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God Healed me from Anxiety and Depression
February 16th, 2009
I remember the first panic attack that I ever had happen was when I was a little girl. I had a tormenting thought engulf my mind. “What if my mom died?” Oh my goodness, I became so scared that my mom was going to die. I would cry and lay on my mom’s lap, hoping that God would never let that happen to me. Of course, now I know that it was just Satan trying to steal my joy as a child, but I never really dealt with my problem of fear until I was much older.
As I grew up, I would have these times in my life that were really stressful. I would feel anxiety attacking my mind and body. As time passed, I slipped further and further away from the presence of God. I began to reach for the things of the world. I started drinking alcohol and partying. This only led to more guilt, shame and anxiety. Whenever I felt anxious, I would reach for a strong drink; something that would calm my nerves and make me feel numb. This went on for 14 years. Finally, I found myself hitting rock bottom, what could I do? Who could I turn to? Even though I had drifted so far away from God for all of these years, I made the decision to make a change in my life. I could not continue to slip further into the pit. I decided to go back to the cross. I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior and began to rebuild my life.
In 1996 I came under such an attack of the enemy that fear tried to overtake my life. I was so afraid that I was going to lose my mind and end up in a mental institution. The more I stressed about it, the stronger the attack became. I would have all of these really strange feelings and my mind became consumed with such torment. I would cry out to the Lord, “Please help me” I am desperate! I am pleading to you God; please take this from me! I went to several different doctors and their diagnosis was that I had a panic disorder. The doctors prescribed Xanax and antidepressants. But wait God, I am trusting in you to take care of me. Why do I have to take this medicine when you are King of Kings and Lord of Lords? You are the Great Physician. I continually warred with the idea of taking all of this medicine when God is the healer. Satan would tell me, “God will heal others but not you. You are not worthy of his healing.” Satan would also tell me that I had an evil spirit and that is why I was in this mess. Everything Satan could throw at me, he did. I became so tormented with crazy dreams that I could not sleep. I would ask God “where are you?” I was sinking into a pit and needed help. I didn’t want to leave my house, I would get in the car and this terrible cloud of anxiety would engulf me. I would want to go back to my house as fast as I could get there. Help me God Please!
My wonderful husband Bill, and my mother, father and two sisters prayed diligently for me every day. I also had a very close friend Vonda Bishop who helped me and prayed with me. Finally one day, God placed an anointed woman of God in my life. Sister Mildred Dalton. She was an older, very wise minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. She began to take me under her wing and teach me God’s ways. She informed me that I was sowing all kinds of bad seeds over myself with the words that I spoke. “Oh I’m going crazy” and “I am afraid I am having a nervous breakdown”. Sister Dalton told me where the precious promises were in God’s Word for my situation. She had walked through the same attack earlier in her Christian life. She would tell me “Listen to me, don’t listen to the devil.” I began to quote God’s Word over myself every day. “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7 When I found this scripture, I stood on it with everything in me. Every time I would start to feel panicky, I would quote this scripture over myself. You see, I didn’t have to do anything but stand on God’s Word. God’s Word is medicine to those whose find it. Of course you can’t claim God’s promises if you don’t serve him, but if you are a believer; then it will work for you. I began to search the Bible for God’s promises for me. I wrote all of those down and quoted them daily over myself. I continued to pray and ask God for his strength and help. In the midst of the storm, I used the sword of the spirit, which is God’s Word to defeat the devil. This did not happen overnight, but baby step by baby step I walked out of the attack. Every day I became a little stronger and finally I looked back and I was out of the attack. I renewed my mind with God’s Word, and became victorious. I built my faith by quoting His Word. “So then, faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the Word of God.” Romans 10:17.
I want to encourage you to make up your mind that you are going to stand, no matter how hard the battle may seem. “Put on the whole armour of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.” Ephesians 6:11. godscureforanxiety.com
March 2nd, 2009 at 2:34 pm
I love the armour of god! Amazing testomony, keep on truckin!
April 28th, 2009 at 8:46 pm
I am glad to hear of your testimony. I believe that it was the will of God that I read your testimony. I am experiencing similar situations. The Holy Spirit speaks and directs me as to what I need to do to overcome this problem. As you indicated, it is by speaking what the Word of God says. I’m glad you were delivered, and I know I will receive complete deliverance as well.
May 22nd, 2009 at 12:17 pm
Encouraging testimony. I am struggling with anxiety and depression now (especially anxiety). I am praying the Lord will show what it is He needs me to learn from this. However, I desire to be delivered. My anxiety is so severe that my lungs feel pressured and breathing becomes constricted. I have had numerous medical tests and they all come back negative. I wonder if this isn’t an attack from the enemy. However, God is sovereign and will deliever me at His appointed time. Please pray for me. I try to have Paul’s attitude. “His grace is sufficient for me”
May 31st, 2009 at 10:12 pm
I had the same thing happen to me, reading this was like reading something I could have wrote. I was healed in church , the first night I went back to church after being gone for years. I got so desperate that I went back to the cross… and boy what a relief. Jesus is wonderful….thank you for posting.
July 11th, 2009 at 12:38 am
It is wonderful
July 27th, 2009 at 3:15 am
hi im mark from the philippines, i have a mental illness called by Psychiatrist as schizophrenia, but i do believe the problem is spiritual not mental. i thank God i read the testimony of you i was blessed and enlighten…i know because of this the Lord will use me more for His greatness. God bless take care always…
July 27th, 2009 at 3:19 am
i know the Lord will heal us by His powerful word!
August 17th, 2009 at 5:40 pm
I read this story just now and man how can I relate to it ,its me and everything I am feeling right now in my life I also feel like I am going through this I pray and this inner voice says im not going to be healed because i dont have enough faith,and sometimes I feel like I have done to many bad things in my life to be healed of this.I feel like its something evil trying to ruin my life an destoy me ,I have this panic disorder and depression an feel god is the only way to overcome this and your story just gave me the hope I needed thanks alot!
September 30th, 2009 at 12:03 am
Great testimony! I am having the same mild issues too. My issues with anxiety have gone on for about 2 years now, and though most of it was during a time in my life when I moved away from God, the most recent issues with it are due to the stomach ailments I seem to be having. Since I feel I have all the symptoms for being hypoglycemic, I became nervous/scared/overwhelmed at how I would need to handle this in my life. Being a busy stay at home mom who doesn’t get out much, only intensifies the problem more since I don’t have things like my family, work or other commitments to distract my attention from this anxiety issue. I too have called out to God the Father asking him for his healing and have have rebuked the spirit of anxiety too. As much as I would love to know where this came from, it is definitely not of God; with that in mind, I too will surround myself with the Word everyday. Things like this can also be bondages, and if prayer is not enough to remove the problem, then “this kind can only come out by fasting.” Fasting is an overlooked source of power from God. It may seem hard to do, but try fasting one meal and spending that time completely with God and you will walk away feeling closer to God than you ever thought imaginable.
Scripture also says…
“Do Not Worry” Matthew 6:25
25″Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?”
Ah, when life gets you down, it’s always great to have the instuction manual.
October 1st, 2009 at 3:26 pm
Thank you for your testimony. I’m a christian and have been struggling with anxiety & panic attacks for a few years now. How do you feel about the antianxiety medicines that are given? I take a low dose of xanax daily. I do want healing.
October 30th, 2009 at 7:45 am
I am reading your emails right now and have been having the same anxieties and feelings of having left God and unworthiness and sadness, but I woke up this morning and I recognise that these are the last days and the enemy will try everything to immobilise and spiritually paralyse the people of God but I pray the in the name of Jesus, Father you said whatever we bound on earth will be bound in heaven, I cut off in Jesus name, every spirit of darkness and depression that will try to immobilise your church. Father I thank you right now that you despatch your angels, IN JESUS NAME, to go before us you people. I plead the blood of Jesus over your church, because your blood has never lost its power. I thank you for Psalm 91, our divine mantle of protection. People, God is despatching angels.The battle is not ours, it’s the Lords. Jesus said, it is finished, on the cross of Calvary. I break, in the name of Jesus every spirit of premature death. Like the children of Israel Lord we paint the blood on our doorposts. Jesus, your glory will fill this earth and your army will arise, I speak to the dry bones and I say LIVE in the name of Jesus, like Ezekiel. I speak to the four winds and I pray that your spirit, breath and life will fill our bones. THANK YOU JESUS.
Like David we declare, we shall live and not die and we shall declare the glory of the Lord in the land of the living.
Amen.
November 17th, 2009 at 10:02 am
Your testimony is awesome Lindalong. How often did you have to quotes those scriptures before you actually started to get that freedom? I want that. I did that yrs ago and God set me so free from my anxiety and depression. I am struggling again with it and it seems like it’s not working so great this time–of course that is probably exactly what the enemy wants me to believe, right?
December 1st, 2009 at 10:50 pm
Thank you so very much for this testimony! I’ve been looking and found myself an inspirational word from a fellow God believer. I’ve been struggling with myself, and at first I thought I had many other things such as OCD and Social Anxiety. But I was lying to myself. I used to have depression two years ago, and it came back because of a relationship with a girl I had recently that triggered depression. I didn’t know what in the world I had, and today I noticed: I had depression. To be honest, I started laughing because I’ve gone through Depression before and I know I can beat it again. Thank you very much, and thank you for the verse which I wrote down and put it up right next in my shelf, where I’ll see it everyday! THANK YOU AGAIN THANK YOU GOD LORD MERCIFUL!
December 4th, 2009 at 6:34 pm
This indeed is a blessing.I’ve had the same problems for years and did not know. I grew up thinking that,something was wrong with me, why God allow all these things to be happening to me. I got down,miserable, afraid ,scared all the negative emotions and thinking haunted me for years. But you know I know God, as was always going to church and always wanted to give my life to him, but I keep shrinking back, everytime I feel good, I’m out in the world again, and vice versa. Until I could not take it anymore, as I went to psychologist,psychiatrist, counsellors, everyone that I heard could help me here on earth, but it NEVER worked, not until I cried out to God and relise that I was living outside of His will and surrender totally to Him. Only then I truly experience change. Now I won’t tell you that it is easy, but you can trust God to pull you through. Romans 8:28 says’Everything works together for GOOD to them that love God’, Luke 1:37 ‘All is possible with God’. He will pull you through, as He first love us. God Bless you.
January 5th, 2010 at 6:53 pm
Thank you for this site. I needed to hear from others and I am truley gratefull I found you. I wish I would have been here sooner, but today I needed this more that ever before. Made God continue to bless you and everyone who reaches out to Him.
January 17th, 2010 at 4:07 pm
I am 31, a mother of 5. I’ve had anxiety/panic/depression for 11 years. I turned from God for about 10 years because of this, became angry. For the past year, I have clung to God about this. It has literally just about ruined my life and myself. Your testimony is encouraging and gives me hope! Bless you…..
January 28th, 2010 at 4:58 pm
it is the hardest thing ever. everytime you go on with not having had it for what you feel is quite a long or decent time, it all comes back to hit you in the face and tell you that you still have it. <- not sure if that made perfect sense but.. i mean that is anxiety isnt it. you have a great day, but at the end of the day you suddenly get these thoughts that go 'wow.. i havnt had it for SO long..no panic no anxiety, i was/am normal.. how come!?' e.g. feeling too tired, hearing news about death etcetc then it gets triggered. its almost like.. ‘i havnt had it in so long. this cant be. why not? i think i should have it. il have it’ and so you then have it.. i wish i could sometimes switch my brain off..i have been reading the word of god for quite a while now but..only He knows when i will be 100% better, no symptoms no side thoughts no nothing.. but i am really sick of this and if i werent a christian, i wouldve attempted suicide (no joke.) i guess i sound like im whining as ive only had it for 3 months (cant believe im saying ‘only’ lol, it was actually an anally long time) whereas people here have been saying theyve had it for years…. i just hope the end is freaking damn near. i mean, extreme eczema for 18 years, followed by anxiety..funfun lol. sorry just had to vent! and damn, why is it that some people just pick up the bible and then theyre healed immediately/miraculously. of course any and ALL healings are miraculous but.. with eczema and now this, why does my healing have to draaaag
. wish i could just get healed in the moment.
February 2nd, 2010 at 4:26 pm
Lindalong, thanks for posting your story. I’m struggling with this myself in various periodes of my life, but it seems to keep comming back. Now I sometimes have trouble breathing even. It is encouraging to read that if you hold on to Gods promises he will come through. I know God has so much more in store for us. God promises us LIFE and have it abundantly(John 10:10). That makes me fight to overcome.
February 15th, 2010 at 11:44 am
Wow Linda! that is awesome!! I have been through the same thing! I am thankful for this day and age of computers! I am most thankful that god is using you Linda to bring the truth to others!!