On Oct. 1st, 2012, while sleeping in my bedroom, I had a series of demonic attacks. The first attack is hard to explain. I was sleeping, yet it seemed like I was abruptly woken up. At the time I did not even realize I was still sleeping because everything seemed real. In the dream, I was lying sideways on the couch in the living room of the duplex I lived in. As I laid there, I couldn’t move and I saw a dark shadowy figure standing directly beside me. I knew this was a demon because since I was a teen, I have had multiple demonic attacks in my sleep. The demon didn’t move and didn’t say anything. I had a feeling of fear take over me. I kept attempting to say “In Jesus’ name be gone!” over and over again. However, because I couldn’t move at all, my speech was slurred and indistinguishable.
After what seemed like a very long minute or two, and after repeating the command over and over, the attack finally ended and the figure disappeared. Then, moments later (still in my sleep) I was now in my bedroom where I was actually sleeping. Now again, a demon was standing by the side of my bed. Although it was completely dark in my room, I could see the dark mass of the demon. This time I did not have any fear of the demon and a new found confidence. I started laughing and mocking the demon. I said to the demon (doing my best to talk without being able to move any part of me), “You want to torment me? I feel sorry for you! You have a much worse fate than me! I am in the Father’s hand and no one can take me from Him!” It was then when I awoke at around 4am. I was relieved to have the attacks over and to finally be awake, but I also had a very strange feeling. I somewhat felt bad for mocking the demon. From all of the times I had been attacked in my sleep I have never had that reaction to a demon. I was thinking, “Is that even okay to do?” I then got up, went to the bathroom, and went back to bed, still pondering all that had happened.
Once I fell asleep, I experienced something unlike I have ever experienced before. I had a revelation that I was in heaven and God the Father was with me. I could not see Him, but I knew He was there. It seemed as though He was above me and all around me. I was in a place that looked much like the Safari in Africa. There weren’t any animals or any other people, just trees and a mountain off in the distance and tall grass all around me and stretching as far as I could see. It was bright a sunny day: however, I didn’t notice any sun. As I was standing there, God gave me the understanding that this was heaven and in heaven there are no worries, no cares, and the only thing it is about is Him. I call it an understanding because it was as if God were talking to me, but not verbally. It was as though he was giving me understanding and I was saying it back to myself to put it in words. I remember very distinctly the phrase popping into my head as I was given the understanding, “It is only about Me.” As God was giving me this understanding I was filled with joy. I don’t have words to describe what this joy felt like but it couldn’t compare to any joy I have ever felt before.
I was also given the understanding that when we are in heaven we are there to praise and worship Him, but it isn’t only one-sided. By praising God, you will have this indescribable joy and it will be your desire to worship Him. As I was overcome by joy, I fell down to my face and worshiped the Lord. I had no other choice. The joy was so overpowering, I had to express my gratitude at this glimpse of a merciful, caring, and loving God.
Needless to say, when I awoke, I still had remnants of joy, and it carried over throughout the day. The following days, I pondered heaven and, selfishly, really wished I could get this life over with and be in heaven with the Lord.
1 John 5:9-13
If we receive the witness of men, the witness of God is greater; for this is the witness of God which[c] He has testified of His Son. 10 He who believes in the Son of God has the witness in himself; he who does not believe God has made Him a liar, because he has not believed the testimony that God has given of His Son. 11 And this is the testimony: that God has given us eternal life, and this life is in His Son. 12 He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life. 13 These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life,[d] and that you may continue to believe in the name of the Son of God.