Hey everyone. I’m always posting on this site, because I’m in the process of getting to know God for real. I just want to say a couple of months ago I found the strength to leave an EXTREMELY abusive relationship. I’m only 25 and this relationship cause me to lose SO much… cars, my family, you name it.
During the 4 years I spent in this relationship, I did some horrible things that I beat myself up for daily! I definitely lost myself, I hated myself and even most for having a child with this person. I feel for my child because I now know what kind of person his father is (spiritual). He’s trapped with one of Satan’s smart conniving spirits! I had a strong Soul Tie with him. As much as I tried to leave him the more, I would get beat, stalked, kicked – you name it! Oh, But I kept calling on the LORD. He even had me doubting that God loved me!
I used to be angry at everyone. I was deep in the VALLEY. I made horrible decisions. Looking good on the outside but broken in the inside. The world was moving but I wasn’t.
God must have felt that I was really tired, because he bought me to the right place. My aunt’s church which is at her home. What GOD did for me that day is what got me yearning to know him more and more. He broke that SOUL TIE! She prayed over me for an hour until I was released in the name of GOD! Whatever had a hold on me wasn’t giving up easy you guys!
I couldn’t believe those evil spirits had driven me into depression, self-hatred. I didn’t want to live… many will never believe what took place at my aunt’s house. I was screaming and trying to remove her hands from my head while she prayed over me. I really believe that whatever was attached to me didn’t want to leave me. I was so scared!
I just want to share my story, but many will look at me like I’m crazy. I’m a true witness of Gods power! I knew it was God that ran those spirits away because after I felt such PEACE. God sent those fallen angels back to the pits of Hell. You guys, when I was free, I felt the power of peace, freshness! Pure and New!
One another occasion I even had the pleasure of feeling the Holy Spirit. During prayer I had to jump up and give God the Glory! I never in life thought I’d be feeling things like this! All I know is that is HAS to be GOD. I was running and jumping, thanking him for what’s he’s done. I cry so pitifully every time I think about how God STILL loves me even after all my sin against him.
Most of all I’m grateful. I ask myself “WOW” God really does love me. I can’t believe how blind I was to the truth. Now that God has forgiven me, I’m trying to forgive the people who did me wrong… it’s so hard. I just wish I could start over.
As time goes on, I find it harder and harder every day. Because I’m realizing that this world is so wicked. It really scared me. As I’m changing day by day, I’m surrounded by my friends and family who most are “Blind too” so I pray for them. I feel like I’m going to lose them because I’m really trying to change.
They make fun of me when I speak about the good things God is doing for me. I want to live righteously in his sight. I told them I’m not drinking anymore and they call me boring and think something is wrong with me. I get mad but I have to realize that they haven’t felt what I felt … they just don’t know. I’m not perfect but I’m really trying.
I just hope God keeps my mind strong for this battle because it’s hard. Also asking that you all say a prayer for me and my child. I’m going through legal issues with the father and he seems to be winning, but I’ll continue to keep faith. Amen
Stay Strong, keep praying and find a new circle x
I relate with your testimony so much. I have grown up in the church but it wasn’t until last year when I really began to surrender every area of my life to Christ, that He began to open up my eyes spiritually. I have gone thru several deliverances and realize now that it’s something we have to keep up with. A lot of people in my family are still bound by demonic spirits and don’t even know it. But I pray for them daily that they’ll get free. I put down a lot of things like drinking, partying, smoking, etc. I don’t even listen to secular music anymore because I just want to constantly be filled up with The Holy Spirit and NEVER be bound again.
Im in a season where God has separated me from certain family members and friends that may cause me to fall into sin, downplay God, and those who just don’t understand Him. A lot of people say that I’m boring now too, but I don’t care because at least I’m free. and I don’t have time for the foolishness that got me bound in the first place.
I’m praying for you and your precious child! Pray that God would send the right people into your life.
Wow this is a beautiful testimony I’m so glad to know that you’re yearning to know God more. That despite your circle of people you are sharing the good news, (How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And how shall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall they hear without a preacher? Romans 10:14 NKJV) and not being easily influenced or waved (2 Peter 3:17 You therefore, beloved, knowing this beforehand, take care that you are not carried away with the error of lawless people and lose your own stability.).
Keep faith in our God he is the God that delivered you from the fowlers snare, the God that has kept you this far and long, the God who split the Red Sea for his people, the God who kept Daniel alive in the pit of lions, the God who was with Shadrach, Meschach, and Abednego in the flames and saved them. The Great I AM,Yahweh,King of Kings, JEHOVAH – JIREH: THE LORD WHO PROVIDES. This God is our Father YOUR Father and will never forsake you or us he loves us dearly and whole heartedly (Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me) and only wants the best for us therefore we must trust in him and keep steadfast in Him especially prayer so pray heaven down that you will win the legal issue declare it and use the authority God has given us and it shall be done, do not let doubt steal your victory.
Our God is faithful so lean on Him for strength and keep faith for if Christ is in you who can be against you?
I will definitely be keeping you in my prayers.
Praise God for delivering you. Praying for you and your son. The God who delivered you, delivered the Israelites from Pharaoh. He is able to deliver you and your son from the father of your son