I Choose To Forgive

Luke 23:34  Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots.

This evening while my husband was working late, I decided to watch a Christian film on Pureflix and the title of the film is called Maggies Passage and I did not know what I was in for, but this movie has done something to me. It is a story about a young lady who is adopted into a Christian home and after her father had passed away, she felt the need to go and look for her birth mother. She did find her birth mother who was unloving and did not want her.

Maggie destroyed the hotel room that she called home and came to a breaking point in her life. She was able to escape from the hotel room that was destroyed and she found some new friends. A couple of Maggie’s new friends that I remember was Grace who encouraged her to call home and Max who became a father figure to Maggie and fixed airplanes.

The part of the film that stuck with me was when Max had to do something, and Maggie was washing her hands all of a sudden someone grabbed Maggie and 1 of the two men that were there to take Maggie away was Maggie’s birth father. Max had come back and told the two men that they were not taking Maggie anywhere.

The next thing that I saw was Maggie looking her birth father in the eyes and said, I forgive you. While I never will know who my birth father is when I saw Maggie looking in her birth father’s eyes and telling him I forgive you it was as if I was looking at my birth father in the eyes and saying I forgive you. After I finished watching the film, I wanted to find a quote on I forgive you and I could not find one that I was looking for. Then I wanted to find a woman in deep thought, and I could not find what I was looking for, so I decided to make my own and I wrote a letter to my birth father letting him know I choose to forgive. By me writing the letter tonight I feel a little bit of relief. I still have a ways to go but this is a start.

To my biological father,

While I will never know who you are I choose to forgive. While the crime that you did was done to someone else, I choose to forgive. With a heavy heart and tears that I cannot cry I choose to forgive. I choose to forgive because I no longer choose to be angry with what you did to my birth mother. I choose to forgive so that I can have peace in knowing that I am set free from the hurt and the pain. While I have my issues, God created me for a purpose to share a story of redemption, forgiveness, and love.

With forgiveness and love, Your biological daughter

When we choose to forgive others, God will give us the peace that we need to continue with the healing process. There are times where we have to forgive over and over again. Knowing I was conceived from rape I will most likely have to forgive again. The last few weeks I have been so torn up to where I have been sick physically. Tonight, I am beginning the healing process once again.