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8 Responses to “Discouraged”

1. Billy Says:
   January 11th, 2010 at 8:56 am

   MOCHA324,The 26 soon to be 27!

   Hello, I accepted Jesus Christ as my lord and savior when I was 19 and I felt God helped me to see that I need to trust in him more before he led me any further. Well I ended up ignoring the things that God wanted me to get out of my life. He wanted me to remove things that kept me from him so I could see his plan for my life more clearly. After I was saved I felt Gods presence on a daily biases. God was leading my life I wanted to read his word and I felt like he had something planned for me. I started to read the Bible less and continued on my own path well I found myself hung over one morning on my way to work and I stopped at a gas station. This convertible car pulled up and the music in the car was this incredible praise music. I was convicted on the spot and as I began to drive I started to cry and confess all my sins and I felt terrible and I wanted to change the way I was living my life. Well I made small changes but I found myself committing the same sins that I could have prevented like drinking, cussing ect… I eventually got to the point where I thought God was no where around. I would pray for God to show me his purpose for my life. I got confused I was so lost I ended up making a lot of mistakes and felt that God had forgotten me. I stopped reading my bible and I had many selfish prayers at this point in time in my life I was begging for God to just show me this great plan he had for me. I got to the point that I had made so many mistakes that I was afraid to go to God any longer. I felt like I had to get right then go to God. Well Things got a lot better. I discovered that you go to god to get right. After I found myself in a completely difficult situation I realized that I need God more than ever. I was getting deployed to Afghanistan. Talk about being confused I did not even know why I joined the army in the first place. Well I can tell you know being able to look back that God was by my side the whole time. But then I had no idea what was going on and I was scared to leave home. I had just got out of my initial training for the Army and a month later I started training for my deployment. Well I now know that this was the best thing that could have happen to me. I told myself that I was going to grow spiritually on the deployment. I ended up changing my life completely. I just had faith in God without being able to feel his presence. I started to study my bible daily. I was still confused but I refused to give up. I got frustrated at times I found myself being confused about my bible reading. I could not understand a lot of it. Well God gave me this great gift a fellow Christian. This guy was 28 I was 21 and he knew that I was struggling and he said try this and gave me one sermon. I took that sermon and I wanted him to give me more. but he knew that I was not ready for them yet so he kept them close like some secrete item. Well about 1 week later he asked what I thought and I told him that I listened to that sermon like five times in a row. It was a slow process but over time I ended getting up every morning at 3:30 and listened to a different sermon and read my bible and prayed I did this for the rest of my deployment. (This was the only time that I could have personnel time in between missions) It actually got to the point where I would be mad if I did not get to study. Well I would like for you to know that God has shown me a bleu print of what he could do in my life. It’s up to me to stay in his will. After I was saved thought I wanted to be a Lawyer and I planned to go to law school. Then that changed to a career in finance. There are many options for my future but right now God has led me to learn everything I can about his Word. I am now attending a Bible college full time. It was not easy but God does have a plan for your life. If you are breathing his air God has a plan for your life. If you feel like something is not good for your walk with God then get it out of your life. I could not quit cussing for a long time. I had to get rid of all my secular music. It provoked foul language and took focus from God. I stopped watching provocative movies. I am willing to do anything to be in God’s will. God has the very hairs of your head counted. Trust in God and make the decision to trust in him with all you have.
   11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11
   God has all good thoughts of his children. When he says “to give you an expected end” that means he has a plan for your life. Read your bible daily and if you feel like it is difficult to understand like I did find a preacher that you can talk to about your studies. That is why God has provided us with Preachers. Find a church to go to. Do all the research you can about living the Christian life and apply it to your life. If you have to separate yourself from other people who bring you down and away from living for God do it. I promise that you will look back and realize that God was with you all the way. God will do whatever it takes to get you on track. There is glory in tribulation but during the tribulation it is hard to see Gods plan. God bless and I will be praying for you. If I can help in any other way you can email me at (billyjoegreen@gmail.com) Please don’t hesitate to ask any questions. I hope that this was a blessing!!!

2. Gemma Says:
   January 11th, 2010 at 9:32 am

   Hi, I’m 27 and I understand exactly how you feel. I used to be distant from my family and people as well, and actually felt so insecure that my bf and I will split. Eventually God showed my that all this fear and reluctance toward others is because I lacked love. I so remember God gave me this verse John 4:18 perfect love casts out fear. And I repeated it out loud and asked jesus to put that love in me cause i couldn t myself. I also had to trust God and surrendered all to him. I think God has much more for you than a normal life, so he is showing you what you need to change in you. I do believe that evrything with God cooperates with our own decision to win with him the battle. I can say that even though my life’s not perfect, God has made so big chages inside of me. I feel so much more secure and surpris emyself that I do love being with people. Take care and be blessed.

3. marcus Says:
   January 12th, 2010 at 8:56 am

   what ever happens trust the word of god when he says he will never leave you nor forsake you, he means what he says. trust god in your situation sometimes god tests our faith so don’t be discouraged (Joshua 1: 9 says i command you to be brave and strong do not be afraid or discourage for i the lord your god am with you where ever you go… i was ones depressed and wanted to kill my self i lost my friends when i was seeking god but the word of god saved me that day Jeremiah 29:11 says i alone know the plans for you plans that will prosper you and not bring you disaster plans that will bring about the future that you hope for..god loves you spend more time in the word and ask god for people to encourage you… keep on praying and never give up remember you are a child of god and god gives the best to his children. whatever you do do not take your life because i believe in my heart there is a plan that god has for you. peace be still. ask for strength call out to him he will answer Mathew 7:7 ask and it shall be given seek and you shall find knock and the door will be opened unto you. he is alive and will strengthen you.. keep on praying may the peace of god be with you. amen

4. Nessa Says:
   January 12th, 2010 at 10:33 pm

   Hi Mocha!

   You are not alone! The way you feel now, the way everything seems to always be against you, severe unhappiness….I know that feeling all to well. Im the youngest of my family, my brother and sister are 15 years my senior. I never had a close relationship with them. My mother and sister are really close, almost inseparable. In my mothers eyes, I will never come close to being equal with my sister. Its the same way with my father and brother. So I grew distant from my family. Like you, its hard for me to socialize. I have no friends because everyone says that Im different. I have always felt different and never really saw myself worthy of living. Also, years of being put down has stripped me of my confidence. So, while reading your message, honestly, I tried to recall if I actually wrote it.

   God works in ways we will never understand. Lately, I had to understand that God will do things on his own time. Your blessings may not come when you want them to, but with God in control everything will be on time. I realized that you have to make an effort to truly trust God and believe in your heart that he will make a difference in your life. I use to beg and plea to God for a change, but never really gave him time to make that miracle happen. Remember, faith is more than just praying, its also believing. Now, I have been studying scripture, attending church, and most importantly patiently waiting and trusting God for that wonderful change in my life. Mocha, Life is too precious to spend like this. You only live ONCE. God loves you, and doesnt want you to spend your life miserable and alone. Youre’ never alone with Christ. Place your burdens on Christ, he will help you carry those burdens.

   Mocha, remember, you are not fighting this alone. Continue to seek God, and I believe that he will lead both you and I to SALVATION. You must believe in your faith…and please believe in yourself. You can email me at anytime at nessa_096@yahoo.com or IM me on Y! if you want to chat.

   The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear?
   The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
   When the wicked came against me, to eat my flesh
   My enemies and foes, they stumbled and fell.
   Though an army may encamp me, My heart shall not fear;
   Though war may rise against me, IN THIS I WILL BE CONFIDENT.

   Psalms 27:1-3

5. mocha Says:
   January 14th, 2010 at 3:18 am

   Gemma thank u for taking time to answer me. . I hope you check back for my response. I have tried n tried to ask God to fill me with love but I still feel awful n. I seek him so much I spend hours praying I try to have faith but feel cursed I don’t understand y me I’m tortured in my own mind I thought God had me special towards him also n had more than normal plans for me but honestly I don’t ever feel it or get signs of being renewed n just happy in him I feel so stupid dropped outa college no job no social life u just don’t know ppl call me slow n say something s wrong with me I just can’t do life rite it hurts so bad. Please respond. .. I’m trying so hard I cry daily I’d help the world if I could I just don’t understand n every one else n evil ppl seem so happy please pray hard for me. . I want gods will so much n want to be happy but everything around me is bad.
   . Y would God allow this I’m so hurting n there’s so much more details but I’m not going to overwhelm who may read this or u. . Thanks again for trying to help respond if u want.

6. mocha Says:
   January 14th, 2010 at 3:28 am

   Marcus I try so much to get in word and have faith but still miserable. .. please read my other response to gemma to understand more I wanna give up but I think I want to live even more but God isn’t showing me anything I feel I hurt sooo much u have no idea have been put down most my life its so much. How can God use me if I never feel rite with him? Its so much more I feel like I can’t even articulate please pray hard for me I hope u read my response to u. Thanks again ill never forget all of u n this site for trying to help me more than my own family has respond if you can

7. Dominic Ellett Says:
   February 1st, 2010 at 1:15 am

   hey mocha,
   i dont know where things are with you right now… its been a while since the last post on this but i was just reading through and something i just wanted to put out there is some amazing sermons you should check out by louie giglio.
   1. the anchor of hope
   2. the megaphone of hope
   3. how great is our god.
   i highly highly recommend these!

   in terms of scripture john 16 is quite good.
   being a christian doesnt mean life will always be good,Jesus said ‘While you are in the world, you will have to suffer’ but he also said ‘in me you will have peace’ God often works in ways we will never understand, but NEVER forget HE LOVES US. he loves you so much mocha and if you can trust him, and i know it must be hard, he will hold on to you through everything he will keep loving and loving and loving if you keep hoping and praying and trusting in him he will restore your strength and fill your cup just keep on holding on even by the tinyest string. keep knowing yes this is horrible but the lord jesus loves me he will heal me he will heal me he loves me.
   Also seek help from the church get some people praying with and for you because the power of prayer is so strong.
   i hope this helps, i pray you have the strength to keep on going.
   never give up
   love dominic.

8. mocha Says:
   February 1st, 2010 at 4:15 am

   thanks dominic !! im a little stronger than I was when I first posted! but still feel really down & IM trying soo much with GOD ,scripture, praying, church , it seems so far away before I feel whole for once in my life and happy ! I wont quit holding on to GOD though!! please pray for me I want to be healed so much so i can help others maybe going through the same thing ! I just want GOD to use me & I want his will for my life so bad!! its the only way to be truly happy.. please pray for me again & I will check out the sermons thanks again dominic love mocha GOD bless!

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