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When I was in Africa (after I met Jesus) God showed me something. I and the people I was with happened to be driving through a town one day. People had their tents and wares set up on either side, it was hot and dry and people were milling all about. We had driven about a mile into town, and as we approached the center of it I sensed a change. The first thing I noticed was the hoards of flies buzzing everywhere, the second thing that hit me was the stench. It was horrible. I began to experience the smell of disposal, death and decay and I thought “What in the world?” And right there dead center in the middle of the town was a huge garbage dump. The road led right through it! There was filth every where, goats and dogs and rats were running about the place. Small children were playing in it. But that wasn’t the most shocking thing. To my horror people had actually built their houses out of the garbage and were living right in the middle of it!

I have known great thirst in my life. My parents worked a lot and I pretty much raised my siblings. I never felt loved and met a guy at when I was 15 where my mother worked. He paid me much attention and I misunderstood that as being loved. I became pregnant at 16 and when I told my parents, they told me that if I didn’t have an abortion they would send me away. They sent me to have it done and my boyfriend came with me. It was a horrifying experience for me. It haunted me for a very long time. Afterwards my parents told me that I was never allowed to see my boyfriend again and since I thought he was the only person that loved me, I overdosed on pills and locked myself in my room when no one was home. My boyfriend called my dad and he broke into my room and called the ambulance. I’ll never forget the look of disgust and embarrassment that hung on his face as he stood in our driveway as the ambulance took me away. My mother was a waitress and she didn’t even leave work to come to the hospital. I did not die that day, at least not physically. Counseling was mandatory for my parents and me but after one session they said the counselors didn’t know what they were talking about and we never went again.

I ran away when I was 16 and became a homeless person, later I married to a drug dealer who abused me terribly. I became an addict myself. I was raped and had been molested at a very early age. Many ugly things happened during those 4 years. It felt as though I had lived 9 lives! I knew that I hated myself and believed God couldn’t stand the sight of me either. I saw the world as one big garbage dump. I couldn’t bear the thought that no one really cared about anyone and if the next 20 years was anything like the last 20 had been, I wanted no part of it. I felt like a dirty used up rag that had been thrown away so many times it wasn’t usable anymore. In all of my pain and despair I decided to end my life.

This time I would succeed. At the precise moment I was about to act on my verdict, I was suddenly aware that the tv was on and I heard a man’s voice say, “It doesn’t matter where you’ve been or what you’ve done, God loves you so much that he sent his son Jesus to die for you.” Those words stunned me. I dropped to my knees and begged God to come into my life. And in that moment he drenched my thirsty heart with his love, and poured it into me in a way that was full of powerful compassion! I think it was the first time I had ever experienced real love. I couldn’t stop weeping. I had no idea what I had done, but I knew it was real. I never touched another drug again, never wanted to. That was 26 years ago!

I began attending a church of good works and good intentions. It was a place I was at first welcomed. I had such a passion within me for God but the abuse in my marriage continued and I turned to a man in the church for help. When one of the elders saw us together he called a meeting with the other elders and had me discarded from the church. All of the relationships I had built up to that point became irrelevant. They all “broke fellowship” with me and backed it with scripture. It’s been a long and painful journey and for the past 25 years. Life can be brutal. People can too, myself included. I have 8 children, and 5 grandchildren, a wonderful loving husband who I am so grateful for. And a God who never threw me away! On the contrary, God came into the garbage dump of my life and he knelt down and began to grow a garden of fragrance and beauty. He offered me his living water. That is one of his favorite things to do and he does it like no other when we trust him. I am an imperfect, shining example that no matter what junk you have in your life it isn’t ugly enough or filthy enough to make God pause in his love for you. His love is wild and extravagant!

 I am young man age 29, raised to know right from wrong. I had the love for the Lord placed in my heart from a when I was a little boy but satan and his ways took over my life for a short time. As a teeneger I did and choice some wrong paths. But Glory be to God and am Alive in clothed in my right mind to testify about my test. First came the demon of suicide. It was followed by the Demeon of homosexuality and was all wrapped up by one of satans well know tricks “street drugs”. My mind has always been on full speed, over thinking and being very hard on myself.  I had a good friend come into my lif, and he took his life in his own hands and ended if by suicide. I love him so much I even tried to take the path he took but God blocked it. As a teenager I found myself  walking a thin line between two lives. On of a straight teenager dating teh high school cheerleader and walking around the halls flirting with girls and cutting class to hang out on teh back side of the building smokeing weed and drinking beer. Then there was a side of my life where I found myself in parks giving and recieving oral sex for men. This was a very hard time in my life. I would go to bars and clubs at the age of 16 the knowing that this was a test in my life, I thought I was living having fun. I then went to college in PA to start my formal training to become a chef. Now this is when things got a lil tricky. I was on my own in my first ever apartment at the age 17 in a whole new city all alone. I dove head first into the homosexual life choices. I can remember getting on teh bus to ride to class and lil kids what say “mommy look at her she has a cooks unifirm on”. I then felt so weird, like something was wrong but just didnt know what yet. Shortly into my stay God sent me a Angel. At the time I didnt know why God sent this person into my life. He was dressed as a woman, had a hat on with weave falling from the sides ands back, some to tight cut of jean shorts on and a t-shirt holding on to a big purse. This persons name was Jessy or Jessica then. He sat next to me on that bus ride home which was short LOL. I was the first stop. Later in life this person became my best friend, moved in off the street into my apartment and into my life forever.

The drugs came in at a early age alos. smoking weed with my brothers and local friends in the hood ( witch was the subburbs). I then started to hang with as we would call the wrong crowd. I found myself baging up crack cocaine and counting hundreds cash in the basement of a friends house. We would smoke weed all day and run crack to the street . I had started drinking heavy to numb my emtions and d things I knew where wrong.  I lost some friends to being murder falling sick from aids and suicide and just lost in the world of sin. As I look back I can honestly say

“I made it by the Grace and Mercy of God.”

 I sit here behind my lap top a changed man. As my life pours out on this page I pray it is a blessing to you and others. I have been Saved and Forgiven By God. I have given my whole life back to Him to use me in any way He wills. I am clean now from drugs for 1 year 3 months to date. I have canceled out the thoughts dreams and acts of living out homosexual choices. I have been delivered from sexual sin for 2 weeks to date. This life is a test and my reward is in Heaven with my king Jesus whom I call bestfriend, protecter, counseler, Father  Daddy and my personal Jesus! I am lead by the Holy Spirit to Help some one out there in need to hear from and pray with a God Sent Miracle.  Maybe this person is in addiction or coming out. Maybe  this person is a family memeber of a homosexual. May this person just needs to hear from a man with the Joy of teh Lord in his heart. Who ever you may be I am here with open arms and an open heart. You can find me on yahoo changedman1978. This is me you guys, I made it and I am so happy I am able to share my life with you. I will not lead you to a bad place. I am here to help for the Good of teh Kingdom Of God. So in Jesus name be healed from crack and street drugs. Turn from your wicked ways of homosexuality. Be filled with the Joy and Peace of the Holy Spirit!

God knows our problems before we even bring them to him! I had been quite down in the dumps about my back pain which I got from my job, but I never thought to ask God for healing, I just felt sorry for myself instead. One week I attended a huge Christian conference. At the end of it in the weekend I tried to get up on the Sunday morning before church and my back pain hurt more than ever. At the church service I was also sick with the ‘flu I had just caught and had to sit down the whole time wearily. Just then the speaker visiting from overseas said that about 30 people have just been instantly healed of back pain. Since then I have not had a single bit of pain in my back! Thank you Lord. Halelujah for his healing! The Lord is also currently healing me of my intermittent addiction to astrology, which I’ve had for over 15 years. This is my ‘giant’ but it doesn’t have authority over me. I am confident God will completely deliver me for good very soon. Amen - I love you Jesus - Lord of my life!

Hi my name is tiffany and my testimony is how God can bring you through a storm. Well it all started for me the end 2006 my husband and I were doing foster care for about 4yrs oh what a joy it was we had no kids of our own. So we thought why not share our love with children in need of love and care so early 2006 we got a call to take in a new born baby so we did.

At that time I always was running a home daycare everything going good just living everyday life. Well that all came to a end in the last part of 2006 I had daycare kids and one of my parents accused me of child abuse. I went to jail i was was so terrified. I had never gotten in trouble before didn’t have any kind of police record or anything. I spent a day and a half in jail a cold dem cell and as I sat in that cell i prayed to God and asked him to watch over me and just protect me i promised God my life i told God if he would save me i would never lose focus on him again.

I finally got out of jail and when i did i just went through this deppressive phase i didnt want to talk to anybody I constantly was crying I was a mess and let me tell you i went the whole 2007 yr. Going back and forth to court i thought it was never going to end. And i thank God for the people he sent in my direction at that time even though i didn’t want to be bothered God knew what he was doing. I felt like giving up! But let me tell you just when you feel like giving up hold on! God might not come when you want him to come but he’s right on time!

But let me finish telling you my testimony all the times i went to court my case just kept getting prolonged the foster baby i had since he was 4days old was taken from me and at that time he was 7mo. Old so that was alot of stress i really would have liked to adopt him. I just seemed like everything possible was going wrong i cound’nt continue my job i went from making good money every other week to zero.

But in Feb 2008 i went to court not expecting God to show out for me that day but he did. I mean it was a nice day you could’nt want a better day. But i walked into that court expecting the same as any of my other court dates but i walked out a free woman and to this day i thank God! He heard my cries through the brick walls of that cell so I’m telling you today look at what he’s done for me! He can do it for you to. Never lose faith in God please walk by faith and not by sight also the lord is our light and salvation whom shall we fear psalms 27.

I was recently involved in a serious motorcycle accident, i was riding alonng a road when a car pulled out into my path, i had no time to stop or evade, i hit the car quite hard. I walked away from this accident with only bruses and a twisted thumb, had god not had his loving and protecting hand over me i would have been seriously injured or even killed.  i thank god in all his love and mercy that i am heer and able to give this testimony of his miracle in keeping me safe.

a picture of whats left of the bike is : here.

god bless

What I want to share is not really a testimony, but rather just wanting to put my thought and everything within me in writing. I am a 23 year old born again child of God and enjoying the fellowship with my Father more than anything. It has not been long since i received Christ into my life, it has been almost 3 years now. I have grown in love with this other brother from church, who I admire so.

Recently a young man in our church youth group committed suicide, despite the best efforts of the youth group leaders and the teenagers who loved him. He gave up on life when his home life became unbearable; his father having already committed suicide and his mother a drug addict. In hopes that this post will be seen by someone who is considering this solution to their overwhelming difficulties, I am going to share with you what I never shared with this young man.

About 14 years ago, I was caught up in sin. The nature of the sin isn’t really relevant to the discussion. I was breaking one of the Ten Commandments, and as a born-again Christian, I was swimming in guilt, and fear of being found out. I found I could not escape my sin nor my guilt, and suicide seemed like the only answer. I considered several methods, and one night I decided upon which method I would use.

The next day at work, I was sitting in my cubicle, and felt compelled to pull out the small Bible that I kept in a desk drawer. I opened it, and it fell open to 1 Corinthians, chapter 6. Immediately my eyes fell upon verses 19 and 20:

‘Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from God? You are not your own; you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body’.

There was not the slightest doubt in my mind that this was God speaking to me about my plan. And it was the last time I have ever considered suicide as the way out of my problems, and it was the point at which I broke free of the sin that had me in its grip.

This was a very cool dream. In this dream I was in a field. In the beginning my brother looked at me with a smile, but then it was time for the show. I think the reason I saw my brother at first was to feel comfortable. Where I was standing had a perfect view of the sky. The sky was huge and I did not miss a portion of it.

The sky was lit up in this very cool orange color, like when the sky is setting but way better. I remember calling the way the sky looked was like a campfire in the sky. The sky kept changing into different sunsets. I got the feeling like I could pick my favorite one. (They were all the coolest sunsets I have ever seen though) I picked the one I liked the most and said, “ I like that one.” The sky then stayed that way. I somehow knew there was someone else there and they were changing the sky and I asked, “ How do you do that?” I then saw a hand and it snapped its fingers (That is very cool to me).

After the hand snapped its fingers I was in front of my mom telling her that Jesus was showing me all the cool sunsets. She said, “How can you be sure it was Jesus.” She said other things and was in denial of the whole thing. That piece of trash satan was trying to take away my faith and to take away the magic of the coolest thing I have seen. What a piece of trash!!
satan will disguise himself as other people to confuse you, but do not let it confuse you. I knew it was from Jesus immediately after it was over. I just knew. The sunset I picked was very cool and had two vehicles parked next to each other way out in the field. One was a white van and I do not remember the other one. It was very cool. Jesus can do anything with ease. Just a snap of his fingers and your wildest dreams will come true.

After the dream was over and I woke up I made a very good breakfast. It was eggs and turkey and for some reason something told me to put some honey on it. That was delicious!! Then I went to make down payment on my EMT class. I took a CPR class and felt uncomfortable and questioned if I should be a EMT but I thought about it and decided to do it anyway.
When I went to the school to register I saw a white van parked away from all the other cars. It was just like the dream. I realized that all the different sunsets were choices not just to look at, but were experiences and choices I was choosing with my life before it happens. I still wander what were the other choices. The one I choose in the dream was the reality I am living right now, because I choose it.

Addiction is what has separated me from my savior. The love I have for Jesus is what set me free. It took the Love I have for my baby girls, and the guidance from a friend at work, to move me beyond my addiction, and back to Jesus. My friend gave me a link to a website, Oneplace.com. where I was introduced to some excellent pastors on the web, I started listening to them 8 hours a day. The pastors, in addition to Pastor Stan, were Glorious lights from God to my soul, and I pray that God will continue to bless their ministries. The power of the sermons gave me the strength to stay in the light and walk with God. My heart was softening from the love I felt from God. I felt like a big weight had been lifted off of me. I became much more emotional, crying out of joy and thankfulness.

One day I was staring at my oldest daughter, Harlie. I was thinking just how blessed I am to have her as a daughter. My thoughts drifted, and I pictured my baby girl on the cross. Just like God had placed his little boy on thecross. I felt an outpouring of love from God. At that moment I felt an electric shock , and something popped inside my chest. I felt the Holy Spirit surround me, it was the most love I have ever felt in my entire life. My life was transformed in an instant, the chains that had been around my heart were cut. I realized just how much God loves me, and the price he paid for us to enter the kingdom of heaven. God gave his only son to die on a Cross, for our sins.

Now that I’m a father of 2 baby girls, I realize what and incredible price God paid for our salvation. I now feel God’s continuous presence in my life and an indescribable peace. I also understand why they call the bible a living, breathing, word of God. There is supernatural power in the scriptures of the bible. The past 10 months I have spent walking with the Lord, has been the greatest investment I could have ever made in my life. I picture myself as a little lamb next to my shepherd, with my eyes always focused on him. I will never leave my shepherd’s side. I now look at the cross and understand what Jesus did for all of us. I give God all of the glory.

Psalm 23: 4

“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me.”

On Saturday, July 2, 2005, we noticed that our next door neighbors were moving back into their house. They had rented it out for a few months, until the renter had gotten called to active military duty. Naturally, we offered to help them move back in.

We had just finished unloading the trailer, and I was out of breath… Read the rest of this testimony »