Testimony Share

I greet you all in the Name of Jesus Christ, and pray that you will be blessed by this small part of my life which bears testimony to a true and real Living God.

After an introduction like that, you might think and have the idea that I am one of those who present themselves as ‘perfect’ Christians, who live a Holy righteous life, and have a reserved seat on a one way ticket to Heaven.

I am a normal working person, who makes many wrong decisions, have the same desires, feelings, frustrations  and emotions as you; I do not know my Bible inside out – cannot reference hundreds of verses, and I find it especially difficult to love our ‘unseen’ Living God. Why doesn’t he sit on a big visible throne for all to see – it would make things so much easier for us wouldn’t it!  I trust this sounds familiar to you.

On the other hand, I have had a Christian upbringing, and within my heart have always believed in our Lord Jesus Christ. The many worldly difficulties and trying times of life have ironically had the effect of strengthening my deeper relationship with the Lord.

This story goes back a few years where I was in a knowingly wrongful relationship, – family relationships were poor, we had recently lost both our son and mother, but business was good and I was able to financially compensate for this imbalance, or so I thought. I would ask God for direction and guidance in between my hurried schedule, or whenever I could fit Him in.

‘Why Lord are you not talking to me? Why are you ignoring me? Can’t you see I need your assistance and direction here?’

From about September of that year, I had a desire and an idea in my head to take photo’s of the coloured folk of the northern part of our country South Africa. They are tanned and wrinkled, usually with no teeth, and generally have faces full of character. Although this was just an idea at the time, I regularly saw a picture of one of these folk in my head. (At the time I thought nothing of it, but in reflecting back, it is all revealed to you). As December drew closer, the urge to go to the Northern Cape / Namibia grew in side of me. If people asked – ‘where are you going’? My reply was “towards Namibia”. I honestly did not know why, and anyway, I was going ‘walk-about’, so it didn’t really matter, I had no fixed plans.

I drove towards Northern Cape over a 5 day period,(about 1200km), taking my time to stop off and spend time alone. Most of my trip was on gravel backroads, and out of the way places. I played Christian music and every now and then, some good old heavy rock like ‘Uriah Heep’ or ‘Dire Straits’ just to break the mono-sound. As I travelled I would talk to God more and more – sometimes aloud and sometimes in my head.

Just to put you in the picture the Northern Cape / Karoo (South Africa) is a very desolate semi-desert area, where you can travel for a hundred plus kilometres without seeing another vehicle or person. It is dry and hot (especially in December) with temperatures in the 40’s (celcius!).

I eventually arrived in a place called Upington, which is just south of Namibia and found a camp site, sleeping in the car that night. As there is not much to do in Upington, by early afternoon the next day I had relaxed, taken a boat ride on the Orange river, had a lunch at the local pub, and then decided to move on towards Namibia, and possibly sleep at the border post.

As I drove north out of Upington, I felt very uncomfortable, and an uneasy feeling came over me. I stopped of to full up with fuel, and tried to shake of this heavy feeling. As I continued the heavy feeling in my heart grew unbearable and I pulled over to the side. Words my sister had told me came back to me ‘if in doubt – don’t’.

‘Lord’, I said out aloud, ‘I don’t know what the hell is going on here, but I’m turning back’

As I did a U-turn back towards Upington, it was quite amazing how this heavy burden just lifted and disappeared. The closer I got back to Upington, the more and more at peace I felt. A total calm and ‘spirit of expectation’ came over me.

It was getting dark as I entered Upington, a billboard giving the telephone no. for a backpackers, which I promptly phoned. Just in luck – they had one spot open for me, and in the background I could here loud music and a good party going on. ‘Great’ I thought, ‘now I can have some interaction and a more lively night!’

On-route to the backpackers, through a suburb, I passed by a B&B as advertised on their wall. I immediately had a prompting from the Holy Spirit to stopover, which I did. All four or five rooms of the detached dwelling were vacant and I was their only guest.

It is very hard for me to explain the kind of peace and quietness I felt at this time. I settled in and sat quietly on the bed reflecting on the day, and especially the past hour or so, reading my Bible intermittently.

(The Backpackers phoned back and enquired as to where I was. On telling them I had found alternate accommodation they were highly indignant and insistent that I should take their vacancy, which I declined.- temptation!)

In the quietness, stillness and peacefulness of the room, without any TV or distractions, God spoke to me,

“Miles, I want you to go tomorrow and feed the poor coloured people of the area.” 

That was it.

I cannot say it was audible, but to me it was, and very clear. ‘Ok Lord’ was my reply.

That night I had a wonderful nights rest.

The next morning I was up bright and early, had breakfast and enquired of the host as to where I could locate one or more of the churches in Upington. (Logically, if I was to assist with feeding the poorer people, I should approach and go through the church – surely they would know?) Except for the huge Neederlandse Gehereformede Kerk (NGK), which dominated the skyline like a cathedral, I could not find another church. Approaching the NGK, there was no-one around who could assist or guide me. The temperature is now about 30’ C.

I went to the pub from yesterday, and checked in their telephone directory – Methodist Church – yes! found it. At the church – no one. The gardener informed me the minister was away.

The temperature was now about 35’C.

All the logical avenues were dead ends. Now about noon, the temperature was at 40’C, I was hot, frustrated, and my patience was thin.

Angrily I turned to the Lord – ‘Lord’, I said, ‘You told me last night to feed the poor people. I know you did. How do you expect me to accomplish this if you block all the avenues?’

‘I tell you what Lord, I am going to buy food now, as per your instruction, then it’s your problem!’

This is exactly what I did. Going to the local supermarket, I purchased as much food as possible. I recall buying frozen chicken pieces and challenging God – ‘ Lets see you pull this one off in this heat’ (which was by now +40’C).

Maybe it was my imagination, but honestly, the people serving and assisting, gave a happiness and friendliness I have had not seen before. (I think God was chuckling at me through them)

The back of the vehicle was full of food when I drove from the Supermarket.

‘Ok Lord, I’ve done my bit – where to now’. Without feeling prompted or any special feeling, I turned left and headed out of town, westward into the desert area towards the coast. I must say I was feeling a little foolish as you could imagine, driving through the desert with frozen food in the back and no-where to go to!

As I left town, maybe 1km out, I noticed a homeless man, man of the road, or tramp – whatever you would call him – dressed in old denim jeans and jacket, plastic bag in his hand. Expecting a terrible putrid smell as he climbed into the car, this was surprisingly not so.

‘Where are you going?’ I asked him. ‘To a place near Augrabies’ he said ‘but anywhere further up the road will be fine.’ (Augrabies was approx. 120km further on)

‘Where are you heading?’ he asked me. ‘I don’t know,’ I replied, ‘just heading in this direction.’

‘What do you do?’ I asked – knowing he didn’t do anything.

‘I was called by the Lord 3 months ago to feed the poor coloured communities of the area. That’s what I do’ he replied.

Friends, I can never explain to you the emotions, joy, shock, disbelief, elation – that I felt at that time.

With tears flooding down my face, I said to him, ‘Look in the back sir, all that is yours’.

As we drove and offloaded the foods, he told me of how he was a business man, had given it all up, and responded to the Lords call to start this feeding scheme; together with another man, 6ft6’ at least, with a huge beard. They had an old house which they used, and operated in the surrounding areas feeding and spreading the word of God. You see, in this area most people are seasonal workers on vineyards producing raisins, and as the area is dry and desolate, there is very little else that can be done.

I explained to them what had happened from my side leading up to then. ‘Praise God’ was all they said, as they continued offloading. I was amazed at how they accepted this recollection of events, as if it was what they would have expected. For me it was AMAZING, for them it was faith in action – like – well what else should God have done?

(Incidentally – by the time we had finished off loading the food, the chicken pieces were still frozen.)

Friends, that evening after I had left, I spent time praising God and reflecting on what He had done. In His quiet way, the Lord spoke to me again and revealed to me the events, and how he sometimes operates. ‘My child’ he said,

‘You took time off to be with me. It was a long trip but the more time you spent with me the closer you got’

‘At first you could feel Me urging you and then later prompting you’

‘You then took that quiet time, waited on Me, and heard Me speak to you’

‘You were obedient to My instruction without question’

‘You then took that step of faith, against logical actions, and purchased the foods’

(God likes a challenge, but He does not like to be challenged – my quote)

‘When you take a step of faith in obedience, I will always be there for you’

‘I make the impossible possible – I will make a way where there is no other way’

‘My child’, he said, ‘I have been talking to you for so long, but you just have not been listening’.

There were many instances where I could have pulled out. I could have ignored the heavy feeling in my heart to stop and turn around that night. I could have ignored the prompting to stop at the B&B and continued to the ‘party’. I could have given up when there was no-one at the churches, and written it off as a figment of my imagination. I could have, (and normally would have), driven past the ‘tramp’.

But then friends, I would have missed out on a personal meeting with my Lord. I do not believe in co-incidence. My one regret is how many times before, after and in the future, you and I will miss, ignore, and override those small urges and promptings, which the Lord builds on to, leading to much greater things for His glory.

I trust the Lord will bless you, with this recollection of his provision and love for us, and urge you to seek Him more fervently and with determination, because He is real, He is out there, He is listening – please listen for Him.

God bless you all.

Miles Dray

16/10/2008

I recently found out that my husband has HIV and its has advanced to the fourth stage. Discussing with his doctor, she told me that he has probably had it for 6 or more years (pretty much the length of our marriage). It was shocking for me to find this out and also the realisation that I could have it too. The doctor advised that I take a test ASAP to find out my status, them discuss the way forward. When I went for my test result and was told that I am HIV negative, I couldn’t believe it. All remember saying was “thank you God, thank you Jesus” I was told that we are what is called a discordant couple. I thank God because he chose to save me, so that his name may be glorified. I have decided to use my chance to advise young couples about testing before they get married because we did not and it could have been fatal for me. I don’t know how am gonna do this yet, but its my mission to begin doing this.

God has been so good to me; I give Him the glory for all He has done in my life. I was born and raised in a Christian home. My father was a holiness preacher, and he and my mother raised my sister and me according to the Bible principles by which they were raised. Throughout my childhood and teen years I believed that I was a Christian, and I wanted to live the way the Bible teaches. But I had never had a personal experience of salvation, so when I graduated from high school and started college, I was unprepared to live in a way consistent with my upbringing when surrounded by ungodly influences at the Christian college I attended. My roommate for the first year listened to rock music all the time, as did most of the students. Smoking and drinking were also common, even in the dorms, and movies were sometimes shown on campus. For the first few months I just wanted to resist all those ungodly influences, but I finally succumbed to all the peer pressure. Eventually I was listening to rock music, watching movies and TV, and letting my hair grow longer. My best friend at college seemed to be a helpful, caring Christian. He had the most plausible arguments I had ever encountered for getting acquainted with some of the ways of the world. I lost interest in my studies, and eventually abandoned my original purpose for going to college, which was to prepare to be a Bible translator. After a year and a half of college, I’d had enough, and dropped out. I moved from place to place and from job to job, mostly on my own, but occasionally staying with my parents for a while. I usually attended church, but finally almost entirely quit.

In 1976 I moved from Denver, Colorado to Ponca City, Oklahoma, and began using marijuana regularly. I also tried getting drunk a few times, but never enjoyed it much. So only a few years after leaving home I had rejected all my parent’s moral training and was addicted to immoral thoughts, rock music, movies, and pot. By the grace of God I was so much of a loner that I hardly got involved at all in the sexual immorality of the people around me, but I mentally indulged in it constantly. I also began to suffer from paranoia, confusion, anxiety, and depression, as a result of the drugs and music. But, praise God, my mother had never stopped praying for me and trusting that God would save me. I remember a certain time in 1977 when I had just ordered several tapes of my favorite rock music, expecting to enjoy life more than ever by listening to that music daily and using pot on the weekends. But the music made me feel strangely depressed, and the pot didn’t help me feel any better. For two weeks I got daily more depressed and desperate for help. I thought if I could change my life I could be happy again, but I wasn’t sure what kind of change I needed. I considered things like becoming a drug dealer or a mercenary soldier, something that would be entirely different from anything I had done before. I also had an idea that if I could know that God loved me, I could find a reason for living. But I was in such a confused, darkened spiritual condition that I didn’t know if God existed, or what the difference was between right and wrong. One night I came home from work and decided I must settle what to do that night, because I was so desperately depressed that I couldn’t go on like that. I remember walking into my apartment and wondering how it would be to meet Jesus personally. So I tried to imagine that Jesus was sitting there with me and listening to my thoughts. I opened up and shared all the trouble I had been having, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. As each of those things came to mind, and I mentally tried to explain them to Jesus, it seemed that I was being counseled about those problems, and it was the same answer each time, “Give that problem to Me and I will take it away and give you peace and joy instead.” I thought that would be impossible, or too simple, to give up things that troubled me so much. But I tried to do that, then finally I heard Him say, “Now you must believe that I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God, and am really present with you here, and that I can do what I said.” I thought, “But I don’t know if God is real; how can I believe? Then I tried to believe, and as I tried, He helped me, and suddenly I knew, that Jesus Christ was real, and that He had come to visit me in my apartment (not physically, but spiritually), and I knew that He loved me, and that He could help me like no one else could. Then suddenly the trouble and darkness in my heart and mind vanished, and I felt empty. Then love, and joy, and peace began flowing into my heart, and filled me, and filled the room around me. I could only weep for joy at the sudden complete relief from all the burden of darkness; for 15 minutes or more I rejoiced with tears in that heavenly atmosphere. Since then no one could ever convince me that Jesus Christ was not a real person or not able to save, because I knew I had met Him personally.

For a few weeks after this experience I was constantly aware of the peace of God in my heart and mind. Then I began to realize that the Lord wanted me to make a complete surrender to Him. I was afraid of what the Lord might ask me to do if I surrendered completely to Him, so I began to back up from the light He had given me. Soon I began using drugs again, listening to rock music, etc. In other words, I backslid, and remained backslidden for about 3 years. But all that time I deceived myself into believing I was still saved, even though I was involved in the same sins I had been saved from. Somehow I rationalized about my sins until I felt comfortable with them and didn’t think of them as sins at all. Then when those 3 years had passed, I began to think seriously about giving up my sinful habits (drugs, rock music, etc.), but when I tried to quit I always came back to them eventually.

One day in 1980 when I was living in Oklahoma City I started home from work with nothing on my mind but the desire to get drugged. I had just recently decided to put off seeking God’s help for a while so I could enjoy drugs for a while longer. On my way home (a 3-mile walk) I stopped to smoke pot, then instead of going home I stopped in an abandoned warehouse to smoke some more. I was bothered by the fact that no matter how fast I smoked it, I wasn’t getting as drugged as I usually did. Then suddenly, sitting there on the floor in that dark, smelly building, everything seemed to change. I was suddenly clear-minded, not drugged at all, and seeing a vision. I saw a bright and glorious light shining from a Man standing on a hill, and as soon as I saw Him, I knew it was Jesus. I remember thinking, “Jesus is so holy and loving and perfect in every way, and I’ve spent these last 3 years seeking to be happy and satisfied by drugs and just living to please myself, when I’ve already met Jesus and know that only He can satisfy my heart. Why have I tried to be satisfied with these imperfect things when only Jesus is perfect, and I could have been having fellowship with Him?”
The vision changed somewhat, and I saw the same glorious, holy light shining from an opening in some rocks. I wanted to draw nearer and enter into that place and be with Jesus, but I suddenly realized how unclean and unfit I was to be in His presence. The vision was so bright and clear that it seemed to burn into my mind and heart, and to be imprinted there within me. Then it faded away, and I reverted to the drugged condition I had been in before, but with that vision still burning in the back of my mind. All I wanted to do was to seek the Lord, but I had to wait until about noon the next day until the drug effect wore off enough that I could really pray. Then I realized clearly my backslidden condition and began seeking forgiveness. Praise the Lord, He had mercy on me and took me back. As soon as I knew my sins were forgiven, I began to really be burdened for the souls of the people around me, especially my fellow employees. Everyday I walked and talked with Jesus Then He told me that I needed to make that absolute surrender that I had failed to make 3 years before. This time I was eager to get all that God had for me, so I started seeking the best I knew how. After about 10 days of desperate soul-searching, in cooperation with the Holy Spirit, it seemed that I had surrendered all that I could, and I was desperate to pray clear through, but wasn’t sure how to manage it. One night I told the Lord that if I had to spend the rest of my life in the same kind of desperate seeking and dying out to self that I had been going through for those 10 days, I was willing to do it. The Lord knew I meant it, and the next morning He told me, “You’ve done all you can do to surrender, now you just need to trust me to do my sanctifying work in you.” I began to exercise faith, and the Spirit of God helped me to believe, and after about 2 hours, I got clear through. Then as soon as my faith took hold of God’s promises, the work was done.

The Holy Spirit filled me with His perfect love so that I knew that I loved everyone with His own love within me, and I entered into a kind of union with Jesus that I had never experienced before. Then I realized that because the Holy Spirit had filled me, there was no place for carnality to remain within my heart, so I was also cleansed from all sin. From that time on, I had victory over all sin, had no more desire for the things of the world, and had constant communion with Jesus. The Lord gave me light on various things, until within several months time I was living according to the same Biblical standards of holy living that my parents had taught me. For about one year I had that blessed victorious life, then I began to be a little careless about some things until I yielded to temptation and used drugs again. But the very next day after I did that, I realized that I had lost the presence of the Comforter from my heart, and that life was not worth living without Him. So I repented and started seeking to be sanctified again. It took 3 months of earnest seeking to get back the assurance of entire sanctification.

Then for about 10 years I lived in fellowship with God in the way of holiness. During that time I lived and worked in various places as I felt the Lord leading me to do, then went to Union Bible College in Westfield, Indiana to prepare to be a missionary to the Chinese people. After graduation I went to Hobe Sound, Florida to prepare to go as a missionary to Taiwan associated with the Florida Evangelistic Association. In Hobe Sound in 1991 and ’92 I had some spiritual trouble again connected with a romantic involvement, which romance ended when I went to Taiwan in 1993; however, the spiritual effects of this continued to trouble me until 1998 when I came home to the U.S. for the summer, and attended a campmeeting in Indiana. Under the anointed preaching of John Macdonald I was convinced that I needed to seek forgiveness for the spiritual inconsistencies of the past several years, then I began to seek to regain a clear sanctified experience. The third time I went to the altar in that meeting, we prayed until after midnight. Then the Lord began to really help me in prayer and I found myself running the aisle and shouting praises to God. From that day until now I have had no interest in going back on my commitment to God in any way. I can’t imagine turning away from Him again for any reason. I spent about five and a half years from ’93 to ’99 in Taiwan and in Mainland China as a teaching missionary. In 1999 I met the lady who became my wife. We have been blessed with a son, and have been trying to follow God’s guidance ever since, concerning how and where we can best serve Him. I praise God that by His grace I can bear witness to a present experience of full salvation with daily victory over all sin. May God’s perfect will be done in my life, and may all be done for His glory.

This is my first post. Sorry if it runs on.  God Bless.

Here I am again. But this time, I am staying. Lord, I hear you. Why are you talking to me? Thank you for talking to me. This is the start of my journal. This is the start of my journal of life listening to you. I heard you in the past, and I didn’t listen.

Sunday I was not happy MiMi brought the Pastor along. He was leaving a full congregation to talk to me..And I was too afraid to talk to him…Not only that but the evil one entered me as I tried to fight it. Clenching my teeth like the what I read about the pagans doing in scripture lasnight. He didn’t want me to go…He sort of won…But not really. He never wins. I didn’t talk much to the Pastor..not about my fear of stepping out in faith. But the situation got me thinking…and hearing you and the devil fight over my soul.

I paced the house..I continually thought you can’t do it..You can’t go into the ministry. Me? Brad BARNARD? This guy with a reputation like mine. I was shot dealing with drugs..I have been arrested..a total drunk.. I have thoughts all the time that are wrong. How can I be called? I am a sinner! I think sins all the time..I curse, I have screamed at my wife. Treated my wife in a way no woman should be treated.

I told my wife my doubts..my fears..And she asked what am I afraid of? Are you afraid of doing what’s right? This sinful world makes me feel I am too full of sin to ever be in the ministry. i wept…Summer went through all my jobs and my life and how I can never find my nich. I think she is telling me my nich is right here in my face…

I have lived this life only to feel shame. You are the way out of the shame…Openly working for you..Helping others come to you…..But I keep feeling scared its not me.

Then I got on the computer searching.listened to random preachers on youtube..then I went to my podcast of joel hunter..I decided I would choose one. I chose Building Spiritual Relationships. Thinking it would be about finding new friends..It was an ok sermon as it started..but then it took me directly to the answer to the questions I had been asking myself.

He started to discuss how God see’s us not as individuals, not a community. Then to our individual call to salvation…You ask me, “who do you say I am”? when Jesus looked at Peter he saw a church. When he looks at me he sees a church.

Here is what is difficult. Look in the mirror and call yourself reverend. God recognizes me as a minister…he then went on asking the same questions. “God how could you use me? You know the sinner I am!” I think that because I know I am a sinner…We are all sinners. Does the Bible not say all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God? If God can’t use sinners, he aint got nobody to work with. So what does this mean? We are a bridge…You don’t have to be perfect, you just have to help others get close to God. It’s not according to what I think I am, it’s according to what God thinks I am.Not according to my power, it’s according to Gods power. It’s not my plan it’s His plan. WE DON’T HAVE CONFIDENCE IN OURSELVES, WE HAVE CONFIDENCE IN GOD. If He can use us for anything He can use us for ANYTHING. He then talked about clinker bricks..and how they are imperfect..A church in new York they built the entire building out of clinker bricks..We are all clinker bricks…God is building the household as clinker bricks. Clinker bridges are better because people say you know if God can work through them He can work through me. They know by my life what God can use. We are clinker bricks.
Issaiah 28 16 So this is what the Sovereign LORD says:
“See, I lay a stone in Zion,
a tested stone,
a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation;
the one who trusts will never be dismayed.
I am trusting you now Lord.
Let me add the trip to Jeruselem…..Are you calling me there? I am scared to go there, but feel this may be where my minestry may take me…Sum thinks I should..I decided to show her Northlands knew morning and night versus online…here is the one that came up.
John 4:27-38 just then his disciples returned and were surprised to find him talking with a woman. But no one asked, “What do you want?” or “Why are you talking with her?”

Then, leaving her water jar, the woman went back to the town and said to the people, “Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could this be the Christ?” They came out of the town and made their way toward him.

Meanwhile his disciples urged him, “Rabbi, eat something.”

But he said to them, “I have food to eat that you know nothing about.”
Then his disciples said to each other, “Could someone have brought him food?”

“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work. Do you not say, ‘Four months more and then the harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. Even now the reaper draws his wages, even now he harvests the crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. Thus the saying ‘One sows and another reaps’ is true. I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Others have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor.”

Ephesians 2:13 NIV
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.
My wife says whoa? I said what? She said 4 month from today you would be in the Holy Land. Jesus said”Do you not say 4 months more than the harvest? I tell you open your eyes and look at the fields!They are ripe for harvest. Even now the reaper draws his wages, even now he harvests the crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. Thus the saying ‘One sows and another reaps’ is true. I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Others have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor.”

My eyes are open Jesus…And my eyes are opening to look at the fields. They are ripe for Harvest….Stop letting the reaper draw wages from harvesting the crop…….

My journey for you begins..I guess it already began long ago. But my eyes are open for the Harvest Lord. I see the ripe fields.

Amen

- God has been doing great things now in these last days. He is searching for people who are willing to answer His great calling. In Isaiah 6:8, God said, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me! –

Shalom!

Before I go further here, I give you a glimpse about how God had brought me through this incredible journey with Him. It all started through the desires of my parents’ hearts that one day, one or all of their children will serve the Lord when they grow up. When my brother was born, my parents named him, Evangeliss. Then, after 6 years, my sister, Grace, was born. Eventually, when I was born few years later, my parents gave me the name, Candy Rosette. My parents never gave up praying for all of us even before we were formed in our mother’s womb. However, after years of committing us into prayers, God had chosen me apart from my brother and sister to serve Him in ministry. Growing up in a Christian family, we’ve experienced all kinds of challenges and hardships through trials and testings. Either in finances, health issues, spiritual warfares, or jobs. Eventhough the truths about God had instilled into my life from the time I was born, I never apply them seriously. Nevertheless, God had already begun to do something in my life at the age of 11 through a dream which I could recall even till now. From then on, God began speaking to me through dreams and visions.

However, I only knew the reason why I have all this visions and dreams when I was 16 years old. One night, He spoke to me when I sat at my study table and He told me to take my Bible. I knew He wanted me to read something. So I say, “God at least show me the word -VISION- or -DREAM-”. Then the moment when I opened my Bible, this word just shone out as if it was the only word in there. Can you imagine what I saw? “VISION”! I was so shock because He showed that word to me and that was my first time asking God to reveal something to me in the Bible. (Isaiah 29:7) I read that verse and I noticed that there was another word -DREAM- in that verse…

First of all, on 5th September 2000, God gave me this shocking dream. At first, I did not realize that it had something to do with the end-time happenings. In the dream, I was together with a group of people somewhere in an open field not far from a big city. Many of them were drinking and having fun together. By the way, it was around midnight; they were still enjoying themselves partying. All of a sudden, I heard a loud sound and it went louder and louder. Suddenly the people around me disappeared and I stood there all alone. I was terrified! I turned to my right to see where the sound came from and to my utter shock, I saw a big plane flying very low in full speed with one of its engine on fire and smoke was coming out from behind it. It flew across the field and headed straight into the city. Then, it crashed right into the high buildings. It was a horrible scene. The city was on fire and I could see smoke rising so high. I could not believe what I saw because it happened so fast! The bushes were on fire too and I saw buildings collapse right before my eyes. Furthermore, I saw bombs raining down from the sky towards the city. The sky was bloody red and chaos was all around me. Suddenly, I found myself standing right in the middle of the city. It was very dusty and I saw debris and papers all around on the ground. I could not see anybody but I heard guns shooting and explosions all around me. Sometimes the sound faded and there was complete silence. I noticed that there were army tankers in the middle of the road. I felt so alone but I braved myself to walk along the five-foot way. While I was walking, I realized that someone was walking with me. I could not see him but he was talking to me at the same time. We walked pass a street with posters of famous Hollywood artists and actors. I saw the poster of Britney Spears, Elton John, and many more…

I woke up from the dream, not realizing that God was trying to tell me something. I drew the whole scene on a piece of paper so that I will not forget what I dreamt. A year passed and it really happened. On September 11, 2001, the dream became real. I was speechless when I saw the news in the television. Before the attack on September 11, I have never seen nor heard about the twin towers in New York. Ever since the night when God gave me that dream, God began to show me more revelations. Even so, I was still not very close with the Lord.

A few years later, I had another dream of whether to choose “life or death”. In the dream, I was drowning in a river somewhere deep in a forest. It was a horrible experience because I could not swim. My leg was stuck between a log or something. I was screaming for help and shouting desperately will all my might and strength. I shouted for my parents, brother, sister, friends, relatives and other people but no one was around. I was so scared and almost gave up because I could hardly breathe. A few times, I almost fainted and I thought I was going to die. Somehow, deep inside I had a feeling that I had not called someone…His name was “JESUS“. Before I almost breathed my last breath, I called out to Him and He saved me. Immediately after I called His name, I woke up from the dream. That was so real to me. I felt that HE lifted me out from the deep waters. This dream was just like what was in the Bible (Psalm 69:1-3 and 13-36).

I was spiritually born-again when I was 14 years old. Broken before the Lord, I rededicated my whole life to Him. That was in the year 2003. I was baptised the same year on Easter Sunday but I didn’t understand much about it because I was quite young in my Christian faith. A week later after I was baptised, I had a wonderful vision when I went to the Church for the Sunday Service. During the prayer session, I had a vision of a beautiful white dove. Here was what happened; after the sermon, the pastor started to pray and I bowed down my head and prayed too. At that instant, I saw brightness as I closed my eyes. Normally when we close our eyes, we will see nothing but darkness. Well, I didn’t know what was happening to me at that particular moment. When I looked beyond the brightness, I saw something flying towards me. It started with a tiny dot but as it flew closer and closer to me, I saw a beautiful white dove. It was ‘whiter than white’ and so beautiful. I could hardly believe what I saw. I opened my eyes for a while but the picture of the dove was so clear before my eyes! I closed my eyes again and it flew towards me. I could feel the wind brushing over my face. No one knew what was happening to me, neither did I.

In March 2005, before my first exam in high school, I was so worried, stressful, depressed and afraid. Usually, everyday, I would pray and read the word of God but on that day, I didn’t. I didn’t call upon the name of the Lord. I’ve forgotten Him but He remembered me. I went to bed early that night and I didn’t switch off the light. In the middle of the night, I was having a dream and in the dream, I heard someone knocking at my balcony door. It was a light and gentle knock. Once in every 15-30 seconds. I ignored the first few knocks. Finally, I got up and went out to see what was outside. As I went outside the balcony, I looked down at my back yard and saw a white old robe thrown near my neighbour’s fence. I felt weird so I thought of going back into my room knowing that no one was outside. (It was a cool, quiet, and dark morning. Only the light from my room shone out onto the balcony) Just as I turned back, I was surprised to see Jesus in front of me.

Instantly I knew who He was. I could see the scar in his hand and feet. I stared into His eyes and they were full of life and unconditional love! He was dressed in a white robe with the red mantle around his shoulder. He stretched out His arms towards me. I was speechless and I didn’t know what to say. Then Jesus stretched His right hand towards me and I held onto His hand tightly. His tender touch flow into my body. I could feel the peace and comfort when I saw Him and especially to hold on to His hand. He told me; “It is your time,…GO IN PEACE”. After He mentioned that, I felt completely relieved from all my burdens. Then I felt my spirit flying into the air (I saw myself flying into the air!) The tears of joy flowed down my eyes. Later on, I could not remember what happened to me, until I woke up. This was a reminder to us that Jesus IS alive and He wants to help us in our life. He loves us even though we have not been close to Him. He is always waiting…and He is real… (Call unto Him and He will answer you!)–Jeremiah 33:3.

November 2005, a speaker came from Germany to Bintulu, Malaysia (my hometown). I did not know much about the anointing, healings, miracles, Holy Spirit, etc. My parents brought me to the S.I.B church here to listen to the sermon. Besides that, I was a bit stubborn at that time because I did not really like to go for the service. You know, giving all sorts of excuses (that was me before). However, I heard a still small voice within me, saying that I should go and it was going to be my “special day”. Reluctantly, I went there. During the first praise and worship, I cried and I was so touched. I’ve never sang like that before. The pastor shared his sermon and later on there was another praise and worship time. This time I felt a bit different. While they were singing, I started confessing my sins and kept on asking God to come and fill me with His anointing. Suddenly, I felt something coming through my body and I felt so peaceful. I was in tears and I asked God to heal my headache (I have severe sharp pain and headache since I was in primary school). I put my hand on my head and I felt the heat flowing down my head like a burning fire. My body felt so hot and I could feel my face turning hot, as if my face was burning. Then my body started shaking so badly until I could hardly say a word! I just didn’t know what was happening to me. We were in the aircond room but I was shaking badly and my body was so hot!

The presence of God was so powerful. It was like being shocked by electricity. By the way, how I wish I could ask someone to explain why I was like that. Later on, all of us sat down while the pastor was still sharing his sermon. As I sat down, still shaking because of the anointing, I felt a gentle wind around me. My Bible was opened at that time and when I felt the wind (just like a warm blanket) around me, it was as if He was trying to show me something. I saw the pages of my Bible flipping very fast but gentle and it ended in the book of Hebrews! (My sister saw the pages of my Bible flipping but she did not know what was happening). She told me maybe it was the wind from the airconditioner…but that was impossible! I read the book of Hebrews and this verse caught my attention: “Today, if you hear HIS voice, do not harden your hearts.” I gazed at that verse repeatedly, I turned to the next page, and I saw the same verse. Then, there were prayers for healings and a few of them were slain in the spirit. I didn’t go to the front because I didn’t know what was happening to me but I was healed from the pain!

After the sevice, I went back home still shaking because of the powerful anointing. My parents prayed for me and things started to change. I couldn’t sleep the whole night until three in the morning. I was reading my Bible (like never before) and just praying and praying and praying. Through out that month, I prayed at night, reading the Bible. (This was the month when I started asking God to show me the word vision and dream in the Bible) Until one night while I was weeping and praying, I found myself kneeling in front of God’s throne. I saw God sitting on the throne, dressed in a beautiful white garment and He had a crown on His head. It was too bright as if I was looking at the sun but I could only see the smile on His face. This happened for a few nights when I prayed in my room. One evening, while I was sitting at my study table in my room, praying, I saw a vision. I didn’t see this vision once but I saw it at least three to four times in November 2005. I saw myself (probably around 20+ years old) PREACHING on a platform in front of so many YOUTHS. At first, I was shocked to see myself in my vision because I was very matured and different even the way how I spoke was unbelievable.

In December, I went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah, Malaysia for a holiday with my parents. Before we went for a trip to Mt. Kinabalu, I prayed and thank God for the fine weather and especially for the beautiful sceneries that we were about to enjoy. I took a lot of pictures of the mountain and the plants. Then, God spoke to me while I was looking around at the Strawberry Garden. He told me to look up to the sky and I snapped a picture of the cloud. The picture was so beautiful but I didn’t know why He told me to snap it. I went to my father and showed the picture that I snapped. I told him that it looked like a Chinese wording (actually, I don’t really know how to read Chinese). To his amazement, he told me that it meant “FATHER”. In Chinese, we pronounce it, “Fu”. From the picture, our Heavenly Father IS reminding us of His presence wherever we are going.

While we were shopping at Centre Point, KK, my father bought a book by Pastor Benny Hinn, “Good Morning Holy Spirit”. I was deeply moved by the Holy Spirit when I read that book. After reading that book, I prayed so hard that God will bring Pastor Benny or someone like him to Malaysia. Eventually, by the end of December last year, an aunty (quite close to my parents) told my parents that she was inviting an evangelist from Perth to Bintulu. Besides, there would be a service for those who wants to be filled with the Holy Spirit, who needs healings, speaking in tongues etc! Praise the Lord! He answered my prayers!

Early in the year 2006, a year of revivals and miracles happened in my life and my hometown. Before and after the clock strikes at midnight on 1st January 2006, my family and I gathered around to pray. Deep in my spirit, I knew great things are going to happen starting from this year. One week after 1st January 2006, around 6:30 in the morning, I woke up. Just as I wanted to open my eyes, God gave me a vision. I saw a horrible volcano eruption. The lava were flowing so fast and the smoke were rising so high even those who were staying far away could see it. It was very dark and I saw people running and screaming for help. They did not know where to run. When I saw those people running, they looked like locals because of their dark skin. This vision lasted for only 30-40 seconds. Immediately after the vision, I asked God; “What are all this about?” He spoke to my heart and said that this will happen soon. Again, I asked where would this take place and He told me that the name of the place would start with a word ‘M’. It sounded like Mexico, Miami, Me-…Because of the questions popping in my mind; I asked Him what I should do. This was what God wanted us to do, “Pray especially for the souls in US and INDONESIA.”

On 21st January 2006, I went to the auntie’s house for the meeting conducted by the evangelist from Perth. I was so touched and were filled with the God’s anointing. Miraculously, after the meeting, I met a friend and I talked with her. I started sharing about my dreams and visions! (Before, I was a quiet girl and seldom talk because of my shyness) God opened my mouth and I told her most of my experiences I have with the Lord. That was God’s purpose. Ever since that night, my life was “TOTALLY TRANSFORMED“. Never in my life have I experienced God’s touch so powerful. Wonderful and awesome things started happening everyday! Signs in the sky! Salvations in my friend’s life! Healings! Praise the Lord.

Furthermore, God showed the sign of a cross in the sky on the 11th February. It was so huge and bright! Then three more crosses at the beach the following day! Amazingly, I saw an old rugged cross at the beach at the same day! I remembered during the third night when I went to the meeting for healings etc (by the evangelist from Perth)… I was anointed and suddenly I had a vision. In my vision, God brought me up to heaven. I was standing in front of the huge gate. It was opened wide and on the right side, I saw a long winding path. Then, when I looked to my left, I saw this marvelous, huge palace! I managed to see a bit because I was standing outside the heaven’s gate. After a few moments, I woke up from my vision. It was amazing to see what He showed to me.

12th February 2006 (Sunday) at New Life Church. Two speakers came from US. Around 11.00am +, we were still having the Praise & worship time and the entire congregation were so touched and moved. During the worship, I have a vision from the Lord. My tears were flowing down my face when I saw it. I saw a big massive crowd of angels (millions & millions of them) bowing down before the Lord singing praises to Him! Holy, Holy, Holy… In addition, God was standing high above the clouds. Then I noticed that I was among the angels and my friend was somewhere behind me. The view was so awesome. Then the Lord spoke to me in a loud and calm voice: “I am your Lord” for three times!

On 15th February 2006 (Wednesday), my friend came to my home & we had a prayer session around 4.00pm. During our prayers, God gave us words of knowledge. In the midst of our prayer, suddenly God gave us some more visions! They were both interesting and horrible. Firstly, I saw a clock in my vision & so, I mentioned the word ‘clock’ & the time was moving so fast! When I mentioned this thing, my friend also mentioned the same thing! At the same time! After that, I saw a very long scroll with someone writing on it. I did not really understand the meaning yet but God answered my question a few days later through another speaker who came from Taiwan with the other teams from US during a seminar. (It was found in Exodus 34:27-28 / John 21:25 / Habakkuk 2:1-3 / Exodus 17:13-14)

On the 17.2.06 (Friday night). We had a cell group meeting with the youths from New Life Church at the pastor’s wife home from New Life Church, Bintulu. There were two speakers joining us. They came along with the teams from US. One was a Taiwanese and the other from England. During the prayer time, I was praying with the sister from England with another friend. Then I heard God spoke to me. He told me to go over to someone else and pray for her. Then God told me to lay my hands on her. As soon as I did that, the girl fell down under the anointing of God. Through out the prayer session, many of them were slain in the Spirit.

During the Ladies Seminar here at Li Hua Hotel (18th February 2006); the US team were conducting the seminar. After the sharing, there was a prayer session. Here was what happened:

Around 9.20pm, I went to the toilet for a while and later on, I went upstairs to go back to the room. Before I entered the room, my body started shaking and it went even worse as I entered the room. I could hardly stand on my feet! The anointing was so strong and God’s presence was so powerful. I stood at the back while they were all busy praying but my heart was itching to go forward for prayers (my parents were waiting for me downstairs but I couldn’t leave without going forward for prayers!). Therefore, I went over to the pastor’s wife from New Life Church and I told her what happened to me. She prayed for me. Then later on, the aunty from Germany saw me and she asked me; “What can I pray for you?” I told her, “Anything, just anything”. I couldn’t say much because of my shaking. She laid her hands on me and prayed for me (another aunty was praying for me too). As soon as she laid her hands on me, the Lord spoke through her for almost 15 minutes. What God told her to tell me was so powerful and it touched my heart. Besides that, my visions and dreams connected to what she prophesied. Here were the prophecies I received through her: “God will pour down His blessings upon you. He will fill you and the blessings will pour out like a cup that overflows. The water that flows out will touch MANY SOULS and you will reach out to many people around you…God is going to use you mightily and you are going to preach the Gospel to MANY NATIONS and therefore go out INTO THE NATIONS. Not just in Malaysia, but you will step out of Malaysia and into the NATIONS of the WORLD. He will send someone on your path. Someone who is going to help and support you in your MINISTRY etc…” Furthermore, on 19th and 20th of February 2006 during the church service and during my prayer session, God showed me how He was crucified on the cross in my vision.

Few weeks later, God put the burden for souls in my heart especially when He gave me another dream. The dreams and visions that I had were heart breaking especially to know that it ‘really happened’ just a few days later. During my school holiday from the 11-19th March, I went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah with my parents again.

Early in the morning on Wednesday the 15. Probably around 3am, I had a dream. I found myself in a very big area surrounded by trees and there was an abandoned two-story wooden house in the middle of that area. It seemed to be a green forest but it was near the beach. The weather was fine and I could hear people walking, talking, running, and having fun. Suddenly, the sky turned dark and cloudy. There came the strong wind and it started to rain. The fierce and strong wind plus the rain made the people panic. Many people were running and screaming, grabbing each other’s hand; searching for shelter and a hiding place to protect themselves. The wind and rain got even stronger and fiercer. The sound of the wind was so terrible in my ears and it was so scary. The trees were moving wildly, the branches broke and there were branches and debris flying everywhere. Although I could not see myself at the scene, I could feel the pain that the people felt when they were hit and pierced by the debris flying around them. It was like being hit by hailstones. The people whom I saw were the whites or the westerners.

Remember the wooden house I mentioned, it was badly smashed because of the flying debris. Then, I saw myself in that house. I was standing at the corner of the empty living room facing the dirty window. The house was shaking and I could hear the strong wind from inside the house. It was a horrible experience to see the windows smashed, the branches of the trees slammed into the house. At any moment, the house would topple and collapse. As I was standing there looking outside, tears started to flow down my eyes…

Few days later after having this dream, God gave me another dream. Early in the morning on Friday 17th, I saw myself in a car driven by someone (a Christian but not close to God). As we were moving along the beach, the sea was so rough and the current was so strong. It was neither a tsunami nor flash flood. I didn’t know what was happening. Then, we came across a long straight road whereby there were seas on both sides of the road. Along the road/path, there were coconut trees. At the end of the road, all I could see was brightness. When the man was driving along the road, there were two strong winds coming from each side and the wave slammed onto the dry land; the road. When the man saw what was happening, he was afraid to drive on. So, he u-turned and went back instead of driving forward. When I woke up that morning, I asked God what was all that about and He answered me after I drew what I saw in my journal. Around 11:50pm, (my parents were asleep so I took this quiet time to seek God’s explanation); I prayed and asked God to reveal the meaning to me about the dream. At 12:00am, just after I finished drawing my dream, God spoke to my heart and He explained my dream like this:

The dry land/road is the way to life. (There is still hope) “Jesus is the way, the truth and the life”. That was why I saw the brightness at the end of the road. In addition, God said many people have forgotten Him. When it comes to times of trouble and difficulties, not many will want to go through that way; they rather turn back and follow their own ways (their easier way). They did not know that even though they had to take the tough and difficult way, God WOULD lead them. He IS always there to guide them. No matter what, if we follow Him and believe that we can go through those trials with Him, He WILL reward each one who walks with Him and that is LIFE. Disaster will come from both sides (the western and eastern sea) but HOPE WILL NEVER END. Even Christians can turn away from God but God had made the way straight and we must keep on going forward therefore not to turn back. On March 29th, I read in the scripture and God explained some more about this dream. Please read Isaiah 43 ‘especially’ in verse 1-7. The promises are always there.

Regarding the dream I had on the 15th, I went back home to Bintulu (my hometown) on Saturday the18th and on Sunday the following day I read in the papers about what had happened in Australia. The cyclone that hit the eastern side of Australia was a shocking news for me since I dreamt about it a few days before. Each time when I read in the news about the disasters, I can’t hold back my tears! The dreams and visions that I had ever since I was 11 years old, they ARE happening now in this end times. Plane crashes (I dreamt about this on the 5th Sept 2000 and it really happened on Sept 11, 2001; and is happening more than before; in 2004 I dreamt about more plane crashes for two nights), wars (dreamt together with the plane crashes, nuclear bombs, fires, earthquakes on Sept 5th 2000), earthquakes (connected to my dream on the 5th Sept 2000 because this dream was about the end times happening), tsunami (dreamt few months before Dec 26, 2004; some more but worst will happen), hurricanes (dreamt about this at least twice), tornadoes, fires (just like hell), flash floods (middle of Nov 2005, I dreamt about it and it really happened in Dec 2005), volcano eruption (soon but some more will happen elsewhere), and cyclone (dreamt about this for two times in March 2006)! Jesus is coming soon, sooner than what we think!

Sometimes God spoke to me directly into my ears. He gave me verses in the Bible especially about what will happen to me and what I should do to stand firm. He is so good! He gave me verses like in 1 Timothy 4:6,11-15/ 2 Timothy 4:2-5/ 1Peter 3:8-22; 4; 5/ Romans 8/ 1 Corinthians 14…Some of my favorite verses are taken from the book of acts (Acts 2:17-21/ Joel 2:28-32), from John 10:27, Isaiah 40:31 and more. (All of His words are important to us).

On Saturday April 15 2006, the day after Good Friday, I went to the S.I.B in Medan Jaya, Bintulu for the special combined Youth Service. Just after the service, I went home around six in the evening. On my way home, I saw this huge marvelous rainbow in the sky. In the Bible, we read about God’s Covenant from Genesis 9:12-16; God said, “This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come: I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind…Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.”

Remember the vision I had one week after new year’s day (2006), I read in the papers on 17th April 2006 and was shocked to read this:

-”JAVA VOLCANO MAY ERUPT ANYTIME” …Indonesian President Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono yesterday warned people living on the slopes of ‘Mount MERAPI’ in densely-populated Central Java province that the volcano could erupt anytime…”MERAPI is currently active and could explode or emit lava from its crater anytime,” Yudhoyono said…-

On May 9th, around 10:50pm, I was watching a Christian Program and I prayed. During my prayers, I had a tearful vision…

I saw a man standing alone at the corner of a dark place in this world; feeling lost, sad, left behind… He was looking up to the heavens; wondering aimlessly. An angel was standing brightly in the clouds and I saw the dead been raptured and next, those followers of Christ were raptured too. I saw many souls been raptured except this man. When I saw him standing in the dark, I felt so sad for him… I do not want to be like him, I do not want others to be like him, God wants us back, God wants His children to come back to Him. From this vision, we knew of the light God provided. He is the light of the world. Many of them are lost in the dark… When Christ comes again, many people will be like that man but God has given us HOPE through Jesus Christ; His son. “The Lord is my Light and my Salvation…,” Psalm 27. The Lord wants to help you in your life. Jesus said in Matthew 11:28-30, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

The Lord gave me another vision when I went for my holiday together with my family.

On 6th June 2006, around 7:45pm, my dad, my mom, and I prayed for my sister because of certain things. As we were praying for her, I had a beautiful vision. I saw a child sitting alone on a hill, facing the open sea. The sun was shining brightly from the west. Then, there was a bright cross next to the child. As soon as I prayed for my sister, the Lord spoke through me. I was crying at the same time because of HIS words. Apart from that, I know that HIS words are not just for my sister but also for everyone. The SUN represents Jesus Christ (the SON of GOD). HIS GLORY will shine forever onto the people of this earth (HIS CHILDREN). HIS LOVE is as vast as the sky and wide as the sea. The CROSS represents HIMSELF/HIS PRESENCE in our life. Although sometimes we feel like we are lonely, no one cares about us, people hurt our feelings, hate us, or even say something bad about us, He is always standing by next to us. HE longs to touch, hug, talk, comfort, forgive, and love us. He cares about us so much. Many times people ignore Him and seldom talk to Him. He feels very sad but He is always waiting for us. (Please read Psalm 121) After my sister asked God to forgive her sins etc, I saw three angels looking down from the sky on the clouds; in my vision. They were rejoicing! Then, I saw the cross disappeared but the child was still sitting there. I knew that JESUS IS in the child. The child is not alone because Christ is in her. The child represents not just my sister but also to those who ask JESUS to come into their life.

Then, on 28th May 2006, I received another prophecy from a visiting pastor and his wife, who came from New Zealand. I went to a Church in Bintulu for the service. First of all, during the last session of that Sunday service, there was an altar call for those who needed prayers. I wanted to go forward for prayers but my father wanted to send me home. Surprisingly, the pastor’s wife from this Church walked towards me and she told me, “do you want to be prayed for, why not you go forward for prayers…someone else will send you home.” I was so happy. Therefore, I told my dad about it. Then, I went to the front while the couple was praying for the others. Deep within my spirit, I knew God had something to tell me. In addition, I waited for the Lord to speak to me… all I heard was “wait…be patience”. After I waited for almost half an hour, the visiting pastor walked towards me, the first thing he asked me was, “is there any specific need or prayers you need?”, and the first word that came out from my mouth was, “my future”.

The couple started to pray for me and from there, the Lord spoke through the visiting pastor regarding my future. He said that God has a great purpose for my future and He is very interested in my future. God has put my life in His path and it was already the beginning of His great plan. God said that I am already walking on His path. He is going to open the door and I will walk through it. There will be showers of blessings in my future. The Lord had planned my future and all I have to do is to continue to walk in His path… In the midst of his prayer, God gave me a beautiful vision of a place. In the vision, I stood on a very wide and narrow road. It was a tar road leading to a big city, which was further down on the right side. On my left, I saw a very beautiful sea/river. When I stood on the road, I noticed that there were huge arrows on the road and the Lord reminded me to continue going forward. That was the road leading to my future and it was so beautiful and sparkling clean! By the way, I was amazed to see the city because there were so many high-rise buildings. Besides, I saw trees/ bushes nearby the city and there was a big empty area on the right side of the land.

A few weeks later, that was on 20th June 2006, a sister from Perth (my prayer partner) came to visit me in Bintulu for the first time. Actually a lady friend in Perth introduced her to me. I never met her before, neither did I know her. Gradually, we e-mail spiritual matters, back and forth. The following night, she came to my home together with this lady friend who stayed in Perth and we had fellowship together. My mom was with us too. While they were praying, I felt the presence of the Lord among us. There were at least two angels standing by my side and I felt their wings flipping around me. At that time, I closed my hands and bowed my head. When I felt the wings of the angels flipping around me, my body became warmer and warmer at the same time. Besides, I felt the burning heat in my hands and I couldn’t move much because of the heaviness from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. It was a unique feeling as if something heavy and hard was put on me. Just after the other aunt prayed, I was supposed to continue the prayers but I kept quiet. The presence of the Lord was too strong until I couldn’t say much. I just wanted to be still and be in His peaceful presence. However, my prayer partner, who was praising God, somehow said that she felt the Lord’s presence around me. Immediately after she mentioned that, my body became even hotter and the anointing was so strong. She put her hands near my body and she could feel the warm heat. Therefore, she put her hands near my head and started praying for me.

Later on, God spoke through her and she prophesied to me: “You are prepared for mission (going out to the nations)… there are many prophets of old… just like Moses; anointed and being the prophet that leads the people out of Egypt. Like how God anointed Moses in the old days, He is doing the same to you. You are a prophet ready for mission… You will have more dreams and visions… revelations… You will be blessed… You will touch people and they will be healed… You will have a deep impact especially among the youths…etc!” Furthermore, she saw the full armor on me including a PURPLE mantle. She said that she saw the crown on my head, the sword in my hand, the breastplate, the shield, the belt around my waist, and the iron shoes.

After the prayer session, I had a talk with my prayer partner and I described to her the city which I saw in my vision. Surprisingly, she told me it looked exactly like Perth City! That includes the Swan River, the Fremantle Park, and the city itself. From where I stood in the vision, I was actually standing on the southern part of Perth and I was looking towards the city which was on the northern side. Through all these prophecies, God had called me to go for mission and to preach the good news to all nations. After I knew the direction where God wanted me to go, I sought Him more. Finally, I came to know about a school called Youth With A Mission, Perth, Australia. From there, I applied for the January’s Young People’s Discipleship Training School. Throughout my application process for this school, God had never disappointed me. He planned everything perfectly according to His timing. With some help from some aunties and uncles, I managed to get my visa, medical process, and police clearance check, done without any problem. With God’s blessing, my parents managed to get the exact financial need for my course. After I completed my high school studies. I went to this school called Young People’s DTS at YWAM Perth the following year…

(TO BE CONTINUED…….)

Jesus is coming soon, indeed; sooner than we think!
*May God’s will be done! May His Kingdom come!

Jesus said, “…if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there I am with them.” (Matthew 18:19-20, NIV)

May God bless all of you!
With love and prayers in Jesus name.

Hebrews 11:40, “God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.” (NIV)

p/s: Another title for this testimony could be found at “My Life With Christ”….
-I only updated the last few paragraphs.

Greetings in the name of My Lord Jesus Christ.
Yes all of these words describe my life and personality before Christ saved me in 1986 while I was in Jail facing many charges. God said trust me. I didn’t understand it but I had tried everything else to fullfill my quest for happiness. So far I had messed up my life and now I’m in Jail. I thought to my self why not give God a chance. I am not sure what he can or will do with me but at this point what do I have to loose.

I learned God can do things I never could. The first is, save myself I could never do it. Only God could and he did. Then he taught me it was my job out of love that He placed in me, that I was to tell others what a differance he had made in my life. I could write a book on that one. But not today, I want to tell you how God has used me to minister to 100s who many would consider socialbly unacceptable. I have been given the opportunity to wittness in forien countries and to many un-reached people groups. Who would have ever thought I would even consider going. My next trip is to the Amazon. Please pray for these people. Most have never heard about salvation and how Christ will give them every thing they need. When we share the love God gives us with others, evryone around us see’s it. You can not hide the light that God has placed in your life. He changed my heart and life. And I pray that he has changed yours.

I began writing at school, just silly stuff. about pop stars and dreaming of marrying one of the Osmond brothers. The kids at school were really interested and loved reading my stories. But my parents, mostly my mother was not keen on my writing career. There is no jobs in writing. You couldn’t earn a living from it anyway…unless you were Steven Speilberg or C.S.Lewis.

But how does a small freelance writer get to that level. Its not easy, not even in the publishing world. Rejections after rejections are an endless battle, even when your work is at the top level. You begin to feel like no one cares for your work and you give up. Musicians , Actors, and Sports people get more Sponsorehip support than a writer does, even with writers worshops, support groups, and friends you are interested in your work.

But God has given me a gift for writing. I write letters to papers, as well as books. But, when you tell people that you love to write, they look at you funny as if you are some kind of hippy. Getting your book into a local bookshop is virtually impossible, due to cost and whether your book will be a risky adventure. Why would it be risky? Because no one has read it yet. No one knows you. So how can a writer get known.

I found a christian e-authors group which is a great support for my work. I also found a POD site where i can upload my books to the public and the site print and ship on demand. God has given me the internet where i can become known. I can now say to myself “who needs publishers?”

I still get looks from people when i tell them i am a freelance writer. People, even your own church, don’t know how to relate to you as as writer. i’m a normal person. i still eat takeaway food and sleep and struggle to make ends meet. I’m not a hippy on valium. But, the world see writers as a freak out group. Why? Writing is just an art form, like painting and music and cartooning and acting. It’s just another way that God talks to His children and to the world, not just in christian books, but also in other forms of literature.
It’s another witnessing tool.

My mother used to bag and verbally abuse me for my writing, but now i’m published, she is pleased about it. If i had of had more support from her earlier on, I would have been published a long way back. What did she think it took for me to get published. Not out of thin air.

Roo

Lottie Moon was a southerner living in the 1800′s who at 32 years of age decided to become a missionary to bring the good news of Jesus Christ to the people China. Having a deep burden in her heart for the people of this asian nation, she adapted to Chinese customs and language and labored tirelessly in her service. She wrote letters home testifying about the spiritual hunger of the Chinese people of her day. Her letters told of the needs of the Chinese people and her desire for more missionaries to take up the call to serve. Lottie Moon continues to inspire many to missionary service today. The International Missions Board site has published information describing Lottie Moon’s mission, vision and story along with facts, quotes and actual letters that she wrote from China.