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I have known God since I was a 11 years old. I have always been a strong minded person who always knew that God would do something with me one day but little did I know the kind of prayer that I was praying all those years ago.

I am a graduate and always knew that I was special. I have never been ashamed about loving God so much. And sometimes that is the key to some basic doors opening for you. I had the privelage of getting a visa from UK to USA to start working. All this while I always had God in my life because you dont get what you have by yourself. If God says he want to bless you he will. So I was making my money, living the single life and having fun but still worshipping God. Then I came home to Africa to visit my parents. That was it. The devil had something planned for me that I had no clue about.

It was in January 2004 when I met someone who wanted to marry me. I knew that I was getting older but I was very smart about men and their tricks. But for some reason this guy seemed real and loved me dearly. I was impressed by how quickly he learned from me. I never intended to marry someone who was not on the same educational backgound as myself. I was more advanced than him in everything, even speaking english. I believed in what some of the old aunties in my house would say that you make a man what you want. You polish them up. At the time I thought it was a silly saying, but before I knew it I was helping this boy become a man.

Time went by, I did everything  for this man, from send him money while in America, send him travelling, help his family, even have  a baby for him. What I did not know was that when I was praying  God use me did I know what he was going to do ? I left America and gave up my apartment, my two cars, my job to come to Africa and live here. Then God said it was time.

When I got here, that man called “husband” was not quite the person that I thought. He used me, he had children I never knew about, he was abusive, he used all my money and made me live like a poorper. It was such a shock that I nearly had a nervous breakdown and a mental breakdown. I went from having money to having nothing.  And to add icing to the cake he was a womaniser. And I never saw anything. And more to the cake was that he was not a believer at all. So all the secrets came out and I was shocked.

What is my testimony, its too big for words and only God knows the testimony of what I went through. But I want to encourage anyone who says to God use me, that keep praying that prayer. But be ready to go through something. I know what I went through and I know that I can council anyone with all kinds of situtions and I am so grateful to God.

God laid it on heart to start an NGO which will allow me to minister to all kinds of people on a global level. But I am in a bad sitaution. I am still in Africa even what to eat is a problem. I have lost all my money and I dont even have any money to register it and start the NGO. My life is totally horrible, but I know that God will see me through and he has promised that he will make away in the wilderness.

I hope that I have touched somone with this testimony. God Bless you and keep hope and faith alive.

Miss P

Hi, I am wondering if any of you can help me understand this. Maybe God, will prompt someone with what this means.

I had a dream about someone I was in a relationship with. It did not end well, and the person was turning to satanism, porno web sites and so forth. I had started doing warfare prayers at night before going to bed. Even while I was with the person I rarely had dreams about anything related to us.
In the dream I was in a house, what they call Dutch Colonial here. It was not terribly run down, nor elaborately furnished. There was an enclosed porch attached to the house. Also part of the architecture that is common here. It was winter so the front door leading to the porch was closed. I was wandering around the house. I met a woman who was in the house. She seemed quiet, but sneaky, I was “sweet” to her, and complimented her. She simply smiled with her eyes downcast. Before all of this happened, somehow after I was in the house, don’t recall myself walking in actually, a number of beautiful, but vicious wolves attacked the door. They could not get in and attack me, and even though I was alarmed, I started wondering around the house. It was when I came across the woman, who was in what appeared to be the kitchen. I knew she was involved with my ex, and I also felt leary of her. I was afraid, and knew my ex would show up. He did, I did not actually see him walk in the door, but suddenly he was there, and looking at me with extreme hatred and contempt.

A Christian friend said the dream was probably warning me to stay away from him. I have no contact with him. I sensed a lot of witchcraft, and occult, demonic spiritual warfare when I was with him. Specifically aimed at breaking us up. People around him hated us being together. He was not honest either. I sense that what I got from the dream was related to continuing warfare, and spiritual attacks being aimed at me, and the demons where mad because I was praying at night before going to bed. Any insight anyone has would be appreciated. God bless. Asia

So, about a year ago I was driving home from college and I was a having an incredibly intimate time praising the Lord. I was also listening to a prophecy tape that my church recorded at my high school graduation presbytery. All of a sudden in during my praises and prayers, I felt that Jesus had jumped in the car with me and we began having a simple dialogue about all walks of my life at the time.  I eventually wanted to ask Him about my future wife and He told me her name is Rebecca. Also that we would have 8 kids! Ever since then I’ve been waiting to meet a significant Rebecca at my university or on facebook through my large network of Christian friends.

Recently I have discovered a Becca amongst mutual friends but I’m terrified of meeting her and ruining the relationship that hasn’t started yet. Anytime I suspect she will be at an event I’m attending, I shy into a corner or don’t show up at all. I don’t want to alter the situation or go ahead of God’s timing. Hopefully, like the story of Isaac and Rebekah in the book of Genesis, she will just show up while I’m worshipping in a field or something.

I plan to just grow personally with the Lord right now while I have no distractions, but I feel anxious and doubtful at the same time. Faith and prayer are all that I can stand on, and I guess His provision is always better than anything I can strive for.

Is it safe to tell my friends and peers? What if it doesn’t come true? Anyone ever heard of this type of spouse revelation/prophecy? Advice or encouragement?

i am only 16. about a year ago i met a girl at a cancer benefit. sooner or later we were going out. things were greattt and i believe she was my first love. but we were together over summer and when school came along i had too much pressure to deal with and she was pushing more serious with me and i believed i couldnt take it. I thought i was over her and was wrong. she told me theres a new guy and i am crushed. she did say though, after later telling her some of my feelings that in the future she thinks its possible we could get back together. and i would really want this. but now shes all head over heals for this boy and he just asked her to prom. thing is shes a junior and hes a senior hes leaving to college and she knows that it may not work out. my pain is so tough and im looking for answers in god. where do i go from here? i am praying for strength as well as a guidance. but i really wanna be with her. what should i do and how does god help me?

Hi, i have been a believer for sometime now.  I have been active in my church until my dad got sick and died because of cancer.  Since then I felt cold. I felt so devastated by it and got traumatized from a lost. I tried to seek God once again and while i was in that process, i had a crisis about myself on what to do with my life now and family as well as with my boyfriend for more than 5 years. He wanted to marry me but i told him that the timing was off because of my father’s death. I asked for a breather so cooled off for awhile and got back together but then since i was having my crisis, i needed to leave the country for awhile to think things over. When i got back, i realized how much my boyfriend means to me and to my life. Just in the midst that i was feeling God in my life again, my boyfriend broke up with saying that he fell out of love. After a month saying that he wanted to get married. Before the break up, we were working things out between us. But then he told me that when i was gone he was detaching himself from me involuntarily because he doesnt want to get hurt again since the last cool off happend. He felt insecure about my plans of leaving the country to work, that he couldnt do anything about it even he didnt want me to go.  He told me that he’s been holding on to his defense mechanism of not loving me anymore bacause he was so hurt from the cool off.  He is very active in church by the way, he is a worship leader. I just feel that i am in wrenching pain, i am still grieving from a lost now i am losing my boyfriend who i thought we will end up getting married. He told me that it will be best for us to move on. He wanted to fix himself first so he wont be able to hurt anyone else anymore. I feel so deceived. Just when the time that i was willing to work things out with him, he just gave up. I dont know how to move on, i know that God has something instore for me and also for him, but i am in a cross road, battling with my emotions of heart broken and trying to understand things. Ive been seeking God since the break up, but one way or another, my emotions is killing me. I want to understand me ex but i feel so clueless. How can a man fall out of love wherein he was the one insisting to get married. I asked God about this and got nothing. He kept himself busy with ministry and fellowship, but me left behind because we have the same circles of friend in church and outside church. I dont know if he feels the same pain i have now but moving on because he has to. I dont know what else to pray for, i ask for grace and strength for Him. I want him back so bad and i am still waiting for him. I still want to end my life with him despite the pain. How will i be able to understand God’s will knowing that i lost the 2 important men in my life.

Please help me understand God better. I have no one to talk to right now but God. But i dont feel him speaking to me. I am believing that he will reveal his word to me soon, but the enemy dont want to stop from putting back some memories i had with my ex. we’ve been together for almost 6 years. I dont know how will i be able to move on. I asked him back once but he declined, he said that he need his time. There are no third party involved. God can attest to that.

Please help my brothers and sisters in Christ.

I dont want to give in to the enemy on doing things wordly.

I feel that i am in a battle field.

I was sixteen years old this yea. My cousin brought me to church in past two years, we’re living in Malaysia, due to She’s is going to having her studies In Australia. I stop attending my church , but still. This is past two years, I prayed every night before I slept. I hope that god could really answer my prayer.

So, now. God allowed me to get more closer with him once again since the July of 13th, year 2008. I started to attended my church again and now Im really committed to it. Before I was back to my church, I got a real unsuccessful relationship had happened.

I met up this guy in 3 months ago, I thought he was my real true relationship partner in my life but I was so wrong. Things really went well in the first but started to getting worst after a month , I almost got to suffer everyday of his ignorance, he kept on requiring nothing but sexual relationship , before this, I really dont know that sex before marrige was agaisnting god’s law. I love him so much and I would like to do anything just to make him happy. My virgin got taken by him and after a month . He leave me and my heart got really broken. After the broke up , we’re still having some kind of relationship together but, after awhile. God started to put him out in my life .

When we’re having some kind of relationship together, in this mean time. I started to attended my church again, it was god’s plan. To allowed me to get more closer with him once again. My heart got really broken, I really need heal from god but after all , I really thank god that he arranged my life very carefully but now, still. My heart is not really mend yet.

I pray to god. Hope that god could really answer my prayer, I really need heal from god. In a way, I hope. The foolish guy could really get out of my life, I dont wish to see him again in my life until I got fully recover but still, I really wanna thank god for standing my back in this 3 months and I dont get to see him recently in my life even though we’re really near in a same place.

Lastly, I hope . All the world of god’s people would pray for me. Hope that god will really heal my heart. Amen.

I prayed to the Lord that He make me not boast about the things that I had done; right or wrong. Oftentimes, I find that the man I love does that to me though. It really hurts my feelings and sometimes even makes me not feel like living anymore. I know that sounds ridiculous, but have you ever loved someone so much that it made you lose your love for yourself. The reason I feel so bad about this is because… can I ever really truly love God enough if I am so involved in this man like that. The most important relationship that I will ever have with anybody will be with Christ. I love Christ so much that it makes me feel really sad that I also love my boyfriend that much. I mean, he isn’t even my husband yet. I want him to marry me. Besides all that, I really ask that whoever reads this prays for my relationship with God and also brings my boyfriend to realize how important God is in his life also. Also I still want to marry him. I have also prayed to God for my boyfriend to marry me. One amazing fact is that I prayed for God to bring him back into my life when we were broken up also. One day, he came over and said to me that he doesn’t know why he came back to  me after we broke up, but that something just prompted him to. I said to him that it was my prayer to God. Overall though, as of right now, my initial concern is that my boyfriend does not boast about being right or wrong either because it is not what God would want him to do; not only to me, but to all of God’s creations.

There lives a young boy who fear god, doing his ministry and adventures to known about earthly life, He was so happy when he feels that he is going to venture and visiting many people after he finish is high school, everyone in the family likes him so much, he can cheer up every one those around him to make them happy as well.

And the day had come for him to leave the family and go far away to find his own living. He started to be independent, he founded work, he find foods and the life was totally different from where he was before always be a rounded with parents and relatives, the loneliness strikes him to find a friend to cheering up the days as he was before.

As the days goes by he meet a girl, she is a quite type of person, always like to be lonely but ambitious they started to get to know each other and the boy always make her smile and laugh, the boy love to help her in her needs, sending and picking up from her collage spending time together day and night chatting, and the times come where both of them fall in Love, this boy is so honest to his feeling and his love, but this girls so quite and secretive as who as she is but she is honest with her love, then both of them decided to inform their relationship to their parents, so they can build their love much steady and stronger, but everything not working as what as they planned, the girls mother didn’t like the boy to be in her family because he is Christian, the boy had broken heart and so sad of his First Love, he prayed so hard to God to makes this situation changed to be back as normal but nothing change, and the girl started to avoid and ignoring him from that day on, his promises and memories ruin his mind to force him to forget her by change his life mixing with unbelievers, he start smoking, he start drinking, he started to do all kind of evil thing that is not good in the eyes of God. He doesn’t feel the fear at all.

12years later…

After many people had passed thru in the boy’s life, all the relationship and Love he shown honestly is not blessed and fulfill, till one day after the last broke off the boy sit and thinking back where is the mistake that took place to this situation, he started to realize the relationship that he build around, the blessing that he had lost from the relationships he builds, tears start felling down from his eyes his heart feel crush of all the bad memories he passed thru, he cry and he cry and he cry but no one listen to him…

The boy started to pray to “Father, Please forgive me for keeping you wait for so long and didn’t realize the pure love that you shown on the cross…please forgive me lord, forgive me ”

He quit smoking, drinking and keeping away from all the evil and sin that he had did before from that day on.

One fine evening he back to his family and the family is so happy he’s back but in his heart he felt so bad because he doesn’t bring anything to bless his family. All the family members don’t expect anything from him instead helping and blessed him to be back as who he is before. Most of all his father bless him so much in his need and also his mother and brother and sisters.

He start to attend the church again, start to pray for all his sins to be forgiven, listen to the word of God and doing his ministry given. God is so good in this boy’s life, he touch him and blessed him again after the boy realize the real true LOVE of father in heaven.

Everything had change his life little by little, he is happy as before, he had found back the Joy and Peace in God that he had lost many years ago…. Please pray for him for his source of earning and blessing.

The real life of the Author of this story
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God slowed my anger towards others and made me realize the need for forgiveness.  God made me forgive those who had done evil to me.  He also made me not deny that those things were evil and He dealt with it and healed it.  God made me protect myself from the consequences of my own anger by making me forgive myself for my “failures” and “flaws” instead of seeking to condemn and punish myself.  God took away the pride that was there keeping myself from confessing a mistake and apologizing for it.  God made me not keep a record of other people’s wrongs, or remind them of things that they had done wrong in the past, or constantly bring up their mistakes and failures.  I prayed that He make me honor the truth in my relationships, speaking the truth in Love and keeping silent when the truth couldn’t be spoken gently or kindly.  He also made it possible for me not to lie about my thoughts and feelings and He also made me let others speak their thoughts as well.  I prayed that He make me persevere in my efforts to practice good relationship skills even when those efforts didn’t seem to making progress or when thay were not appreciated or rewarded.  He made me patient as I learned to make wise choices, knowing that these skills did not come instantly. 

Hi

I’m an Indian, Hindu brahmin gal. i got married some 5 years ago. My husband & i are not in good terms. he comes home late does not eat food at home. He has a female friend whom is he very close . Though she is married & has a child still she does not want to leave my husband & my husband wants to leave me for her.Though am a hindu by religion but I am a strong believer of Lord Jesus. i always loved my husband with true heart & i still do. I donno if the lord wanted me to get married to him. after 5 yrs also we are still struggling to come close to each other.i really want to start a family but husband is still not sure whether we shud continue this marriage or not.that women really wants that we shud break off.I have not lost my faith completely i still feel that i can save my marriage & bring my husband out of her clutches.

please advise me & write a few words of encouragement sothat i can continue this fight & see a happy married life one day with my kids.