Testimony Share

I hope Jesus is with me when i am writing this testimony.  I wish to praise, admire and worship my Lord for his love for me. My heart is healed in god’s love. God’s love me so much, whenever I prayed, he answered me. Of course, I did not ask for something all the time….

For over 20 years, I am a christian but not baptised until 2 weeks ago. I attended 4 churches in my life and could not find one satisfactory until I found this New Creation Church after I moved to Singapore 5 months ago. Please believe me, if you are a christian, god arranged everything in your life. I am a perfectionist, therefore, maybe I have certain point of view and feeling towards a church. I need to feel comfortable like being ‘home’ before I commit. Praise the Lord, eventually, he brought me ‘home’ (church) after more than 20 years.

My faith in god starts at the age of 5 when i didn’t know much about God, Lord or anything. No one in my family is a christian. But I suffered from asthma and somehow I believe in God, I would like to rely on Him. One day, when I was 6, I prayed to my God (not even know how to, quietly in the toilet! ) because I did not want to fail my exam in sports. There had been lots of practice but I failed every time, 10 out of 10 times I failed. So i believed apart from miracle, I would not pass my exam, so i decided to pray. Then, MIRACLE did happen, it was a basketball exam, I passed. I knew at that time it is God. My childhood wan’t happy as my family was quite poor even though my mum struggled to bring the best to our family. When I was young, the only dream is to grow up quickly and earn more money to have a better life.

At my age of 11, it was time to ‘fill in the form’ to enroll to secondary school.  My mum trusted me so I listed all the schools myself, none of the schools are Catholic or Christian school but only good schools. She checked the school list and felt satisfactory, then she just left me for my own decision. Suddenly, I really did not know why, I changed one of the choice to a famous novel Catholic school, it was only my third choice. But then, god arranged me to go to that school! Mum was not happy as it is not the first choice and the top schools. At that time, I already felt, God has arranged this for me. That Catholic school made Bible Study as a compulsory public exam study, and i love to study bible, I believe in God and Jesus and everything. I studied hard, so I obtained an A1 to my Bible Study in the public exam. At this stage, then you will ask……why you still not baptised? Oh yes, i was not fully convinced because of 2 reasons: first, I was very scared of 10 commandments, wait, so many rules, and the standard is so high, I do not want to sin more and more everyday. The mentality at that time was ” the less I know the rule, the less I feel like I sin’. However, as I mentioned, I love Jesus and my heavenly father, I feel sweet and rest when I go to church. So, I attended a few christian churches outside school (over a period of 5 years). At the age of 18, my sister in church asked me to baptise, i was so scared that I ran away!! Somehow, I also like to make my own decision instead of rely in God. (Now, I know it is wrong, God wants us to rely on him, we are the lamb and Jesus is the shepherd).

God Bless….I am a lucky woman, as I said, I always dream to earn more money to improve my quality of life. I graduated with first class honour in my degree as a pharmacist, then I also graduated with distinction in my part-time Master degree. also I took part-time course in marketing, I came also first in class out of 1000 students. I got into a nice company, earning quite decent money, but as days goes by, i did not have time to attend church, I started to trust myself more than my Lord. I have also a sweet face, lots of guys chased me, spoiled me and was proposed by men all the time. But again, i am a perfectionist, each relationship didn’t last long (average 1-1.5 years). One day,  I met a married man in a wedding at the age of 23. It was love at first sight for me, I knew nothing about this man apart from the fact that he is a police.  After 2 years, I met him again in Karoke, we fell in love, I was told that he was divorced. We moved in together, problems started after 3 months. He had drinking problems, bad temper, but because I love him so much. I tolerated, once he slapped me over my face, I still forgave him. Was I crazy? I tolerated this kind of life for 14 months, then I found out he had huge debts, he didn’t divorce, the worst is that…..he also has hepatitis B but did not tell me……I nearly committed suicide but I did not, only took a number of sleeping pills and went to sleep deeply. I left him eventually but my heart was in trauma after that.

The Lord is nice to me, my company continued to promote me, I was transferred from Hong Kong to Switzerland to resemble the role of regional manager at the age of 28. I was proud. When I landed in Switzerland, I was lonely, I cried….still I did not go back to my Daddy Lord.  I found a man, we engaged for a few years. Life seemed normal but I was never happy as I was not home, I was no longer a princess. Then I asked my boss to transfer me to London! Wow, London is not a easy place for chinese to have a high position. I got a nice position in London with a expatriate contract of 2 years, company paid for my apartment and nice car but I started to have problems in relationship again. This time, I found my engaged boyfriend cheated on me, but since I was 30 at the time, I wanted to get married, so I tried to forgive. Unfortunately we broke up and then I was drowned in depression. From time to time, I felt life has no meaning, even if I pray, I could not concentrate. (Later, I notice that, for a powerful prayer to happen, you need to repent yourself, tell the truth and forgive other’s people’s fault against you, at that time, I could not forgive my fiancé). Life for me is too challenging, I was depressed, I felt very tired…..When I nearly collapsed. Lord walked into my life again. He gave me a man (boyfriend) who I know is going to be my husband. But I was still in depression. Then I prayed him to bring me ‘home’, at least back to Asia. This time I prayed with tears and faith. Lord did answer me and bring me ‘ home’, I got a nice contract in Singapore. I started going to church, and i cried and thanks Lord for bring me ‘home’. Praise the Lord.

Life seems perfect for a few months, depression started to recover. Apart from having long-distance relationship with my boyfriend sometimes drove me crazy as I missed him too much, We stayed close. Until 30th July, he suddenly had brain haemorrhage and was sent to hospital. I didn’t know because we argued before his haemorrhage. He wrote me a few e-mail but I replied coldly. He recovered a little bit after a week, survived and he went to check his business. Unfortunately, he got attacked in London’s riot at his head and immediately sent back to hospital with a stroke. From 10th August, he was in coma. He did not move his body, not even open his eyes. I cried again, this time no depression! God has healed me completely! MIRACLE happens, on the first day I went to New Creation Church, I got a free book called HEALING PROMISES (gift edition from New Creation Church) with Chapter 1 being ‘God Wants You Healed’. I was healed before even I completed the book. Praise the Lord for healing me. So I started to believe in the power of prayer, have very strong faith, and believe completely in healing. When you did a you-tube search, especially on the CBN channel, you will find testimony of healings and miracles that are so strong and convincing.

So you will ask me, how is the condition of my boyfriend today? Now, he is still in the hands of my beloved god. He is in stanford hospital, completed a 38 hours surgery but still alive. It is MIRACLE.  You can see the power of prayer, he started to react. However, he has also heart problem, so if he regains his conscious for a few days, he will have to go immediately for heart surgery. I prayed with full faith, in the name of Jesus, for his full recovery. Miracle happens, and I totally believe, he will be fine. No matter what happen, god will bless me.

Before I end, I have to praise my Lord again. I spent on average 6 hours over last month reading bible and testimony, it increased my faith everyday. I felt happier than ever, and was baptised on 3rd Sept 2011. I was reborn as the child of Lord and our Heavenly father, I am no longer a perfectionist and see things completely in a new way. Even though I am under distress with my beloved boyfriend’s condition, I found the world is so beautiful.

For those who read this article, I hope you can help me to pray for my beloved boyfriend, Imran Aslam. I wish he will see Jesus in his life one day, and he will recover fully and has a family with me for the rest of my life. This is my only wish.

Well I think I wanted to share a bit of my testimony. My parents were both divorced when I was 5, so it was actually easier that it was when i was younger, and my mum, my sister and i moved away and i went to a different school etc. My mum and her side are all christians but my dad’s side arn’t, so that’s what makes it harder i guess, as your torn between two sides. I became a christian when I was 11, and honestly sometimes the biggest thing i struggle with is the fact that i dont always feel like i have the best testimony as everyone has gone through something that dramatically turned them to christ, whereas i was just brought up like that. But before i was a christian i do remember being quite insecure, as my mother had a ot of different boyfriends and i was always angry and hurt because i felt replaced. But after i became a christian i still had to deal with a lot. When i hit year 7, i think that was the major turning point in my life. I didnt fit in to school because i was the christian girl who was shy. I was bullied a lot and i was sad a lot too because i felt so insecure. Everyday i wanted to just get away from primary school. But in the later years, those girls that were so catty at me, actually changed their demeanor and were nice to me in high school. Although we went to different highschools. One of those girls actually became friends with me in school and to this day she is now a christian and holding charity concerts.

So in these highschool years, i learnt a lot about myself and went in and out of groups. Being a tomboy, then in with a bunch of girls who became too catty, then finding a good group of friends to hang out with that kept to themselves. In year 9 i think, my dad dated a ady with 3 daughters and it was really hard at first, getting to know them all. I hated his girlfriend, because she was blonde, and fake, but i eventually warmed up to her. That was before she dumped him though. She was his fiance and she was cheating on him and it was hard for us because dad was a wreck. I have never been close to my dad, so i had no idea what to say. Since my childhood, my dad has neglected me my whole life, so i even thought that he deserved what had happened to him. When i was 15, i lost one of my close friends. He died from a brain hemmerage and it was such a shock to me and everyone. That was one of the most tragic things to happen in my life, and really stuck out as such a spiritual event in my life. The first funeral to attend and all my emotions were going crazy, i was a mess for a while. My first boyf was when i was 16, and it only lasted 3 weeks. I felt pressured to date him and i learnt i will never date another guy i dont have real feelings for after that. In that same year. I met an amazing french guy online mistakenly on a music forum. And got chatting. I talked to him for a year, and we grew really close. It was like a fairytale. We were making plans for him to visit me in australia even. But it wasnt meant to be. I left for vietnam for a month and he found another girl. When i came back home, i was devastated and my whole life was turned upside down. I was moving houses, and moving schools in my final year. I found it a little hard to fit in at first, and later was just angry because of the breakup that i cut myself, and ran away from home a lot. I just used to walk for hours at night and then come home. I felt embarrased and ashamed of myself from the cuts that i made up excuses for it and hated it when my classmates asked about it. I missed my friends so much that i moved back to my school and then settled right back in.

I finished school and then moved onto uni, and met this guy when i was 18 through an old friend from school. He and i hit it off straight away, and spent every weekend together for 5 months. I really did fall hard for him. His family were becoming closer to me, and I had never been in a situation like that before. But good things mostly come to an end, as i went through one of the toughest times in my life when we stopped talking. The friendship was broken because of the friend that had come between us. She had depression and it really overtook both our lives and we were spiralling out of control. Its been a year and 3months now since we have spoken, and everyday since, i have wanted him back. But he has broken my heart, and i was left crying for months and months. But i am slowly and surely recovering, and i have become closer to God through this obstacle, and have learnt that i have to focus on my relationship with him first before guys.

I am now 19, and recently a family friend passed from a stroke at 55. She was a sweet lady who let us house sit her home when we didnt have a place to live, and i learnt a few things from her. It makes me a bit sad though to have seen her suffer on earth. It made me a lot guilty too when i was too afraid of seeing her like that, that i didnt go to visit her for months, before i finally went in. It shocked me to see her so badly looking and unhealthy. I nearly cried right there in the hospital. But i know she is in heaven with the angels. Lately I am still trying to see what God has in store for my future. I am still doubting, but i still have to be strong and have faith. I try to fast forward to the answers too much, and get angry and upset when idont get it straight away, especially now when im at uni and have no idea what to do when i leave. But i know god has a plan, just like he has helped me in the past, through all these trials.

Hello Everyone ,

Today I want to share this amazing expirience with you .

Wednesday night I went to my church service I have been attending my church for about 3 years and I have always brought my daughter with me who is only 5 years old and my greatest gift from god. These past 2 months I have been going trough a rough time I have been callling to almighty god in my life to over come my difficult times . When I left the service and picked up my daughter from church school she was very excited and happy and told me she  had fun, she has always liked going to church with me . Before I left the house I was just singing to god the first song that came in my head ” you are holy, holy … are you lord god almighty .. worthy is the lamb .. worthy is the lamb .. AMEN it turns out the choir sang the same song in the service and I felt so peaceful . There was no place I would rather be then praising almighty god. We are on our way home and were stuck in traffic so I start singing out loud in the car “you are holy, holy .. are you lord god almighty. worthy is the lamb.. worthy is the lamb.. AMEN . I look back at my daughter to see her and she is crying she is tearing up with so much emotion and I ask “Baby whats wrong why are you crying”? she looks at me and says “because I love GOD, I love him so much” I was speechless I felt his presence within her. She knows about god and I try to answer all her questions but she is only 5 and to my amazement she is full of faith already . She continued to cry and look up at the sky trough the window . She then says to me ” I wanna give JESUS a hug” my eyes watered my heart was as tender as it could be . I told her to close her eyes and give jesus a hug and that god hears and sees everything and that he is so happy that she loves him so very much. To god be the glory. He is within us he is everywhere It made me realise that no matter what is going on in my life he is present and he loves us oh how he loves us!

I am so scared and in need of help. I am 23 years old and I have a beautiful 5 year old daughter who is my world. I am currently in a long term relationship and feel like im suffocating more and more everyday . The relationship started off rocky when we first met he was great I felt so incredibly happy that I found somone that made me laugh and smile and make me feel loved I treated him with so much love, he did not have a car I dopped him off and picked him up from work took him lunch and coffee everyday. got him out of probation, payed some of his bill when he couldnt he needed so much love and affection and he appreciated everything I did for him .

He started spending time with my daughter. then he started talking to his ex girlfriend behind my back he slept with her and me in the same week . I was devistated he ended up telling me he was confused and he still loved her and was gona give her another chance. My heart shattered I felt like a fool but decided I would just let him go after all we only dated for a month I cut off all bases with him. After about a week I received a text from him apologizing for a huge mistake he told me he realized it was me he wanted to be with and he would do whatever it tool to make things right with me, so I forgave him but I never forgot and we began our journey together he became  so wonderful I moved in with him and he took care of me like a princess I felt everything was going to be just fine and it was for about a year .

We began arguing more and more he would do things like be on porn sites and create accounts to find women all of this brought fear and ditrust in him, i have forgiven him and tried to leave things in the past but any odd behavior from him scares me. We have now been together for 3 years and I am at a breaking point arguments have been bad and he blames me for allot in the relationship  i apologize constantly for things he does somethimes I get these panic attacks and anxiety when he talks about leaving me I feel as if I want to die . I feel like im being attacked by the devil . I have toughts about suicide in so many different ways . I try so hard to come to god and beg him for mercy and help because I know I cannot so this on my own. I have become depressed.

I feel alone as if no one loves me . He is not affectionate he doesn’t comfort me and acts like he really does not care anymore . I dont know what to do Im loosing myself. Me and my daughter love him so much and I wanna be happy with him but I just dont know how to deal with this anymore Im so scared i know that I have my own issues and Im not perfect but I feel his soul disconecting from mine he is mean to me sometimes please pray for me. I feel the devil has me wrapped around and keeps attacking me every chance he gets .. if i start feeling happy it goes away fast I can hear him in my head telling me the ugliest things about my self telling me it is all my fault . I need to be ok. For me for my daughter . I feel i need to really give it my all in this relationship but its come to the point where I can’t feel god by my side I dont hear him talking to me . What can I do? How can I make this pain go away?

I was raised in a strong christian family my dad a pastor, i went to church every sunday without question and LOVED it! me and god had a great relationship. upuntil i hit around 11 or 12 and my eyes where opened to the world. At first i started to rebel against my parents big time so much so i began to spiral out of their control, i would wake up in the morning put on skimpy clothes and wear a big coat over it take it off in school then have it back on when my parents came to collect me, i would run away from home if i wasnt aloud out, i would scream horrible things at my parents if i didnt get my way. i would do the things everyone else was doin even though i knew it was wrong i just wanted to fit in i was sick of being ”the weird church going preachers kid” not self proclaimed, what others would label me as! i was still going to church at this stage physically, but mentally could not of been farther away. the block between me and god had gotten so big because of my sin. and me really not wanting to have anything to do with him, all i wanted was what the world had to offer me. I then went on to secondary school where things just got worse, studys werent my main concern but BOYS where oh the attention i craved from boys and got was what really lead me astray from god, i thought why be walking with god when this boy can make me feel ontop of the world by telling me he loved me and holding my hand. the feeling from the attention off boys that i got was like no other feeling and i just wanted more of it!

then as the years went by i stopped going to church, i started drinking quiet heavily with my friends, the boyfriends started acumulating, i would run away from home all the time and switch my phone off not telling my parents where i was going have them worried sick but not care less. it was all such a thrill to me i had distanced myself SO far away from god that i could not feel that empty aching allways needing more feeling. i was loving the world to much to feel it. and then around the summer before i went into 4th year it hit me that feeling, the feeling of being away from god the empty needing more than i had feeling was there, then i was introduced to weed and it numbed the pain i was feeling i used to say to my friends how life was better when i was stoned and it was because when i was high i was numb to gods calls to me. i started going out all the time to clubs with my friends had a long term serious boyfriend which came with sex outside marrige. after 4th year that summer i was smoking weed heavily after the summer school time came around and i just couldnt get back into studying my head was so mashed from all the weed so i left school and became a waitress giving me plenty of money to spend on what i wanted. that winter before the media started noticing the bad behind these legal drug shops called headstores,me and my friends where regular customers. there was an epidemic amongst me and my friends we started taking this stuff called blow it got so bad some of us would take it during the day as well as when we where going out at night, we where all hooked! when blow was good it was good but when it was bad OOOhh was it bad, remember what comes up must come down and when i came down was when that aching empty void inside me really kicked in, so all i wanted to do was get higher, and get higher is what i did! blow and most everything else in the headstores where eventually made illegal so we had to start moving onto the illegal harder drugs. e.g ecstasy and cocaine, we all became such manipulators and liars to our poor parents no1s parents knew what we were up to, we all learned to be unbelieviably good at hiding everything from them.

as the thrill wore away more and more everyday The abuse i had learned to LOVE with all my heart just became a means of numbing that pain i felt being away from god. i rmember one of the first times he called me to him and i was still in my long term relationship but i was at nearly rock bottom i told a very strong passionate christian friend of mine that god was calling me and i knew i needed to go back to him but remember telling her it was either all or nothing i knew i had to walk away from my intire life as i knew it al this stage because if i didnt even if i was wlaking with god i would slowly but surely go back into my old ways because and me and god would be equally as far away from eachuther as we where before because i was simply far to weak. me and my friend had lengthy discusions about god, she was unbelievably encouraging and helpful. And me and god where doing well but then i fell because i couldnt give up my empty abuse loving life!

then me and my long term boyfriend broke up because that void i was feeling that only god could fill was just eating at me and ultimately ruined our relationship because i couldnt tell him what really was wrong because he wouldnt have understood. so that ended and i continued leading my empty life until god reallly started a work in me, all my friends where doing there leaving cert so i was seeing less and less of them then my ex came back into my life and we started seeing each other again and i felt void filled again with a 2nd chance with my ex i remmeber thinking now il be happy again if i try my hardest to do antyhing but to let this relationship crumble and thats what i did, and god saw that and knew at that time what stood between him and me was this boyfriend that my feelings towards him where begining to get so strong again it had to be broken and thats what hapened he broke me down to absolute rock bottom where i just cryed out for the lord was in so much pain i would do anything to be walking with him again.

so i gave my relationship with my boyfriend to god, i gave up my relationships with all my friends to god, i gave my old life to him! and am now on the road to restoration with the lord, and my family! he has showed me more love and given me such a peace, that i cant remember feeling before. He has given me an amazing suportive encouraging sister in christ who i mentioned earlyer who god has really spoke through and who i wouldnt of been able to do this without. he shows me day after day blessing after blessing how good and real and there that he is he has filled my void! he has given me hope he has givin me a reason to live!he is my father and i pray i will never walk away from my father again because life without him in me is a worthless aimless hopless sad depraved life the complete oposite of how i feel with him now praise the lord!!!!

Not sure where to start. I am married though currently seperated from husband.Got saved about a year into relationship but grew more when we were married. My husband could not deal with the radical changes that occured in me and seemed to almost be fighting for attention with God, not understanding what God coming first in our lives meant. I couldn’t deal with who he was becoming either, because as he studied he became more and more worldly picking up some habits that he would have never dreamed of before. Needless to say we were pulling from opposite ends and the battle was huge. He had an affair briefly which he confessed but i had also suspected. I found that hard to overcome but felt that God was telling me to stay and he would bring restoration(OCCURED 2006- 3 years into marriage). It took me a while but eventually i began to try and work things out. Trust was a major issue and I have never been comfortable in the first place with male female ‘friendships’ especially where marriage is involved. Amidst all this chaos was our little boy 7 now.

I pray for my son all the time because it has affected him greatly especially because his father tends to not involve himself with him a lot, it’s heartbreaking when a man chooses career and progresss over his own flesh and blood. I live with my son and have to comfort him in those times when it really gets him down. Anyway now i’m at that point where my husband has brought up trying to work out things but i find it hard to believe his claims of love. There are so may rumors sorrounding him and other women which he absolutely denies, and i know rumors may just be that-rumors but, at the same time i feel people wouldn’t need to create any if one didn’t give them the weaponry to do so with. I don’t feel love for him in the sense of that which a wife needs to have towards a husband and i have no respect left for him to be honest i’m very indefferent to him. I have been considering divorce yet that’s where the confusion comes in. Would i be in God’s will by doing so, am i not trusting God to do what I full well know he is capable of, am i acting in pride….???

I cannot get my head round how tainted our relationship has become and it’s publicly for that matter. It would be a case of actually starting over again, but would he make right publicly what he has wronged publicly? Part of me just wants a new start with a completely different person and I find my mind wondering off to an ex of mine whom I’ve briefly been in contact with since my seperation. I don’t think i am in love with my ex, but feel if granted the opportunity it could work out, he was a high school sweetheart, back then i actually for want of a better word worshipped him and he adored me, got along well with his family, still do with some. Now even my relationship with my husband ‘s family is strained not because i haven’t tried but circumstances seem to just dictate how things are at the moment. That has been so since i’ve been a christian and i began to take a stand for my convictions, the seperation has just made it worse. I’m at that point where i would like to do what is right before God, for my son and for me. i’m just not sure what. i do miss being with someone sometimes although that has been made easier because i’m studying and are either too busy or too tired to dwell on that. I NEED PRAYER. I just seem to be going round and round in circles. I need to hear from God with Clarity then i can know how to focus my prayers and my life -desperately

First, I will post a part of someone else’s post (their identity not revealed), and then post my reply (testimony) after a line –.

Someones post:

Its been 9 months since I broke up with an x of mine and for some reason there hasnt been a day where i haven’t thought about her. We only went out for 1 month we were perfect at first but in the end some stupid stuff happened and we ended up just seperating. Honestly I was really heart broken like never before when we separated but because of the heart break, my relationship with God grew alot because I looked for him even more for comfort.

So God actually used that relationship and the heart break to draw me closer to him. We really havent talked at all in those nine months, I have been focusing really more on my relationship with God and what not. But for some reason… I have not been able to forget this chick at all. You know, you would think that I would forget this chick in 9 months of no communication at all and it being just a relationship that lasted 1 month but for some reason she has been on my mind constantly.

I pray for her alot because she is always on my mind you know. I worry about her honestly sometimes too. I recently had two really serious dreams of her back to back. Both the same concept but different backgrounds and settings. They both potrayed her being lonely. I’m not gonna describe them because they are really long but in both dreams she looked really lonely. I really dont know why I cant forget her…sometimes I ask God to help me forget her but its always the same. Is this weird? is this me or is God trying to do something and I’m just not paying attention? Trusting God.
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Almost exactly the same happened to me.
I reacted the same way too!
I went to God for comfort. I asked him about relationships, and for his love to enter in me so that I could love the way he did. After enduring and persistent prayer God answered me, and with more.

1st He taught me these about relationships:

1) He wants us to focus on him completely, and allow him to make our relationship decisions. He will send, (and yes he will not send us someone who we find unattractive) us at the correct time. So that we can focus on his kingdom without being hindered. Remember, God knows what’s best for us and he knows our desires too.

2) He supernaturally put his love in my heart and taught me that scripture says that love is to desire the highest good of another person (in God’s standards). That also if i loved her, i would seek what’s best for her, even if it meant that God has planned for someone else more matching for her – according to his purpose, design, and plans for her and whoever is going to be with her. That I should not touch and tamper with God’s work in her life unless given permission. I found this hard to do but God’s love became so great, i was able to overcome it and desire God’s desires for her. Also the reverence of God increased so much, that i would not dare try to date her again etc. (she desired me too, think of how hard it is for me to let go.) But God did something amazing after! Tell you at the bottom.

3) God will not put together two person who hasnt reached a certain level of spiritual maturity because they will distract and destroy each other through their relationship.

- He wants both to love him first and are already God focused. You can’t love each other completely without his love and loving him first. It’s carnal love and will fail. God’s love never fails.

- God plans for marriages ahead of dating, he will not and does not support random dating. There is “the one”.

- God writes romance and love stories with real lives. He does not make broken relationships, men do it.

- God’s design for both person to be together in ministry. God has a special ministry for both person
even at the beginning of the world waiting to put in effect. Their ministry is together. If you know your calling, it will help identify who she is. There are relationships God did not ordain, God heals their relationship and puts them in ministry but it is God’s way of working around his initial plan that didnt work. It falls short of what God originally intended. Do not compromise your and her ministry and effectiveness on the earth by taking matters into your hands. God knows what is best and he will make it happen and you will be glad.

- both are not brought together to compensate for each others weaknesses. They are put together to build and strengthen each other, as iron sharpens iron (biblical). That’s both must be God centred and at a certain maturity. Some ppl will hide by using relationships as a form of covering and/or securing their insecurities, brokenness, and weaknesses, which furthers their damage and also compromises blessings and damages the other person.

- compromise is a worldly teaching. it says we should compromise for each other. Thats not biblical. Compromise exists to a certain extent but not the way the world teaches. You two are pieces of puzzles with unique shapes. If you don’t fit each other, the world teaches you to compromise by shaving the edges of your puzzle shape. The only things that needs to change is – wrong beliefs, wrong attitudes, wrong relationships, wrong behaviours. Things that are not meant to be compromised is who you are in your heart. (e.g. your love for music – musicianship, your passions, and whatever ignites a passion in your heart by nature that is not unholy)

- Jesus says whatever in our life prevents us from
bearing fruit, he will take away, for ours and, consequently, everyone’s good. Its called “pruning”.

- Being “equally yoked” has to do with all of the above.

Heres what happened. Me and her separated shortly after we got together coz some rumors from jealous ppl were spread around. God ministered to me and I received what he taught above and love in my heart. He formed a christian group at school through me. Blessed it and gave me a classroom to share and fellowship together, and increased the numbers of attending ppl. While God prevented me from seeking a romantic relationship with her, I prayed for her and he drew her closer and eventually joined the group. we fellowshipped each week and people’s lives were changing and growing in God. And because of God’s love in my heart, i wanted nothing more. Remember God’s love never fails. What men intended for evil, God meant for good – beyond imagining.

- Ask for God’s love. Not his love for you, but to carry his love in your heart. Scripture says that even if you have all the spiritual gifts, if you dont have love, you have nothing. I had nothing but love, which is greater than having everything but without love.

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before submitting this post, im required to type in the captcha presented in a picture. Guess what it says? “LOVE”.

First I want to start off by saying how grateful I am that there is a site like this where you can share with other believers things that you are going through. In 2007 I was involved with this guy for 3 years and we lived together, and yes I was aware that that was wrong because we weren’t married but I loved him so much I didnt want to leave. In the beginning everything was Great we were so in love with one another we hated being separated even for a day. Then in 2009 things started to change, we started arguing a lot and he wanted me to move out. He became more distant and I tried whatever i could to make Him happy. But to no avail.

So I would pray and pray but nothing would change. I started asking God what he wanted me to do, if he wanted me to move out but stay in the same state or move out of state to where my family lived which I REALLY DIDN’T WANT TO DO! I felt God was telling me to move to where my family was, I didn’t want to believe it so I kept praying the same thing over and over, meanwhile things between me and the guy seemed to be getting worse. I felt that he was seeing someone behind my back, I was SO stressed up I started developing stomach pains regularly I couldn’t eat anything without getting sick to the point I ended up going to the ER. I was so confused I didn’t know what to do, I had three dreams that Him and I were going to get married but the day of the wedding we never got to say our vows it was like something wasn’t complete. So I was thinking is this God telling me He is the one for me?? So that made it harder and again I didn’t want to leave.

But like I said before the living situation just wasn’t good, we argued and I started to feel uncomfortable there and hurt because I felt there was something else. So I finally gathered strength one day and packed and left. I felt that God wanted me out of there and if I would’ve stayed any longer my Life probably would’ve been really rocked and I would’ve gotten really hurt because God was trying to let me know I needed to leave but i wouldn’t. And i know sometimes God tries to get our attention gently but then he has to take drastic measures sometimes to get our attention. So I am thankful to God that i got out when I did. So I moved in Sept of 2010, the first 4 months we’d communicate via text but now that has stopped completely! I have not contacted him because I think its best for me to heal. And he just hasn’t contacted me for whatever reason.

I still think about Him everyday and still have feelings for him. I keep praying for God to heal my broken heart. I forgot to mention that since I’ve moved near my family one night my sister had a dream about him that he was talking to his cousin telling him how much he was in love with me and that he’d be waiting for the day that we got back together. In that dream there were a lot of details that my sister told me, which there was NO WAY of her knowing because I never told her about. So I dunno what this all means. I have been praying to God and asking Him if He is the one for me, that he would let me know and if he isn’t the one for me i asked God to take him out of my heart and my mind. I DO want the guy that GOD wants for me because I know that it’ll be the RIGHT person, not who i want. So now I’m just waiting on God to answer me, and trusting that he’ll remove the pain from my heart. Oh and I’ve already asked God to forgive me for living the way I was and I’ve asked God to forgive Him for the things that he’s done to me. I ask that whomever reads this, it would mean sooo much if you could please pray for me! Thank You and God Bless.

First of all All praise to Lord God Almighty.

I am in love with this boy. We studied together. We were having a deep relationship. He knows about Jesus,but not much spiritual. When we got into the relationship I got blind in the love and didn’t share Jesus’s testimony or make him know more about Jesus as I should have.
And so,God separated us. It became so hard for me. He told me to forget him. We love each other so much. Both of us cannot hurt each other talking over phone,our break up was also through message.

Yesterday night also i was missing him so badly. These days I got very close to Jesus. I separated more time to meditate and be with Jesus. Talk to my Lord God. That gave me strength to move ahead. Yesterday night,as I was praying I asked Jesus, if I should continue praying for Him to return to me. I pray this way that first my Boy should come to know about Jesus’s love deeply. And then our relationship should flourish more stronger than before. I begged God to show me a sign. I tried to forget him many times,but always when I prayed I felt God telling me ‘pray for him’. I’ll make you both together. This separation is just for a little time, When i reunite you it will be a bond which no force on earth can separate.’

I keep hearing this whenever I pray.

Yesterday, i asked for a sign from God and then slept.

Today morning as I got up,I checked my mobile. It had 2 missed calls from him. I called him back. He told me ‘he got his lost mobile back’. He had lost his mobile when we were in relationship. That day I had told him ‘If the God I serve is true God, then you will get back your mobile’.

I couldn’t thank God enough today. Never knew he would work this way and answer my question.

I am going to continue praying for him to come to Jesus more. God is wonderful. I was crying with happiness in the morning as Jesus answered me in the most remarkable way.

Its been 9 months since I broke up with an x of mine and for some reason there hasnt been a day where i haven’t thought about her. We only went out for 1 month we were perfect at first but in the end some stupid stuff happened and we ended up just seperating. Honestly I was really heart broken like never before when we separated but because of the heart break, my relationship with God grew alot because I looked for him even more for comfort.

So God actually used that relationship and the heart break to draw me closer to him. We really havent talked at all in those nine months, I have been focusing really more on my relationship with God and what not. But for some reason… I have not been able to forget this chick at all. You know, you would think that I would forget this chick in 9 months of no communication at all and it being just a relationship that lasted 1 month but for some reason she has been on my mind constantly.

I pray for her alot because she is always on my mind you know. I worry about her honestly sometimes too. I recently had two really serious dreams of her back to back. Both the same concept but different backgrounds and settings. They both potrayed her being lonely. I’m not gonna describe them because they are really long but in both dreams she looked really lonely. I really dont know why I cant forget her…sometimes I ask God to help me forget her but its always the same. Is this weird? is this me or is God trying to do something and I’m just not paying attention?  Trusting God.