second day that I moved in I started having anxiety and panic attacks to the point where I did really think I was dying. I thought that what was the point of making relationships if the people would die someday anyway.
For a week, I had anxiety and panic attacks and I actually thought I was going to die. For some time now my faith had not been the strongest one I could have. I doubted the existence of god and I thought that if he was real he wouldn’t mind if I didn’t go to church or read the bible.
Then today I was walking down the street and I was having a panic attack and lots of anxiety and this old man came up to me with this little card with a quote about Jesus and how he would help anyone that believed and I felt so much better. I even started crying of happiness.
Everyday it gets better. Some days I still get the occasional doubt but then this feeling comes over me and I remember every time that I felt it before. God wants me to get closer to him and this anxiety that I feel is just something to indicate to me that I need to be closer to him and have a closer relationship to him. I hope my anxiety and panic goes away soon. I really want to enjoy my time here and grow spiritually as well.