I dont really know where to start. My boyfriend and I have been together for a year, and the moment I met him I knew he was the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

About a month ago he noticed a lump on his testicle so we went to the doctor last week and he said that he thinks it is testicular cancer. When the doctor told us that we just about fainted. Hes only 21, im only 19, we had summer plans, our one year is the 22nd of this month, we want a family…im just devastated. He went to get his tumor markers yesterday and we should get the results in on wednesday.

This whole time My intuition is that it is just a cyst, because everyone in his family has had cysts or anything thats been wrong with them its been benign. Maybe im just in denial? But,when the urologists felt of it he said that it feels like a normal cyst. But the ultrasound is telling him differently. The word CANCER has been thrown around soooo many ways and they have trained you to be deathly afraid of that word, and thats what I am. Afraid.

Every morning I wake up and I just want to cry because idk what to do. Im scared of losing him, im scared of our future. I try to be strong but sometimes I feel like I just cant be. My boyfriend is even being stronger than me! He tells me, “We cant just sit around and be sad, that will just make it worse.” and he is soooo true.  He is such an amazing guy, he is positive 24/7…people just love him.  The only positive thing I have to hold on to is the fact that this is completely curable.

Sometimes I would love to blame god. Ask him why he’s doing this. I know everything happens for a reason, but how do you trust in god when everything just seems soo horrible. If everyone could pray for us that would be nice. Pray that when the tests come back its not bad, pray that IF he does have to have surgery that it will go well and pray that he would make a full recovery and the cancer will be completely gone.

Thank you =)

10 Responses to “How do you trust in god, when everything seems to be going wrong”

  1. wale Says:


  2. Moriah Wilhelm Says:

    Hello there. it is funny how i stumbled upon your story. i felt your pain deeply. my boyfriend and i have been together for a year since june 7th. and we’ve talked about family also, he is very happy and always possitive all the time, like your boyfriend. thats what made me feel the pain you must be feeling with this.

    I am 21, and believe me i was no saint. but recently i decided that there is nothing greater to live for than the one who gives you breath, and the one loves you more than we are able to comprehend. tragedy happens and will always happen to man until the end. it is so easy to blame the one who made you, but why?.. the nature of people is to focus on bad things, and paying very little attention to the good that happens in life. That doesnt mean you have to, you should enjoy everyday with him, and live everyday as if it was your last.

    I hope that helped, because you should never feel hopeless. God loves you and your boyfriend very much. please stay possitive and i will pray for you both.


  3. Sophia Says:

    The Word says in Isaiah 53:5 that by His stripes we were healed. Your boyfriend is healed by the blood of Jesus.

    Father as we come before your presence today, God we give you the glory and the honor. Father we comitt this couple before you, Lord God we come together in the prayer of agreement and in the name of Jesus we cancel every plans of the enemy over this young man’s life. We plead the blood of Jesus over his life, we soak him in the blood. Father we ask you to uproot any cancer or any other infirmities or disease in his body, we cast it back into the pits of hell from whence it came. Father we believe and trust that it is your will to make him have long life, amazing health and a wonderful future. Your Word says so in Jeremiah 29 vs 11 that you know the plans you have for him plans to prosper him and not to harm him plans to give him a hope and a future. Father dispatch your angels at this moment to keep watch over him so that he does not even dash his foot against a stone. Cover him in your blood, because there is power in your blood, there is healing in your blood. Father give them the strength to get through this trying time, give them a testimony Lord Jesus. Work on their behalf at this moment in the amazing name of Jesus we come to you tonight. Amen .

  4. Parence Says:

    The heavenly God is love, i wanna leave my prayer for you
    our dear heavenly father we thank you for the gift of life and all you continue do in our lives. father we come before you asking for forgiveness i wanna pray for the guy who is not feeling well that you may heal him and make them grow in father.in Jesus’ name i thank you Lord today and forever more

  5. Louis Says:

    I know it’s late for me to pray for you, but I really do hope and pray everything worked out for you and that you’ll live on together happily, you just gotta stay positive, it’s the best thing in life.

  6. Aria Says:

    God says even if you have a faith as small as a mustard seed, you can move mountains. Just build that faith in this crisis time and ask God to forgive you for what ever you and your partner are. Cry out to Jesus, asking him to just heal him, just make your partner say, Forgive me oh Lord, and save me Oh Lord, I will be safe. Heal me oh Lord and I will be healed and believe in your heart that it will happen. It will come to pass. God has told heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away. Claim the promise from the Bible. Continue to pray and read the Bible every day. Seek the Lord whole heartly, He will give you your heart’s desire.

  7. Ben Says:

    Get married for a start, then give this COMPLETELY to God. Remember he will not let anything happen to one of his children that cannot be used for his glory. When you give it to him, trust that he will sort it and dont worry about it anymore. Thats having faith that he will heal it. If you can do this then he wont let you down.

  8. liz ooro Says:

    hi dear read your testimony and i thot i need to share with u on God’s ability on impossibilities He is able to heal your boyfriend if u read about Moses in ROM 4:21 he was absolutely sure that God is able to do what He said He wud in this case He said he is the healer that heals our sickness,by His stripes we were healed.God has healed ppl who were HIV positive this is nothing hard fro Him the bible asks is there anything hard for the Lord the only thing needed is faith that can move this mountain Christ came to give us life and life in abundance so we children of God must live in divine health my papa Bishop oyedepo says God healed him of TB nothing is impossible to God he further says unless your faith makes you look like you are mad it aint faith yet. if you can get hold of his teachings on health he has so many literature material yo can start with healing balm by bishop David Oyedepo if you believe you ARE BOUND TO CARRY A CHANGE OF STORY. God loves you.eph 3:20

  9. Amanda Says:

    I dont know how many people who have already posted on here will read this but I figured I would give an update.

    My now Fiance (we got engaged July 30), did have to go through surgery, after that his tumor markers shot up to 2,050…which did indicate cancer. Was not the news we wanted, but it was what it was. We immedidately went to a Oncologist and started working out his treatment plan. We went in weekly to get test done and each week his tumor markers kept rising…I started researching about this Cancer so I could prepare for his Chemo. We started going to church, learning more about the lord and his healing powers, started praying with some people and I feel soo much better! I dont feel so alone anymore and I realized that blaming god was the worse thing I could do.

    He started Chemo August 2, 2010. And his last day is September 28,2010 =) His tumor markers went from 1,050 to 10, 210 to 37. We are very very thankful that god has blessed him with such a great outcome.

    And thank you to everyone who has been praying. Even though I do not know any of you, your prayers have been the best gift any one could ever ask for. I just ask that you continue to pray for both him and I that we will get rid of whatever sickness or disease that we both may have and just live a normal, healthy life.


  10. minz Says:

    That is God’s miracle.

    Will pray for both of you. Have a blessed married life. I guess you are married now.

    It was a real boost in faith reading your testimony. Let only God’s name be glorified. God bless you dear sister.

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