Fighting Porn

Hi, I am Gideon, and English is not my first language. Here is my testimony.

I began to surf internet for photos. I started to look at girls in swimsuit. I was a porn addict many years before, and I managed to quit after asking the Lord to intervene. But this time, it is different. I thought it was harmless for me to do.

Worse, I am a singer in church worship. I began to become more aggressive in searching for photos on internet. I do all this in my room, alone and nobody is watching. I began to exchange holiness with pornography. It is when I started to entertain thoughts of oral sex only then I began to find out how to fight porn. I found out I was not alone. I knew the verse: … if your eye caused you to lust, gorge it out. But it made little impact on me.

Anyway, God is real.

He revealed to my pastor that I’ve sinned, that is I didn’t stay holy. So, when it was my turn to sing in worship, my pastor changed the scheduled revealing there is a reason for him to do so. And he preached about holiness. I was ashamed. I got the message: God caught me with my pants down!

So I quit cold turkey. No more porn for me. Just like that. Now I look at the other way whenever I see pictures of girls in nude/semi-nude. I also try to stay aloof by downplay them in my mind.

But for some reason I didn’t strongly regret what I did. Somehow it seems that I’ve little regard of sin. Now I pray that the spirit of repentance comes so strongly upon me that I would not do it again! Life is too short to exchange for eternal shame! Praise to God! Amen!

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  1. Thomas 1/27/2011
  2. deborah 5/9/2011

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