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Finding Faith
August 28th, 2010
My name is Melanie and I have recently been plagued with a terrible condition that medical science does not take seriously. I have a multitude of eye floaters after having Lasik eye surgery. My night vision is bad, and there are too many floaters in my eyes to simply ignore. Doctors keep telling me there is nothing I can do besides more risky surgery. When I first found out what I had, I cried uncontrollably, I fell into a black hole of self hatred and regret. I am suffering everyday, I fear light, I even see these horrible things at night. I used to have perfect vision with the assistance of glasses, and out of selfishness, I went and had Lasik. It wasn’t necessary, and here I am with this “supposed” lifelong irritation.
I’m 22 years old, and I live with my parents. As a child, I very much believed in GOD. I would pray every night and beg my mom to take me to church every Sunday. I would read the bible even though I barely understood it. I would have conversations with the Lord and my deceased relatives/friends during my prayers. I was very in tune with a higher spiritual life. I would have what doctors claimed were “hallucinations”. I had recurring nightmares for years that to this day are unexplained, but I could retell them in detail! Years went by and throughout my teenage years, I lost touch with my spiritual life and my faith.
I just lived day by day and was too lazy to pray. Of course, after this surgery, when I need him most, is when I’m now calling on God again. I almost feel guilty for it, but at the same time, I feel like this happened to me to bring me closer to God again, even though I am suffering.
These eye floaters may not be a big deal to some people, but to those who have it as bad as I do, they know how stressful and depressing it can be. The worst part of it is that it’s not taken seriously. People like me are forced to deal with it. It’s like having dirt in your eyes and you so badly want to wash it out, meanwhile someone is telling you, “too bad, live with it, it never goes away”. I pray every day for a healing from God. One night, I prayed so hard and cried my eyes out, begging for the Lord to send me an angel…and…HE DID! As I was laying in my bed that night, I was in the fetal position with my eyes closed. I was restlessly trying to sleep. Behind me I felt a presence, and I could hear my bed move (it creeks real loud) as if someone was trying to lay right behind me…I was frozen. I could not move, in my head I kept telling myself to relax and stay still…although I was desperate to turn around. After a few minutes, the noise repeated itself, and I felt this presence leave. I KNOW IT WAS MY ANGEL laying with me and comforting me. I fell right to sleep after that and only in the morning did I think about what had just happened. That next day I kept thinking it was a dream. Three days later, a dove showed up on my doorstep and when my dad went to retrieve the mail, he started yelling for me and my mom to come see. The dove flew right to my father and perched right on his hand. He passed the dove to me as my mother was in awe, claiming it was a sign from God. My parents were leaving the country that morning for Bermuda, and they were leaving me alone at home for 2 weeks. I didnt know what to do with the dove, my dad begged me to keep it so at that time, i did not want him to see me let it go. I ended up keeping it in the house for 3 days, and then decided to let it go… When I came back inside the house, I kept thanking God for sending me this sign, if in fact it was from God. I was also thinking that I wish I had kept it, I was kind of upset to let it go and right at that moment, I looked down at my feet and found one single feather. I was so happy, and then it occured to me…this was ALL GOD! ALL OF IT! First my angel comes to comfort me, and although I did not realise it at first, here comes this dove, three days later…and it all made sense to me. After that, I stopped crying myself to sleep.
Although I am given these signs, which surely are signs of God, my problem is keeping the faith of recieving my healing! I know these things have happened to me, and I know GOD is in my life, but I want to believe so badly that he’ll heal my eyes. I pray for it, but it has yet to happen to me and I am currently searching for a good ministry and healing rooms. I need to keep the faith! I don’t want to think that if God doesn’t heal me, it’s because it’s not meant to be. I want to believe that God heals everyone if they believe enough, but again, thats my problem…I believe in God, and I believe in the holy spirit, I believe in miracles, but until I receive my own, its so hard to believe it will happen to me! I guess this is why it hasn’t happened yet…
If anyone has any words of wisdom for me, to help me receive my healing….please help. I know there may be people out there who need prayers more than I, but if you have the few minutes to pray for me, please do! I can’t live in the dark forever, I need a miracle!
Thank you for your time.
God Bless!
xoxo
August 28th, 2010 at 12:17 pm
And what if you are not healed in a year or five or ten? Will you give up on God? If you are only serving the Lord because you want healing, you probably won’t get it. But I pray that you do. With all my heart.
August 31st, 2010 at 10:09 pm
Melanie,
Know that I will definitely be praying for you. You might try going to a Christian church and seeing if they’ll get together and ask the Lord for your miracle there… I think sometimes God does miracles in ways that many can be witnesses.
On the other side, it might not be his will to heal your eyes. Remember this: Whenever we suffer, consider that you’re suffering as Christ did. In that way, maybe you’ll be blsssed by your ordeal, as it seems you already have been.
As the angel showed you – you’re not alone. We all suffer at times, in different ways.
I hope this helps… I’m sorry you’re in pain, but I will be thinking about you and praying for you, Melanie!
September 1st, 2010 at 8:32 pm
dear melanie, i really admire your faith. It is true that no one afflicted left Jesus without being healed. I said a prayer for you. God’s blessings
September 2nd, 2010 at 8:04 am
Thank you all for your support and prayers. I know that with faith, I will receive my healing. I don’t believe that God picks and chooses who he heals, I believe he heals everyone who calls on him. So again, thank you for your prayers. God Bless!
September 2nd, 2010 at 12:53 pm
OUR FATHER IS ABLE TO DO ALL THINGS,
MelanieA
Here is my own testimony, I was suffering from UTI (Urine track infection) with all the research i made then on the internet it shows that there is know remedy to the problem, so i was demoralize everyday then, but there is one thing THAT OUR FATHER STIRED UP IN MY HEART, THAT IF I GET CLOSER TO OUR FATHER IT WILL BE REMOVED and i will be free for ever, i keep attending camp services until one day OUR FATHER HEALED ME THROUGH DREAM and i got my healing, i did something wrong again the problem came back. so one day OUR FATHER TOLD ME TO MAKE A VOW WHICH OUR FATHER HELPED ME TO OBEY for one Good year. That was how the problem vanish for life.
So i want to encourage you to please take a step of Faith and surrender all unto OUR FATHER and see WHAT OUR FATHER WILL DO FOR YOU. I PRAY OUR FATHER WILL GIVE YOU THE GRACE TO OBEY AND FOLLOW BY THE POWER THAT IS IN THE BLOOD OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST (AMEN). YOU ARE HEAL IN THE MIGHTY NAME OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST (AMEN)
October 2nd, 2010 at 12:50 pm
Dear Melanie,
I found it is a miracle for you to have your sickness healed, and your testimony served a good experience for faith loser ,like me. Your testimony had reminded me how God is good at blessing and healing. Thanks. God Bless
October 11th, 2010 at 6:31 am
Dear Melanie,
God is willing and eager to heal you.There was no one who came to our Saviour Jesus in the Bible that went back the same!The Bible says He is the same yesterday ,today and forever…and I know there is nothing too hard for him to do.
Hold on to your belief,dont give up.
keep studying God’s word,even if it(your miracle) tarries wait for it for it will not tarry
Gloria
October 13th, 2010 at 1:09 pm
Hello beloved.. Boy, I got something for you sista.
Praise God I found this site. 
Please go to my website and you’ll find a few posts ago a free audiobook called Your Faith. All I ask in return is a review (not on content, but on the audio). This will greatly bless you. serious-things.com. The title of the post is something like “Free Audiobook”
Also, for healing, there is also a ministry I do work for. See wolicom.org and go into the “Word of God” section. You will see a series called something like “Why we often miss it”, it’s about healings. Start with part 1. You will be truly blessed by this Pastor and his audiobook. This pastor I help out is a great great man of faith. He has helped me get over injuries, car troubles, etc.
I’ll comment on one thing, you said “but it has yet to happen to me..” That’s a stopper and unbelief creeping in. It has happened in the spiritual realm, if you believe. It may not materialize right now, but it will if you do not waver in your faith. Regardless of what you experience with the senses of the flesh, believe unto the Lord that your prayer has been heard and it is answered in the heavenly realm. Believe in the things unseen, not the seen.
May the Lord bless you abundantly.
October 14th, 2010 at 2:29 pm
Hi Melanie
I think I might know a way to reduce and maybe have your floater’s gone. I dont know we have to try, please contact me ASAP!!!!! My Husband has these floater’s for years and he is an EYESPECIALIST!!!!! and guess how he got it? Lasik surgery that totally effected his cornea, its just not to meant for some eyes, he did also admit, he should have never done that. So get back back to me, sarawhite[at]gmx.com
Have a good day!
sara
October 18th, 2010 at 5:56 pm
Fredrick made a very good point. I have watched a brother who was doing works, being as obedient as he could..and serving God. He was doing it for his healing. When the healing didn’t come, I saw him backslide, badly. He started to question God, the Word, healings, etc.
Praise God through much prayer and perseverance, he came through and confessed that he was doing it to get a blessing. That is soooooooo dangerous
February 10th, 2011 at 10:06 am
Hi Melanie,
I am praying for you and God is no respector of persons, healing is for all! Just saturate yourself in the word…you have to have faith even if its as small as a mustard seed. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God. I was healed was un incurable disease so I know God is still heals today. I found many resources that helped me in my faith namely savedhealed.com.
February 26th, 2011 at 3:44 am
Keep the faith sister i know you are tired of hearing that but dont give up i know you ben waiting to long and are probaly loseing it but i belive if u dont give up in good times and bad times soon u will recive so i urge u please dont give up ther is no other way anyway let jesus be the doctor u need if u lose your faith than what forshure u wont get it so keep it up no mater how strestfull it can be and keep on praying and for others to thank him an advance for your healing claim it and hel do the rest be still and let god love u relax and let god take over god bless u sister i will pray 4 u 2 .
March 15th, 2011 at 7:36 pm
I wore contacts since the 7th grade I am now 29. I first got floaters or noticed them when I was like 23 or 24 I think. I thought my contact had something on it so i took them out and cleaned them and noticed it was still there after. I took them out again noticed it was still there with my contacts out. I have a few in both eyes, they can be annoying sometimes, they are a lot more noticeable when looking at a white or lightish colored object or background like paper or a computer screen. When I first found out I didn’t really freak out about, it’s completely natural, there is nothing you can do except risky surgeries. doctors say a lot of people actually have floaters and they don’t even know about it because they don’t fall into the direct line of sight. I have gotten somewhat use to them but that is really the only choice. I have no idea what caused it but I thought maybe tanning in a tanning bed might have influenced it. There is some non surgical things that may reduce the number of them like your diet and vitamins, however I have only read about it I have not tried it yet but it definitely wouldn’t hurt. Actually, now that I think about it I wonder if there would be a lightly grey tint contact lens you could wear that would probably make them not so obvious in the vision?
Although they are annoying its not the end of the world. they just make you that much more special
May 27th, 2011 at 5:50 pm
Hi Melanie,
Keep seeing yourself healed and you will experience your healing. it is God perfect will desire and hunger for everyone to be healed. I would recommed that you go through our website and study some of the healing articles and you will be strengthened.