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hello ..my name is lee,,.im 67 yrs old…i was 11 yrs old when god came into my life .of course i never fully lived for christ ..i was as common people.and just  lived and worked and such.and believed in god…and i knew that i was saved….but until 2005…i was not full…i had a family and wife and we lived as most people do…but when my wife came down with parkinsons my life began a great change….see i lived a long time with a person who didn’t fully love…she had too much pride and arrogance……i loved her with all my heart and we had children…..but unless you see into the word of god with the spiritual eye….you will never understand…what god has his people do…….see i married her out of  a family of people who say they believed ..but thier works   deny god..ok..you must understand…that god has not changed one little bit.. .since he came on the scene in the beginning of time…you have to believe this…..jesus christ the same yesterday today and forever…….. anyway i got her out where she could be saved …she admitted this many times in her testimony…and i knew it….now here is  an IMPORTANT  thing……its better to obey than sacrifice…she never fully obeyed god in our marriage…to be a meek and quite spirit…which is of a great price..for women .and i would lie if i said i was so perfect…no i was a man who just could not understand why my wife was never satisfied with anything……now this is very important .so    LISTEN  whoever YOU ARE THAT GOD has intended this..he do’s nothing in vain.ok ….when she got parkinsons .in 2005.she began a change..she saw  the hand of god  in this..she slowly begin to have great change of heart….see no one came to help me tend her.i cooked all meals.and bathed her and tended her c ombed her hair.and all medicine  she   finally sa w what  LOVE is …..she said……lee,please dont put me anywhere in a home….and i could not ever have done it…. see what ever i did would be done unto me…..what so ever you do unto one of my little you do unto me…may GOD help you if you one little one wrong…….its better that a mill stone be tied around your neck and be cast into tghe sea…….oh my brother and sister can you understand..we are called to a higher place..that hatred and ourself…we are born  to serve in this army of LOVE..od is love…love never fails..oh theres great hurts and much troubles  .yes  oh yes .but we have  a crown of life laid up…..she became so helpless   and over a 5 year period   … i saw god put the meek spirit into her.and she became so dependant upon me…ansd she never wanted me out of her sight……..now  the message is to someone who will not lay down stubborn pride and haughtiness….these things god hates.in man or women…… to  be  meek is not weak…dont be confused….meekness is like dynamite under controll…love is the greatest gift……paul said…opne day my wife called me into the house and said…..(not long before she died) …..lee im sorry for all the years that i could have been a better wife….and lee   sorry for all the hatefullness and years of anger…….and i said ITS  O.K. for doris .you see i loved you anyway….the point is  if YOU HAVE MADE A VOW….YOU KEEP IT..IT DO’S NOT MATTER IT THE OTHER DO’S…OR NOT…YOU KEEP YOUR VOWS…be not decieved god is not mocked ….whatsoever you sow ye shall reap…..now i sent her on her journey to a place beside god until the DAY…that great day when he shall appear….with  clouds..and angels..to be changed into his likeness……..now when i buried her.on that day all my children left the graveside and never returned to me…..they did not believe the way i do…..you cant live like dogs and such aand be a service..for one son had left his wife and shacked up with  another woman.and one approved of it and so on..etc. etc…and ….i was left alone upon life.to grieve and to deal with this myself…now HERE IS THE REASON I WAS ALONE…AND LEFT TO MY SELF…god had another plan for my life……for 5 months later he sent a precious younger woman into my life .she came in saying lee, i love you lee i love you so much.and i spent  so long trying to figure out this amazing thing..and she never would go away no matter what i tried…i tried to see if she was from god……she is from colombia southamerica….so i began to put together   this thing…….for years ago in the 80’s and 90’s i had supported a child from brazil..and then  one day the interperter wrote me a letter and wanted me to become her father.which i did glady .and she was  washed in the blood of the lamb….amen…so i knew that some how god was working a thing…….for thru this precious woman from colombia….i began aplan to help feed some children in the slums……now i have 2…children in villavicenceo, colombia who i help each month….also went to bogota..and stayed with a precious woman who helps feed th poor street children ..i lived in her mothers house and saw 1st hand  the poor slums where she works to help the poorest of little one….now this testimony is for someone….someone  some where is needing just you…see you…..you are someone key to life……we are not born to ourselves …..ive been down to colombia  2 trips and god blessed me with so much love…..from these people……i could have went to anywhere .but GOD choose south america.which pleases my heart…….just say here i am lord send me …….he want send you where your not quaified..he do’s not tell the geese to fly south, without south to go to..amen…they shall over come by their testimonys……and make sure of your election,……and dop your own ministry.you cannot plow in anothers field…….do everthing with a willing heart…..for the eyes of the lord are running to and fro thru out the earth on the behalf of those whose hearts are loyal ……..if god tells YOU ….I MEAN YOU .to do anything do it .and dont ever let anyone stop you….for he will call you for an answer…….its a terrible thing to fall into the hands of a living GOD..also pray for me and pray for this precious woman god sent.. i have doors that are open for much work.and if any one wants to help this woman in bogota..i ahve her email.etc.and information …she needs much help..theres  so much hunger and poverty…..im still amazed and working on this project from my lord…….maybe just maybe some one will get a word….you know ..here a little ..there a little…line upon line   precept upon  precept .. he that hath an ear……i get a lot of comfort from other peoples testimonies for …that is    real life….god is hurting out in the streets.and and prisons.and gutters..and hungry and naked…..is not this the fast i have chosen……the lord said…….       when i sit in darkness..the lord shall be  alight unto me……brother lee …any help for diana..in bogota is appreciated..