June 28th, 2009
I have known God since I was a 11 years old. I have always been a strong minded person who always knew that God would do something with me one day but little did I know the kind of prayer that I was praying all those years ago.
I am a graduate and always knew that I was special. I have never been ashamed about loving God so much. And sometimes that is the key to some basic doors opening for you. I had the privelage of getting a visa from UK to USA to start working. All this while I always had God in my life because you dont get what you have by yourself. If God says he want to bless you he will. So I was making my money, living the single life and having fun but still worshipping God. Then I came home to AfricaÂ toÂ visit my parents. That wasÂ it. TheÂ devil had something planned for me that I hadÂ noÂ clue about.
It was in January 2004 when I met someone who wanted to marry me. I knew that I was getting older butÂ I was very smart about men and their tricks. But for some reason this guy seemed real and loved me dearly. I was impressed by how quickly heÂ learned from me. IÂ never intended to marry someone who was not on the same educational backgound as myself. I was more advanced than him in everything, even speaking english. I believed in what some of the old aunties in my house would say that you make a man what you want. You polish them up. At the time I thought it was a silly saying, but before I knew it I was helping this boy become a man.
Time went by, I did everythingÂ for this man, from send him money while in America, send him travelling, help his family, even haveÂ a baby for him.Â What I did not know was that when I was prayingÂ God use me did I know what he was going to do ? IÂ left AmericaÂ and gave up my apartment, my two cars, my job to come to Africa and live here. Then God said it was time.
When I got here, that man called “husband” was not quite the person that I thought. He used me, he hadÂ children I never knew about, he was abusive, he used all my money and madeÂ me live like a poorper. It was such a shock that I nearly had a nervous breakdown and a mental breakdown. I went from having money toÂ having nothing.Â Â And to add icing to the cakeÂ he was a womaniser. And I never saw anything. And more to the cake was that he was not a believer at all. SoÂ all the secrets came out and I was shocked.
What is my testimony, its too big for words and only God knows the testimonyÂ of what I went through. ButÂ I want to encourage anyone who says to God use me, that keep praying that prayer. But be ready to go through something.Â I know what I went through and I know that I can council anyone with all kinds of situtions and I am so grateful to God.
God laid it on heart to start an NGO which will allow me to minister to all kinds of people on a global level. But I am in a bad sitaution. I am still in Africa even what to eat is a problem. I have lost all my money and I dont even have any money to register it and start the NGO. My life is totally horrible, but I know that God will see me through and he has promised that he will make away in the wilderness.
I hope that I have touched somone with this testimony. God Bless you and keep hope and faith alive.