Hello:
I have read Testimony Share all the time and this is my first time posting…don’t ask me why this time but hopefully I can get some prayers my way to help me on the road/journey that I am on.
In a nutshell, I was in a very long-term common-law relationship that ended because I wanted to start a family. We both in our late 30’s and we met in our mid 20’s. Over the years, while together, I tried not to push the topic. I tried to give him space and let him decide. But the yearning to start a family with the person that I was in love with for the past 10 years, just made logical sense, of course only to me.
I am at this stage in life now and I wonder if I wasted my years and if it is too late to have a child on my own. I sometimes wonder if I will meet someone that will want the same things I do.
I’ve always been and still a religious person…I’ve kept my faith. When my friends tell me that I should have gone ahead and had a kid with my ex without him knowing…I just could not.
Maybe I was simple minded to think that my ex would finally come around, even when we re-connected (he reached out to me) for the 2nd time around – which was summer of last year – we broke up January 2010. But only to be told, he wants to travel and enjoy life and having a kid requires too much money.
So, in a nutshell because writing my story will require me to re-read what I’ve written, and the tears will never stop – so I am trying to be strong but sometimes I sometimes don’t know.
I try not to feel bad some days but of course, when I see couples or a mother with a child or father with a child, it just takes my inner strength to look away.
Thanks for reading and listening.
jsmorris….My favorite scripture is “Seek ye First the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and ALL these things will be added ynto you. Matt. 6:33…I know what heartbreak feels like and I am here to tell you (which I am sure you have already heard) that you will get over this in time. I cant help but wonder though at what point did you find out that this man did not want any kids? That is a dealbreaker for me, if he doesnt want kids or to get married it wont work bcuz I want kids. My advise to you is continue praying and give your whole heart to the Lord…not halfway…you serve him with all your heart get baptized and go to church…you will be suprised how the Lord will work things out in your favor…God is an ontime God and even though you may think time is against you he will send the right man in your life before its too late because he knows your hearts desire to have kids…Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desired of your heart (Psalm 37:4).
You are in my prayers and just hold on…and surround yourself with believers it makes a huge difference. God Bless
I pray to GOD to to give you inner strength and peace that surpaces all understanding.Start praying for your inner healing and ask GOD to deliver you from the spirit of rejection,unworthiness,guilt and self-hate which normally happens after separation especially from someone whom you really loved. Pray to GOD and cry out to Him daily.
I would suggest that you continue to pray for your ex,mainly pray for his redemption and salvation and GOD will do the rest, no matter wherever and with whomever he might be with.Remember that if he comes back unchanged by GOD your problems will persist still. At this point any relationship that you might get involved in might suffer a miscarriage.Your faith will be tested daily remember not to lower your standards and compromise on what GOD has put in you.
What about you taking a tough christian stance from now on to say that any man who comes your way from now on including him must value who you are in Christ by marrying you first.You can still demand that even if you are not a virgin remember that in Christ you are a new creation(I know you think I am saying this because I don’t understand the pain that you are going through)I do !I have been through worse!Stand on God’s word and do your best and GOD will do the rest.
The devil will send his arrows of lies on your mind about how less attractive you are, things like it is because you don’t drink or do this sin or that sin that made your boyfriend to live you and not to marry you or have a child with you or that you are pushy. All this is a lie.
You must start affirming yourself that “I am beautifully and wonderfully made, I am blessed coming in and I am blessed going out in all aspects of my life” and confess daily that “I am beautifull and I don.t chase after love but love chases after me and I am young and GOD is going to bless me with beatiful/healthy children and they won’t come out of wedlock. After praying to GOD remember to make a daily confession to say “I am married and I have beautiful children “whether you have someone in your life or not.Please listen to this truth.YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN.GOD will bring you the best because you are the best.Remember to join a christan group and visit other churches to keep yourself always busy even during the week.Keep the Faith!
Hi honey, You don’t know me but as a believer, you are my sister in Christ 🙂 I feel like God lead me to your story to pray for you…
Lord, I lift this woman up to You right now and I thank You for her. I thank You that You knew what You were getting when You got her. She is NOT a mistake and You do NOT regret choosing her as your beloved daughter. I pray that You would show her the right path Lord. She is in her 30’s, but we know Sarah was WAY older than that and she gave birth! We know that You are the God of PROMISES and TRUTH!! I thank You that You are faithful and that RIGHT NOW You are healing her inner wounds, showing her who she TRULY IS, and that You are restoring her faith in You. Lord, I pray if this man is to change, let her see the change in him. And if he is not to change, or he is not the one for her, that You would show her that as well. Just guide her with Your Holy Spirit Father. Comfort her, strengthen her, and give her little blessings along the way just to remind her You are with her, loving her, protecting her and providing for her. Help her to seek You with her whole heart, and then and ONLY THEN will you give her the desires of her heart. Thank You Papa, You’re SO AWESOME!!! In Jesus BEAUTIFUL name, Amen. God bless you sweetie!! 🙂
Precious sister,
You are saved in Christ but your husband is not yet saved, devil is using him as a tool to hurt you and rake you away from Christ because he can not destroy you coz your already protected by the love and blood of Christ, please pray for your husband and surely the Lord will touch his heart.
Love flows only from God, your heart will tell you whether its love or lust and if its love then God himself will make sure that this marriage takes place, keep praying, he needs salvation without which you both can not start a family, pray for his salvation first and all the good things will be added to you, never lose hope because bible says hope never disappoints us, Shalom All things are possible to those who believe